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Chapter 3

That first day that I walked in the school holding Darrell's hand was strange. The stares we got were strange. I don't know why it felt comfortable but it just did. Once we were in the building Darrell pulled me behind the staircase and kissed me real quickly on my lips.

“I can't do this Martin” He whispered, “I'm only out to a few of my friends and I don't want to face the whole school yet.” He looked at me with apologetic eyes.

I smiled at him, “Ok, I was getting a little nervous too” I chuckled softly and turned to walk away. Darrell grabbed me back to him.

“One more kiss before you leave.” he pulled me and pecked me quickly. “See you at lunch”

To my surprise nobody commented about how me and Darrell entered the school building, I guess the rest of the world was too busy minding their own business for a change to notice the gay boy and the newly gay boy holding hands and making out.

I sat in my English class daydreaming about how close I was to Darrell the night before. Then I suddenly realized, I had been hugging and kissing a boy. Me kiss a boy. I chuckled and the kid in front of me turned and gave me a strange look. “Sorry man” I whispered.

English class took forever an hour of boring Shakespeare, reading out loud, to be or not to be blah, blah, blah. I was excited for so many reasons when the bell rang. The biggest reason was now I only had three more classes to sit through before I got to gaze in Darrell's eyes and the second reason was the next class was math and I got to talk to Charlotte.

As I left out English class Joe was standing next to my locker. I rolled my eyes as I walked up to him. I really didn't want to deal with Darrell's ex.

“Hey Martin!” Joe said in his annoying whiny voice.

“Joe.” I replied not looking at him. This kid wasn't good looking in my book, I just don't see what could have appealed to Darrell about him.

“I saw you with Darrell, Aren't you straight?” He questioned me, but I just continued opening up my locker and getting my things out.

“Darrell likes sex, you may be good enough to hold his hand and kiss him, but are you ready for that?” he asked, “Stop pretending with him, you are both just going to hurt each other.” he then turned and walked away. I turned and watched him and at the end of the hall I saw Darrell staring down at me. I just slammed my locker closed and walked to my math class.

I was so happy to see Charlotte. “Hey Char guess where I stayed last night?” I whispered to her luckily she sat right next to me and luckily we had a substitute who handed out tons of paperwork. The whole class was loud and rowdy while the sub just read the newspaper.

“Ahh...let me guess you spent the whole night in the arms of loverboy.” She teased and made kissing sounds.

“How did you know?”

“Darrell and I are almost as close as you and him are remember, he sent me a text in the middle of the night letting me know you were in bed beside him. He said you purr like a kitten in your sleep.”

“I do not!” I tried to deny it.

“Loverboy said you do. He is so hooked on you.” She started making kissing sounds again. “I am so happy for the two of you. I hope you guys don't mess this up.”

“I'm a little worried about what I am supposed to do with him Char.” I confessed a little ashamed.

“What do you mean?”

“When we were kissing last night he kept trying to move his hands lower than my chest. I wasn't ready for that with Tonya, I definitely don't know how I feel about him doing that.”

“You're a virgin Martin!” She shouted a little above our whisper.

“Shhh...let the whole world know why don't you!” I said embarrassed felling like the whole world now new my secret.

“Well, Martin you are going to have to discuss that with him. I do know Darrell is NOT a virgin. Well at least from some of his stories I don't think he is.” Charlotte informed me and shook her head.

“Yeah, Joe just confronted me in the hall and told me Darrell likes sex. I don't know what I am going to do.” I sat in class worried from that point. Suddenly I wasn't too excited about getting to lunch.

Unfortunately for me the next two classes went by quick. I swear as soon as I sat down at my desks the bell would ring.

As I walked to the cafeteria I felt hands wrap around my waist and Darrell whispered in my ear, “Meet me at my car after you get your lunch.”

I went through the short lunch line and grabbed an apple and a container of milk and then I walked past the table I usually sit at, past the table Darrell usually sits at and straight to his car. He was sitting on the back of his car waiting for me.

“What did Joe say to you?” He asked.

“Nothing, it wasn't important.” I tried not to bring up Joe's conversation cause it would just embarrass me in front to Darrell.

“Don't lie to me Martin. I walked by when he was saying it. And then Charlotte sent me a text after your math class.”

“You heard him?” I was sort of shocked he waited until now at lunch to say something.

“Yes, and I saw your reaction. Martin I am not some sort of rapist, do I like sex yes, but I know this is all new to you and I wouldn't pressure you into anything like that. Damn I am happy to get a few kisses and hug from the guy I've had a crush on my whole life.” Darrell stood up and walked away from his car. “Damn Martin if you are uncomfortable with me touching you a certain way tell me not Charlotte. And don't let Joe scare you away from me. I want this to work, but please talk to me about your feelings.”

