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Story plot: Everyone knows that San has problems with managing his anger. It's something he's always had problems with form a young age. What he and the others don't know is that Yeosang is actually scared of him whenever he gets really angry. Right now, Yeosang, Wooyoung, San and Seonghwa are playing games in a hotel room. But at some point San freaks out and Yeosang starts to panic.

Yeosang is sitting on his bed in his room, but he can hear the screams coming from downstairs. He loves San to bits but he's terrified of him whenever he gets angry.

Seonghwa is holding onto his shoulders forcing San to face him. "San you need to calm down okay! It was a mistake!" San is trying to fight his way out of Seonghwa's firm grip. "NO IT WASN'T!" He shouts as he's trying to hit Seonghwa. "San it was!" "LET ME GO! GET YOUR HANDS OFF ME RIGHT NOW! I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" 

Wooyoung, San's boyfriend, walks over to him as well. "Sannie.." Wooyoung squises himself between San and Seonghwa as he pulls San in his arms. "It's alright babe. I'm here." Wooyoung whispers feeling San relax more into his arms.

Seonghwa nods at Wooyoung and quickly makes his way upstairs to his boyfriend. "Sangie, it's okay. Wooyoung got there on time." Seonghwa looks around their bedroom, only to find Yeosang curled up in the corner of the room.

"Sangie.." Seonghwa carefully makes his way over to him and kneels down. He gently removes Yeosang's hands from his face. "Look it's me angel. No one is going to hurt you okay?" Yeosang crawls out of the little space he squished himself into and hugs Seonghwa tightly. Seonghwa kisses the top of his head softly. "You're safe." Yeosang nods and relaxes into Seonghwa's arms.

"Shouldn't we try to look for help hyung.. For San.. And Wooyoung.." "And what about you? Sangie you're scared to death whenever San freaks out." Yeosang shakes his head furiously and sighs. refusing to let anyone help him besides his boyfriend.

"I'm more worried about Sannie and Youngie.. I don't understand how he can become so violent so quickly and I'm worried about Wooyoung because he always needs to be around him since he is the only one that can bring San back down to earth.." "I know baby.. Maybe we should talk to Wooyoung. Figure out how he feels about all of this?" Yesoang smiles and nods.

"But I'm still worried about you as well baby. You seem so scared when San gets mad. Where does that fear come from?" Seonghwa asks as he pulls Yeosang closer in his arms. "I don't know.. I just feel so tiny and.." "And?" "And maybe I had to deal with violence in my youth.. And if San gets angry it triggers bad memories.."

Seonghwa is speechless for a second. He knew something was up, but he didn't expect this to be a reason. "Sangie.. I'll to whatever it takes to protect you okay? Wooyoung is working hard as well to make sure San doesn't get angry and when he does he'll calm him down. We're all protecting you okay?" Yeosang nods. "And if you ever want to talk more about what happened, you know you can come to me hm?" Yeosang looks up this time and nods. "Thank you hyung.. I love you so so much." Seonghwa smiles and kisses his forehead. "I love you so so much too."

I'm so glad he's slowly opening up more. I'm so thankful that I can call Sangie mine. He's my everything and I would never want him to get hurt. I wish I could just take away his fear.

A couple of day went by and San was doing pretty good. He hasn't had another anger outburst since the last one. They're all pretty sure that Wooyoung is talking to him about it and they're trying to sort out what can cause an outburst like that.

In the meantime, Seonghwa has been talking more with Yeosang about where his fear is coming from and what he meant when he said that he had to deal with violence when he was growing up.

Yeosang is sitting on the bed, playing with a plushie to have some distraction when they talk about it. "So yeah.. Basically there was always some type of violence when I was in school. Sometimes I'd get bullied for being gay and I never dared to speak up so they would always pick on me.." Yeosang pauses and Seonghwa nods, not interrupting him to he can form the right words.

"Sometimes they would wait outside the gates.. I always carried my camera around for the dancing you know.. And they knew so they would throw my bag in the fountain.. They would scream at me or throw me in it as well.. They would beat me up.. Things like that.."

Seonghwa moves closer, gently wrapping Yeosang in his arms. "I can't imagine what that must have been like. But I do understand that when San gets violent and angry, it triggers those memories. Are you scared that he's going to hurt you?"

Yeosang nods as he stares at his plushie. "Yeah and I just feel like I can't do anything and deep inside I do want to help him, but I know only Wooyoung knows what to do to calm him down." Yeosang rests against his boyfriend, intertwining his fingers with Seonghwa's. "It's complicated hm?" Seonghwa asks and Yeosang nods. "It really is."

"You know, maybe we all deserve a break from this situation. Maybe we can go over to Wooyoung and San and play some games with them. I believe that Yunho, Jongho, Mingi and Hongjoong were playing video games tonight together. How does that sound?" Seonghwa asks.

"Honestly.. That sounds pretty good! San hasn't had an outburst recently and Wooyoung is around. Let's go!" Yeosang says but before he can get up, Seonghwa cups his face in his hands and kisses him softly.

Yeosang blushes. He's still not used to fact that Seonghwa is actually finally his and he's able to kiss him whenever he wants. He leans in and kisses Seonghwa back with the same amount of passion. "Don't make me want to stay here hyung." Yeosang whispers and Seonghwa chuckles softly as he kisses Yeosang's nose. "Sorry angel, let's go."

