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Roughly how i picture Dante ------------------------->>>>

-Raquel-

I hugged Yvonne tighter " it wasn't nothing so let it go . I was just talking shit ."

She shrugged out of my grip " you think i'm that stupid to believe you , right ? So , who is the bitch that you dumpin' me for anyway ? Because she better be worth leaving all this ." She did a full 360 advertising her body to e which was all of a sudden calling to me . Her ass was busting to get out of the shorts that she'd stuffed them into . She had a small waist so her ass looked even juicier than it really was . 

" i'm not leaving you for nobody , aight ? So stop putting on a scene and come back to the crib wit' me ."

She had been putting on a tough girl act in front of her friends who were standing close by , watching it go down . But it wasn't hard for me to see right through that shit . Her eyes gave away everything , i'm not in love with her but that doesn't mean i've never payed attention to the girl . I know her likes , dislikes , fears . . . i know her emotions like the back of my hand . 

She rolled her eyes and stopped in the direction of my house " don't think i'm staying , just so we can talk ." She said bye to her friends and we continued on our way . Well , it was more like she led and i followed because she was walking twice my pace . I should be walking faster to get out of this heat but , i'm not ready to be around Dante  

Sure , i wan to flaunt Yvonne in his damn face and show him that i got it like that to move on to the next one , but . . . i knew it would hurt him . It was obvious he liked me , well , atleast it was before this whole date thing . Now i'm just confused , not sure if seeing me all over Yvonne will effect him or not . 

I reached the porch , and she was standing there waiting on me . I unlocked the door and she stormed in , straight through the living room , into the kitchen . 

I could still hear Dante and Raven in the living room talking , i was absolutely positive they saw Yvonne storm through the kitchen too . 

I took a deep breath , i had to keep it cool , other wise i'd look guilty , and Raven would see that . She'd see that i was purposely trying to hurt Dante . Wait . A thought popped into my head , did Raven think i liked Dante ? She must have because of the way she looked at me , and what she was saying before i left . Was it that fucking obvious , or was it only obvious to her because she's my sister . 

Either way , i refuse to admit to shit .

Another deep breath escaped my mouth as i walked into the living room . Raven stopped mid-sentence , turning to glare at me and then went back to talking . Dante didn't even look at me , for that i was partly grateful . 

Why was i playing this game , all i should do is tell him how the fuck i feel and get this over with . I don't want him going on a date with anyone except me . It was childish of me to trey to stir shit up when i wasn't even sure if her still liked me , or ever really did . 

I walked through to the kitchen and sat at the kitchen table across from Yvonne . 

She folded her arms over her chest " what is this about because i don't have all day ?"

" stop frontin' ."

"frontin' about what ?"

" me . You frontin' like you mad , but you not . You actin' like you not gone forgive me but you are . You acting like i'm not 'bout to hit that but you know i am . "

She rolled her eyes again but a hit of a smile pushed onto her face " don't be so sure ." 

" but i am . " I reached across the table and grabbed her arm ." com'er ."

She did like i said , without hesitation she stood up and rounded the table , sitting down on my lap . I didn't waste anytime leaning up to kiss her , he mouth pressed back against mine . 

It was sweet , maybe more for her than it was for me . For me , it was more like a 'i care for you but this is goodbye' kind of kiss . But for her it was probably a 'i'm about to put it on him' kind of thing . 

I cursed myself in my head .

What the hell was i doing . 

It wasn't even about Dante anymore . I wanted to convince myself that i still had it and verbally i did . I practically was making her womanhood gush with my words , i know that . But thinking about her while i ran my hands all over her body ,  couldn't even get myself hard . I admitted to myself how sexy she is but she just couldn't do it for me anymore . 

I pulled back from the kiss and stood her up . 

She looked at me confused " what now , Raquel ?"

Honesty is the only thing on y mind .

" i keep , " i sighed " i keep telling myself i need to do this , right . Don't get me wrong , you are beautiful , banging body and everything . But , there is nothing you can do for me ."