I looked away from Darrell, he was right. I should have just told him how I was feeling and my strange fears. He came and sat by me. I looked over at him and smiled. “So, what all did Charlotte tell you?” I asked.

“I don't know you tell me what you should have told me that Charlotte knows.”

I rolled my eyes, I couldn't believe he was going to make me say this. “Ok, Darrell, I am a virgin, I have never had anybody touch me below my chest.”

Darrell hugged me, “Thank you for telling me that, I think that is very important to know.” He smiled at me and then he grabbed my apple and took a bite. “Now that I know that I am going to slow things down. I don't want to rush you into anything.”

And that's exactly what happened, things slowed down. When I would spend the night, Darrell would sleep with his back to me. He would hug and kiss me, but not as close as the times before he knew my virgin status. This went on for weeks and I finally decided to make a move on Darrell.

We had gone out to the movies a horror flick, I wasn't much for scary movies, so I decided to spend some time focusing on Darrell while he watched the movie. We were sitting in the back corner of the theater, Darrell wore a jacket that he had taken off midway through the movie and had it resting on his lap. I sat all the way in the corner, on Darrell's other side was Charlotte and her boyfriend.

I watched Darrell focusing on the movie he glanced down at me with his big sparkling blue eyes and smiled. His eyes could melt my heart. As I stared at him he wrapped an arm around me and slightly tugged me close.

“Are you ok” He asked.

“Yeah I'm fine. Just checking you out” I smiled at him.

“Umm...should I be paying attention to you or the movie.” He whispered.

“Which ever is more important to you I guess.” I said

“You know what is more important.” He leaned over and kissed me.

I rubbed my hand across his beard that he was now sporting and then I slowly let my hand drift down to his chest. The kiss continued and I leaned more into him.

“Ahh...Martin, what are you doing?” Darrell asked.

“I just want to be close to you” I mumbled as I pulled back closer to him and started our kiss again.

I slowly let my hand drift lower to his lap where his jacket rested and Darrell shifted in the seat so now his back was facing Charlotte and he was completely turned to me.

“What are you doing?” He whispered in my ear. And then he bit my earlobe and started kissing slowly down my neck. “Zombies put you in the mood?” he giggled against my ear.

“I think they must” I chuckled back with him.

Then I did it as we started kissing again I let my hand run up his shirt I felt his abs he felt so good against my hands, I let my hand linger for a moment at he top of his jeans. As I thought about my next moves I undid his belt and Darrell grabbed my hand. “No! Not here, lets go home.”

I watched as he leaned over and whispered something to Charlotte. Then he grabbed my hand and led me out the theater.

When we got out the theater Darrell totally changed his usual not in public attitude, he wrapped his arms around my waist and walking behind me he was kissing my neck, rubbing his hands up and down my stomach it was pretty freaking hot. Darrell was getting me extremely excited and I could tell he was just as excited.

We got to his house and to my luck his parents weren't home. Darrell started taking my shirt off.

“Are you sure you want this Martin?” He asked

I nodded my head. “I'm scared, but I'm sure.”

Darrell pulled his shirt off and lead me to his bed. “Do you want me to lay down?” I asked.

“If you feel comfortable laying down we can stay standing for now if you want.” He told me.

I climbed on the bed and Darrell laid on top of me he started playing with my hair and slowly sucking on my neck, I'm sure leaving several hickeys along the way. I started getting nervous and I am sure I was shaking, but I just wanted t be close to Darrell. I was tired of feeling like a little kid around him.

Darrell unbuckled my belt, unbuttoned my pants, and then he slowly unzipped my pants.

“Can I be the first to check out Martin McNeil.” He whispered

I grabbed his hand and pushed it down further, I tensed at his touch, Darrell was looking me straight in my eyes, and I was so nervous so scared, that before I could enjoy anything, it was over before it started. Darrell chuckled “next time you are going to have to calm down some.” he mumbled as he started kissing my neck again.

I sat up quickly, I was so embarrassed, I couldn't even look at him. “Sorry about that” I pulled my clothes together and tried to just get out of his room.

“Martin, wait, come on man, we both are guys. It's ok, I am happy you trust me enough to just let me touch you now. Don't go.” He begged.

“I have to go change my clothes, I'll see you later.” I hurried up and left his room. I went home closed my blinds and refused to answer his texts or calls. I sat on my bed so happy it was a Friday night and I had two days to recover from my embarrassment before I had to see him again.

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