They make their way over to Wooyoung's and San's room and knock on the door. "Come in!" Wooyoung shouts and they get in. Seonghwa closes the door behind them and smiles. "Since Yunho, Mingi, Jongho and Hongjoong are playing video games, we thought it'd be fun if we can play games together."

San smiles brightly. "All gays gather around!" He shouts causing everyone to burst out in laughter. Wooyoung grabs a couple of games from their closet as they gather around on the floor. "I already feel like we should do this more often." San says and Yeosang smiles. "I already agree with that!"

They're all having a great time so far. Having fun, playing games, kissing each other without feeling the others look at them. It's like they're in their own little space where everything and everyone is accepting. Yeosang hasn't felt this comfortable in, for him, such a big group of people for quite a while.

He's constantly holding Seonghwa's hand. Seonghwa is cherishing this moment with all that he can. He hasn't seen Yeosang be so free in a group of people for so long. He's comfortable when they're together, but as soon as more people gather around he gets more shy. Not this time though, he's being his beautiful happy and lively self.

They're having a blast and each of them is getting more and more competitive. At some point they even made teams. Team Woosan versus team Seongsang.

At some point Yeosang is trying to win from San and after a long battle, he finally manages to win. "Yes!" Yeosang shouts and laughs. He has been trying to win from San, the moment they started playing but San won most games. Yeosang won 3 times while San has won about 20 times.

San throws the game all across the room. His happy face makes room for a much darker expression. "NO FUCKING WAY! YOU FUCKING CHEATED. I SAW YOU CHEATING YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!" San throws himself onto Yeosang and grabs his throat. "YOU'RE A FUCKING CHEATER!" 

"San!" Wooyoung grabs his boyfriend and tries to pull him off Yeosang. "GET OFF ME!" San shouts as he lets go of Yeosang and hits Wooyoungs face with his fist.

In a split second, Seonghwa pulls Yeosang into his arms to cover his shaking and crying body. "I'm here baby I'm here."

Wooyoung spits out some blood but still holds his boyfriend tightly. "Sannie listen to me. Listen to me okay? It's Wooyoung baby." Wooyoung holds San's head on his chest. "Breath Sannie, breath." As San is still breathing heavily, Wooyoung quickly sends an apologetic look to Seonghwa.

Seonghwa shakes his head and shares a concerned look. He saw how hard San hit Wooyoung, but Wooyoung just shakes his head. This isn't the first time that it happened and he knows that San never meant to hurt him.

As Wooyoung is still trying to make San calm down, Seonghwa is trying to help Yeosang.

"Sangie baby.. I'm so sorry.. I know I promised that I would always protect you from this I'm so sorry. Wooyoung is here baby he's helping San." He presses his lips firmly on Yeosang's head who is still shaking and sobbing.

As San is slowly coming back down to earth he looks around the room. The first thing he sees is the blood in the corner of Wooyoung's mouth and Seonghwa covering Yeosang in his arms. "W- what.." San mumbles as he looks at his boyfriend.

He quickly tries to help his boyfriend first. "I'm okay Sannie I'm okay. I think you should check on Sangie.." San nods and rushes over to Seonghwa and Yeosang while Wooyoung enters the bathroom to check out what causes the bleeding.

"S- Sangie.."

"No go away!!" Yeosang shouts as he tries to kick San away. His mind isn't working straight. He doesn't realize it's San who's talking to him. "Yeosang baby. It's San.. He's okay again.." Seonghwa speaks softly as he places small kisses on his head.

San looks at his friend with tears in his eyes, realizing he's the one causing this fear. "S- Sangie please.. I'm so sorry.. I never meant to scare you or hurt you.."

Yeosang snuggles closer into Seonghwa's arms but looks at San for a second. He looks into the same soft eyes he did when they arrived here. San looks into his eyes and carefully takes his hand. "I can't tell you how sorry I am.. I don't know if you can forgive me for whatever I've done to you.."

Yeosang looks at Seonghwa who kisses him softly on his lips. Yeosang kisses his boyfriend softly in return before looking back at San and squeezing his hand softly. Wooyoung enters the room again and sits behind San, wrapping his arms around his waist from behind.

"I think we all need to talk about this." Seonghwa suggests and they all nod in agreement.

"I don't know where to start.." San begins. "Woo and I are still trying to find out the triggers and where this is actually coming from.. We think it might be something from my youth where I always had to hold back my emotions. And these outburst are a cause of bottling up emotions that explode all at once.." San intertwines his fingers with Wooyoung, feeling extremely embarrassed. 

"It's okay.. I'm sorry I'm acting like a scared baby instead of trying to help.. It's just that I've uhm.. I've been bullied when I was still in school and I was too scared to do anything.. So whenever you get angry.. and you're so strong.. I just feel so small and helpless and then I get stupid flashbacks.." Yeosang mumbles and San nods.

Wooyoung kisses Sans neck softly while Seonghwa rests his lips on Yeosang's head.

Within seconds, Wooyoung pulls San closer to Seonghwa and Yeosang, making them pull in for a group hug. "I think this gay group is still the best though." Wooyoung says and they all laugh, forgetting what just happened and enjoying each other's company.

A/N: Jsjsjsj I just hit 5K reads already! Thank you all so much for the love and support! ❤

This oneshot turned contained more Woosan than I anticipated. Sorry if you don't like this one because of that.

Also I won't be posting a oneshot on Saturday, Sunday and Monday since I'm going on a mini-vacation. But I'll come back strong with (hopefully) some new plots! ❤

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