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Yoongi and Hoseok have been dating since they were in highschool. Hoseok being the funny bright kid everybody loved and Yoongi being the cold mysterious guy every girl liked. They were very much opposites, but that's what made them so compatible. They were a perfect couple. Were.

It's been 3 years since they've been together, they're both in college now. Yoongi studying business and Hoseok taking a dance course.

They don't see eachother much anymore. You'd expect that it's because of school and studying but Hoseok knows deep down that it's more than that. Even when they're both free, Yoongi goes out of his way to avoid seeing Hoseok. Hoseok pushes it away as being tired or busy, but he knows that he's lying to himself. Deep down Hoseok knows they've grown apart.

So when Yoongi is finally free he's a little hurt when Yoongi just straight out tells him he wants to see his friends. Hoseok isn't upset that Yoongi wants to see his friends, but Yoongi is always with his friends, and never with Hoseok.

Hoseok decides enough is enough and picks up the phone to call Yoongi.

It rings twice and goes to voicemail. Hoseok frowns and tries again. He wont stop until Yoongi picks up the phone.

When Yoongi finally picks up he's breathing heavily.

"What?" He asks irritated.

"Can I come over?" Hoseok asks and he hears a annoyed sigh come from Yoongi.

"I'm busy, my friends are here." Yoongi replies bluntly.

"I don't mind being there while your friends are there." Hoseok says softly.

"Well I do." Yoongi says and the line goes dead.

Hoseok wipes the small tear that's made its way down his cheek.

He stuffs his face into his pillow on his bed and cries a little. Hoseok loves Yoongi and he can't stand that they're growing apart more and more.

It keeps on going after two weeks. Hoseok would call nearly everyday and Yoongi would answer the phone, telling him to go away or that he's busy with friends.

Hoseok is tired of it all. He's tired of being treated this way when it's meant to be a relationship. Your meant to love and support eachother in a relationship. Spend time together and bond. But Yoongi does none of those things. Hoseok offers Yoongi support constantly wether it's a cute text wishing Yoongi luck on his exams or sending random 'I love you''s before he goes to sleep. But he's tired of getting nothing in return.

So when Namjoon, one of Yoongi's friends offers Yoongi and Hoseok to come on a double date with him and SeokJin of course Yoongi immediately refuses. Hoseok however is happy that he can finally see Hoseok after nearly 2 months of only seeing him a few times around campus, so he greatfully excepts the offer.

He's waiting outside of Yoongi's dorm room, because Yoongi refuses to let him in. Yoongi finally comes out in his jeans and hoodie, while Hoseok dressed more formally, in a button up shirt with black skinny jeans.

Yoongi is grumbling the whole time. And when Hoseok tries to kiss him, Yoongi pushes him away. Hoseok misses the times when Yoongi's pushes would be playful and gentle, but now he just feels used and hurt.

Hoseok is more than upset, he feels anger boil inside him. He doesn't deserve this.

So Hoseok pushes Yoongi up against a wall in the long corridor of rooms. Yoongi tries to push him off while asking him "what the fuck are you doing?" But both Yoongi and Hoseok know that Yoongi is short and weak when it comes to Hoseok. Hoseok is a dancer and he has more than enough stregnth to hold Yoongi in place.

Hoseok leans in fast and roughly kisses Yoongi, which Yoongi didn't expect. He kisses back just as roughly. Hoseok is grabbing Yoongi anywhere he can reach and before Yoongi can register what's happening, Hoseok is dragging Yoongi back to his dorm room and throwing him onto the bed.

Yoongi doesn't know what's suddenly made Hoseok this way but he certainly isn't complaining.

***

When Yoongi wakes up he looks beside him and Hoseok is staring at the cieling, tears sliding down his face.

Yoongi doesn't know what's going on and why Hoseoks crying so he turns to face him.

"Are you okay?" Yoongi asks his voice laced with concern.

"Do you think I'm fucking okay?" Hoseok snaps and Yoongi jumps.

"What's wrong?" Yoongi asks and Hoseok is crying heavily again.

After a few minutes of silence Hoseok turns to face Yoongi.

"Why don't you love me? Why don't you want me anymore?" Hoseok asks and his voice is so broken that Yoongi feels awful.

"What? I do love you, of course I want you." Yoongi answers truthfully.

"Then why do you only want me like this? A quick fuck and that's it? Is that all I am? Someone you push away unless it's sex?" Hoseok asks and Yoongi shakes his head quickly.

"No, that's not what you are. I didn't just want you for sex. If you didn't want it you should have told me." Yoongi says as a pit of guilt forms in his stomach.

"If I told you, you would have left and I'd be alone. Because the only time we can spend time together is when we're fucking." Hoseok laughs bitterly and Yoongi puts his arms around Hoseok, his own eyes becoming moist with tears.

"I'm sorry." Yoongi whispers into Hoseoks shoulder.

"I'm sorry I made you feel this way. I love you so much. I'm sorry I haven't spent time with you or given you the love you deserve. I'm so fucking sorry." Yoongi cries into Hoseok.

"Forget about it, Yoongi." Hoseok shakes his head and gets up, putting on his clothes.

"Don't go." Yoongi pleads and Hoseok laughs.

"Oh, so now you want me to stay? What about the past 2 months that you haven't wanted to see me?" Hoseok says as he puts on his shoes.

"..I'm sorry." Yoongi says in a small voice.

"Keep your apology, I don't want it." Hoseok says as he leaves Yoongi's dorm room.

Yoongi doesn't follow Hoseok or attempt to make him stay, so Hoseok heads back to his own dorm.

"What's up with you?" Taehyung asks when Hoseok walks in looking upset and agry.

Hoseok doesn't answer his room mate who's sitting on the couch, and goes straight to his room.

He sits down on his bed and puts his head in his hands, everything was shitty.

Hoseok falls asleep in that position, hoping all this was just a bad dream.

***

When Hoseok wakes up it's because someone is banging on his door and Hoseok sighs.

"What?" He shouts to the persin knocking, tired and annoyed that someone disturbed his sleep.

"We need to talk." A voice says, and he knows that's Yoongi.

"There's nothing to talk about." Hoseok shouts back returning to his earlier position.

"Yes there is. Open the door." Yoongi replies and Hoseok laughs.

"Like I would ever open this door for you."

"I swear to God if you do not open this door I will break it." Hoseok sighs and stands up opening the door for Yoongi.

"What do you want." Hoseok asks, but it doesn't really sound like a question.

"I'm sorry." Yoongi sighs entering Hoseoks room and sitting on his bed.

"Your sorry? You think sorry is going to cut it? Do you have any idea how shitty you made me feel?" Hoseok raises his voice and Yoongi winces.

"I know sorry doesn't make up for the way I treated you. It's just, I've had so much stress lately, exams, studying, my friends are starting to drift away so I'm trying to keep our group together. I'm sorry I haven't made time for you, I really am. And if I have to spend every day for the rest of my life making it up to you, then I will. I know that I've been harsh, I'm sorry, I can't undo what I've done. But I promise I didn't mean anything and I love you so much, please forgive me?" Yoongi says genuinly.

"Well...That's a start." Hoseok says but eventually he smiles and kisses Yoongi, wrapping his arms around his neck.

"I love you." Yoongi whispers into Hoseok's neck.

"I love you more." Hoseok kisses Yoongis jaw.

"I love you most" Yoongi retorts and Hoseok rolls his eyes but smiles at his stupid boyfriend.

And in a few minutes, everything that was wrong is right, and everything's pretty perfect.

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