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That is Izzy

~nathan~

I start to think back on the alpha as I lay in my bed, I just got home from the sleepover

I lay looking up at my ceiling thinking, the girls kept telling me that I was gay but I'm not right?

This is the question that has been running through my mind and this time I'm not sure if I'm gay or not

I have no way of telling me I'm not, every time a girl flirts with me I cringe and I don't think girls are cute anymore, but does that make me gay?

I lay in my bed thinking about my life and how much it could be better, like if my mate was a girl I would not have these thoughts going through my mind

I'm not gay

I'm not gay

I'm not gay

I keep saying it over and over again in my mind but its not working I still have this really bad feeling in me

And I fall asleep

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I wake up with nice sun aging trough my window and for once I feel great

I get out of bed and walk Down the stairs, my family was late from the hunting trip so I went outside

I started to head into the forest in my backyard and as soon as I'm in the forest I turn into my wolf

Running around for what seems for hours I turn back to my human form and walk out of the forest

I see the aloha walking towards me and I froze, he cups my face in his hands and kisses me and I kiss him back

~wakes up~

I jolt up, of course I would not let that happen in real life, right?

More and more I begin to question my own thoughts, bit this I know for sure and no matter how hard I try there is no way I can confince myself other wise

I'm in love with the alpha and there's nothing I can do

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