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Jenna walks into the living room seeming disgruntled as I flick through the channels on TV. I know there's nothing to watch but I need to occupy my mind somehow.

"What are you doing? We're about to leave. You haven't even showered yet!" she exclaims, fixing her earring.

"I told you, I'm not going." I frown.

"You didn't tell me that!" she exclaims.

"Didn't I?" I mumble, rubbing my tired eyes.

She frowns concerned and sits on the sofa next to me. She presses her hand to my forehead.

"Are you getting sick?" she questions worriedly.

"No I'm just tired. I haven't been sleeping lately." I tell her.

"Maybe you should see a doctor. Or talk to someone. You haven't been yourself lately." she suggests.

"You mean like a therapist?" I laugh.

"You need to talk to someone, Kells. You're bottling things up and it's not healthy." she tells me.

I feel a little guilty. She's obviously worried about me.

"Jenna, I'm fine. I promise." I sigh.

She wraps her arms around and kisses my cheek.

"Okay, just don't forget that I'm here and that I love you." she says.

I smile and rest my head on her shoulder as we fall into a content silence.

A car honks from the driveway, interrupting our moment.

"Tay's here. I have to go. Make sure you eat something, okay?" she says, letting go of me.

"I will. Can you please tell Vic that I'm working? I don't want to upset him." I plead.

She sighs and looks at me sadly.

"His best friend is missing his birthday. He's going to be heartbroken either way." she points out.

I immediately feel guilty again. I've never missed his birthday before. It's a day dedicated to celebrating his existence. It's my favorite holiday. I hate to miss it but I can't be around Carter. He scares me. Besides, Vic probably won't even notice I'm not there. He has a boyfriend now, I'm unimportant.

Tay honks the horn again and Jenna kisses my cheek again before standing up.

"I'll come home later, okay? We'll watch a movie or something together?" she suggests.

"That sounds nice. I kind of miss you lately." I admit.

Her smiles softens and she kisses my head affectionately. The car horn sounds again.

"I have to go." she giggles. "Bye Kells, I love you."

"I love you too." I reply.

After that she leaves.

I sigh and rest back on the sofa. What kind of asshole skips out on their best friend's birthday? It's like I'm trying to make Vic hate me.

I don't do much for the entire night. I just wallow in self pity like I always do.

I'm thinking about ordering some pizza when there's a knock on the door. For an idiotic split second, I wonder if it's the pizza man.

Confused, I get off the sofa and go over to the door. I open it and Carter stands before me. I look behind him, checking for Vic but Carter seems to be alone.

"What are you doing here?" I question confused.

"I could ask you the same thing. Aren't you supposedly working?" he chuckles.

I look away ashamed for a second then look back at him.

"What do you want?" I ask him, still confused as to why he's here.

"I was hoping you'd ask me that." he beams as he pushes me inside and closes the door with his foot.

He slams me against the wall with such force that the plaster cracks. The immediate fear that fills me makes it difficult to even acknowledge the physical pain I'm in from the impact.

I look up at him anxiously as I suddenly realize how much taller and more masculine he is.

"I see the way you look my boyfriend. You really love him, don't you?" he smirks.

"You're hurting me." I whimper.

He leans forward and presses his lips below my ear. I struggle to get away from him but he's too strong.

"I can do worse." he whispers, pushing his palms into my shoulder sockets making me cry out in pain.

"You think this hurts? Imagine what I could do to Vic." he growls.

His words strike fear in me.

"What do you want?" I choke out.

"I want you." he mumbles.

He kisses my neck and I try to push him away but he grabs my wrists and pins them to the wall.

"Let me go." I cry.

"Now where's the fun in that?" he chuckles. "Vic mentioned that you're also a virgin. It would be an honor to change that."

"You're crazy if you think I'm going to agree to that." I hiss.

He smirks and kisses my nose.

"Oh honey, I wasn't asking permission." he whispers.

I begin to feel sick to my stomach, hoping and praying that he isn't insinuating what I think he is.

"Why?" is all I manage to choke out.

"I love Vic. But I need sex. This way I can have both. Besides, you have a better ass than him." he murmurs.

"If you touch me, I'll tell Vic." I threaten.

"Like I said, imagine what I could do to Vic. If you squawk a single word, I will break him." he mutters. "If you really love him, you'll keep your mouth shut."

I begin to cry but his hand immediately connects with my cheek. My face burns and he grabs it forcefully and firmly, digging his nails into my cheek.

"You're going to be quiet or I'm going to gag you, and trust me, I will not make it pleasant." Carter spits. "Is that understood?"

I nod tearfully until he finally drops his hand from my face. Although, he immediately grabs my hair forcefully. I cry out in pain once again but that only causes him to slam my head into the wall.

"What did I just fucking say?" he shouts.

"I'm sorry." I whimper.

"Take me to your room." he mutters.

He follows with his hand still entangled in my hair as I lead him upstairs to my room. My stomach is knotted and I'm shaking in fear the entire time. He let's go of me once my bedroom door is closed.

"Undress." he demands.

I don't move. All I can think about is how I've never gotten undressed in front of anyone other than Vic before, and even then it never went below the underwear.

"Now! Or I'll do it myself. And you're not going to fucking like it." he snaps.

I nod and shakily pull my shirt over my head. I watch him pull off his belt as I shuffle out of my jeans. I just stand there, in my underwear, staring at him, praying for something, anything, to get me out of this situation. But nothing does.

He smirks at me as he comes over. I cower at his touch as his hand runs across my shoulder.

He then forcefully pushes me onto the bed so I'm face down and bent over. I look over at a teddybear I have sitting at the end of my bed. Vic gave it to me as a prom gift and I've slept with it near me ever since.

Carter forcefully takes my arms and bends them behind my back. I feel him wrap his belt around them then he tightens it. I let out a quiet scream as it cuts into my wrists.

"Your screams are such a turn on. But try to be quiet." he murmurs.

I feel like I'm going to throw up. My fear and anguish is just turning him on.

I feel him slide my underwear off and they drop to my ankles. Then I feel something press against me.

"Fuck, you look so tight." he breathes.

I stare at the teddybear in front of me and lock eyes with it. I can see my own pained ones in the reflection. It's eyes seem glassy, as if it were crying for me. I shed a tear to mimic it, then Carter takes my virginity.

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