" of course i can do something for you . "

I gripped my manhood through my pants to show her that i wasn't even partially hard . I shook my head " trust me , you can't do nothing fa me baby girl . "

" what you saying ? I just walked all the way here for nothing ?" 

I answered her with a shrug and she spoke again " atleast tell me the bitches name ."

I stood up , towering over her . I took steps toward her and she took steps backward until she was backed into the fridge . I smirked " Dante ."

She raised her eyebrows . "fuck you , this isn't funny . You expect me to listen to you lying in my face . "She mugged my head backward. " i'm not that stupid ."

And like that she left . 

Apparently she is that dumb . Apparently i'm dumb too for jsut saying that to her . What if she had believed me ? What then ? Telling her would be like telling the whole block because if she had believed me , she would've told everyone . 

Close call . 

I opened the fridge and pulled out a apple . I took a bite into it as i sighed . Shit just doesn't feel anymore confusing than this . I was in a constant battle with myself . Telling Dante about my feelings would be like saying i've secretly admired and watched him from a distance . I have , but it sounds so fucking stalkerish if i were to say it out loud . 

" so . . me , huh ?" 

I sighed . Dante . 

What are the fucking odds . 

I took another bite " it's not nice to listen to people's conversations . You should know that ."

" i do , but -"

" you obviously don't ." I slipped passed Dante , avoiding eye contact and physical contact as well . I was once again battling myself within . I wanted to kiss him , i wanted to hold him , i wanted to tell him i loved him . . . but i couldn't , because he had a date , and i wasn't about to embarrass myself by not only admitting i was attracted to a guy but have him crush my feelings too . I'd rather just keep my feelings to myself than to have that happen . 

" do you like me or not ?" He was following behind me up the steps . 

" yeah , do you ?" That was Raven's voice . 

I spun around staring Raven down " can i talk to you alone for a minute , please . "

She shrugged and followed me to my room , Dante did too , until i slammed the door in his face . 

" stop being so rude !" she screeched " damn ! "

I plopped down on my bed , still glaring at her " now , what the fuck is this shit about me liking Dante ."

" well , " She sat next to me " do you ?"

Lie , lie , lie , lie , lie , even if it kills you , lie lie lie .

" hell nah , that's another dude . You know i don't even get down like that ."

" look , you sound fucking stupid ! Yo' words ain't matching the look in yo' eyes . Come on , get real and grow the fuck up . You love him and dammit he loves you . So shut up talking like i don't know . " She stood up and went to the door , swinging it open , she pulled Dante in . " talk to eachother . " She looked back and forth between the two of us but i wasn't about to talk . 

He had his eyes trained on the floor and i had my eyes trained on him but , i was still trying to process Raven's words . I was almost positive that she got her words twisted up somewhere , because i was almost positive that Dante didn't love me . But , it stirred me up inside , i wanted to know , and i had a urge to tell him my feelings . 

I couldn't hold back anymore . 

It was really now or never . Literally . I couldn't hold back . 

I held out my hand "come'er ."

He didn't reach out to grab it , didn't even look up until Raven shoved him in my direction . He finally grabbed my hand and i pulled him toward me , in-between my legs . 

My hands rested on his hips , it felt natural . Without thinking , i just did it , because i wanted to . And he didn't attempt to push my hands away which caused my confidence to soar . 

After a moment of silence his eyes finally met mines and i could see them as they filled to the brim with tears . 

" why are you about to cry ?"

" i'm not . " His voice cracked .

" you really about to lie to me ?"

Raven growled from behind him " god , Dante ! Just tell him and stop being so difficult . "

" okay , " Dante rolled his eyes letting a few tears fall " maybe i kind of like you . But , it's nothing , i swear , i just -"

" kind of ? Check it , i don't kind of like you . I love you . I know that , looking at you , i know what i feel is real . I've been - you know what , don't worry about it . If you only kind of like me then it doesn't matter ." I pushed him backward and stood up and of course Raven jumped in . 

" sit back down ! Because i think Dante has something to tell you . Ain't that right , Dante ?"

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