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I HOPE YOU ENJOY

DON'T JUDGE MY STORY EITHER ! :)

SOOOOOO , TYHIS IS THE LAST CHAPTER I THINK .

THERE WILL BE A SEQUEL THOUGH WITH HIM IN COOOOOOLLLLLLEEEEEGGGGGEEEE 

WOOOOOOH !

1 Week later

-Raquel-

I hadn't spoken to Trey or Garret . It wasn't that i was mad - okay , so maybe i was a little annoyed but it honestly wan't that big of a damn deal . It happened , it was a part of life . And quite frankly i was ready to move the fuck on . I wasn't even holding a grudge . 

I actually wanted better for Raven than what i'd seen so many other girls turn into . I had told her that . But it was her life and her decision . She was actually a very smart girl , one of the smartest i knew and i couldn't hold one little fuck up against her . I knew that if she really ut her mind to it that she could do anything and be anything that she wanted . 

And i didn't just think that because she was my sister . 

There was actually something that i saw in Raven that i didn't see in most girls my age and even older . She could do it . 

Seemed like Trey was avoiding me though . I didn't like that . What made him think that i would all of a sudden be mad when i wasn't when he first told me . Maybe he thought i wanted space when all  i really needed was my friend . 

Shit , if he wanted to not be boys no more than i would even be fine with that as long as he was there for Raven . That was all that really mattered . 

Raven . 

Garret was ignoring me too . 

Now that one stung a bit . I had known him longer than any of the other niggas i hung with but yet he was acting all new to the game . 

In the begining i was pissed that he had the nerve to sleep with Yvonne and then get her pregnant at that . But then i realized tthat if Yvonne would do something like sleep with my boy then she wasn't worth the damn energy i put into being upset . 

After dwelling on it for a few days i figured out that maybe somethime ago i probably  did have having a few feelings for Yvonne but nothing major . It damn sure wasn't love . But underneath that anger and all those fronts she put up she was a cool girl . 

But she was going down a one way street too fast and there wasn't a thing i could do to help her . If anything i was the one who pushed her down the road by playing with her emotions the way i did but it was over . It was too late for appologies and too late for regrets . 

I was going to move on with my life with or without them . And as fucked up as it was to say that , it was the truth . 

My own friends were acting funny toward me and all i could do way stand by and watch shit fall apart . 

I pushed my last bag into the back of the car and closed the door . My mother had given me her old car and bought a new one for this special occasion . It was a going away gift and i love it . A 2003 all black BMW , fully paid off with my name on it . Shit , i was ready for college , ready to get away , ready to figure out what i wanted to do with my life . 

I was just ready . 

for anything . 

Everything .

Except leaving my baby behind . 

Dante was looking over at me from the porch with tears in his eyes . He looked so sad . The shit was breaking my heart in peices . I didn't want to leave him , i wasn't ready to leave him . If i could i would pack him up in my suitcase and drag him along with me but i couldn't . 

That wasn't an option . 

He was still in highschool while i was about to go to college . He was still aiive in ways while i could see mostly everything and everybody for what they really were . 

I loved him , but maybe some time apart woul do us good so he could find himself . Himself , not me . 

As bad as i wanted to be with him i felt like - 

I don't know . Maybe i was just using his weaknesses as an excuse for me not to feel guilty when i started up that car and drove away . That made since . I was trying to say anything and everything so what i wouldn't feel pain . 

That wouldn't work though .

I was already feeling the pain begin to build up inside me . 

I walked over to Dante and pulled him into my arms and his body immediately began to shake as he sobbed into my chest . 

Leaving him would never be easy , i just never expected it to be so hard .

I whispered to him that i loved him , that he was my life . I told him nobody could replace him and that i was only just a few hours away . 

I told hima anything i could to stop any pain he would feel while i was gone . 

The look in his eyes when i pulled back tore me apart . 

" listen , " i kissed his lips very tenderly , expressing my passion and love for him , " i'll be back , because you here . I'll call you as soon as i get there . Shit , we can even video chat . Just stop crying , baby . "

I wrapped my arms back around him again and Raven and my mother wrapped their arms around me .

The hug was sweet .

But as soon as they let go , i still had to leave .

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XOXO

-BREABREA

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