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Okay so because i am extremely generous and extremely nice i am uploading this chapter one vote early! So you better all be greatful! I'm doing it because i just can't wait any longer to see what your reaction will be to the kissing and stuff! LOL

so here it is.... ENJOY!

and please please please tell me what you think at the bottom????????????!!!!!

Matt's P.O.V

Benjamin was curled in a ball in the corner of my room sobbing. I didn't know why, he hadn't spoken a word to me since he burst through my house, thank god my parents were away, and charged into my room and crawled into the corner. I'd been trying for an hour to get him to join me on the bed and tell me what was up, but he didn't respond.

“Come on Ben, you can't sit there forever. I bet you bum has gone numb by now,” I tried to urge him and cheer him up at the same time. Benjamin sniffed, rubbed his eyes with his hands and lifted his head to look at me. His face was red and wet, his eyes bloodshot; he nodded. Relieved, I pulled him up into my arms on my bed and he rested his head on my shoulder.

“So what's wrong?” I asked him passively.

“I did something... and it was good, but it was... bad too,” Ben mumbled. He told me all about that guy Nazza in his street, and the ghost Zain, and that he was in love with both of them. And that he'd kissed Nazza, and it was amazing, but now he felt bad because he knew Zain first and didn't get to kiss him. I got a little lost at times but now I think I had it sussed.

“Ben, you just gotta do what your heart wants. Don't let the brain interfere, because otherwise not just you will be the one getting hurt,” I said, hoping it made sense and not corny or anything. Benjamin looked me in the eyes and smiled weakly.

“Thanks man,” he sniffed and scratched the bridge of his nose.

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I got ready for bed, the usual routine, only this time i was shaking with guilt. I can't believe i betrayed Zain like that. Kissing Nazza, and enjoying it, and it wasn't horrible... but it was bad. The guilt was jusr eating me away inside. It hurt to think about my poor Zain finding out about it. I winced at the thought and looked at my reflection in the bathroom mirror. I didn't look healthy at all, in fact i looked very sickly. I glanced at the bathroom clock, 1AM, Zain was due, everyone else was asleep. I left the bathroom, turning the light off as i closed the door, and crossed the hall to my room and slumped onto my bed, curling up with a pillow to wait.

"Hey!" Zain squealed excitedly as he burst through my closed bedroom door and bounced on my bed on his hands and knees over to me. He leant over me and pouted.

"What's wrong?" he sobbed. I rolled onto my back, still hugging the pillow and looked up into his eyes.

"Zain, I think I'm in love with you," I mumbled. Zain smiled cutely and giggled a little as he leant closer to me.

"Good, because i was worried earlier when you kissed me and ran off that you didn't like me," Zain laughed happily. Wait, what did he say? i shot upright and stared at him blankly.

"What did you say?" i gasped.

"I was worried when you ran off earlier?" Zain frowned too.

"No... did you just say?... did you just say i kissed you earlier?" i stumbled on my words in disbelief. how? how was that even possible?

"Oh yeah, at the arcade. You're a really good kisser by the way," Zain laughed again.

"You're... Nazza?" i still couldn't... breathe.

"Oh yeah, it's a stupid nickname, but it stuck. Cause my friends switched the last letter of my name to the front, removed the i and put in two z's and two a's and well, i'm not sure how it actually works but yeah..." Zain rambled awkwardly and then bit his lower lip and looked away from me.

"You're... Nazza?" i repeated.

"Oh... is that a bad thing?" Zain asked, sinking a little into my bed covers and rolling back off his knees onto his feet.

"No Zain, that's a very good thing," i smiled for the first time. "See you soon." i jumped out of bed and pulled on jeans, leaving my chest bare and raced from my room and down the hall. Zain was standing by the front door.

"Where are you going?" Zain whined.

"To get you!" i said to him and raced out of the house.

Zain's P.O.V

I watched as Benjamin ran from his house down his street and then turned into the front yard of... MY HOUSE! I ran after him, wondering what was going on and then i glided into my bedroom through the window. There was a light banging outside and i was glad my brother was out on a late shift. My bedroom door burst open and Benjamin stood there panting. He raced to my bed where... i saw myself sleeping half naked. I felt the urge to pull my blankets up and realised i couldn't. Benjamin shook my shoulders and suddenly everything went black and then glowed. I was swirling through the familiar vortex and then... I opened my eyes...

Benjamin was leaning over me, holding my shoulders. i looked up into his eyes, confused. Why was he in my room? i frowned at him.

"Benjamin? What are you doing here? It's the middle of the night," i yawned and tried to sit up, but he pushed me back down, and then climbed on top of me. His face seemed full of lust and compassion. I didn't know what was going on... but i liked it.

"Zain... I've found you," Benjamin whispered. I froze, what did he call me? Zain? Only selected people knew my real name. How did he know it was me?

Then Benjamin leant forward and put his lips to mine, hard. Warmth and electricity rushed through my veins as i realised what was happening. He liked me back. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer. He climbed properly onto my bed and put one arm under my back to hold me tighter. Benjamin pulled back and looked down at me, panting and smiling. his fingers traced over my scar tentatively and then he pulled my bandanna off and ruffled my hair, i already wasn't wearing my glasses.

"I didn't realise, after all that time seeing you, how attractive you actually are. You shouldn't hide it," he chuckled softly. i blushed and turned my head away.

"Why did you change your mind? I thought kissing me repulsed you... you ran away..." i muttered, fresh tears reaching my eyes as i thought of the pain he'd caused me. i felt guilty for thinking my friends were right now. Unless i was dreaming? i hoped not. but if so, i was going to treasure touching him now.

"Zain, i've loved you since the moment you entered my bedroom when you were dreaming. Why don't you remember? I've been trying to find you for weeks?" Benjamin asked desperately. My heart gave a leap at the words 'i've loved you' and i couldn't help but grin.

"I love you too," i blinked at him and he seemed to freeze for a second. Oh crap, did i freak him out again? But Benjamin leant forward and began kissing me hungrily, trying to get closer to me. it was overwhelming, i'd wanted this, yerned for this, for so long. it felt like i'd been holding my breath for so long, and now i was finally able to take a deep breath of new air. And it seemed Benjamin felt the same.

"Benji," i moaned as his hand slid down my side. He shuddered against me and then chuckled as his tongue danced over the piercing on my lower lip.

"Yum," he chuckled and took the ring between his lips. Omg, that was so hot. My stomach had butterflies, my head was dizzy and spinning and i wanted more. I'd been thinking about this moment my entire life here in this town and now it was happening, was it too good to be true? Was it even real? Please please please oh dear god if there even is a god out there please let this be real. I'll do anything... well, almost any- no anything! My heart swelled for this boy, i needed him.

Benjamin adjusted himself over me a little better and rested his crotch on mine, the pressure was really nice. He wrapped one hand around the back of my neck and pulled it closer to him so my head fell back a little and up to face him. His other hand moved down my side, pressing hard and applying pressure that made me tingle all over. He made my singlet ruffle as his hand moved over it and then it stopped on my hip and gripped it tightly; his fingers almost digging into my skin but in a good way. He was holding my pelvis down into my soft bed.

"Ugh!" i groaned, i'd never felt so good and overwhelmed in my life. Benjamin's lips moved to my neck and started sucking at my soft spot under the jaw, giving me goosebumps. Then he pulled back and pressed his forehead to mine, looking into my eyes.

"Wow, better than i imagined," Benjamin chuckled. I gulped, he imagined kissing me?

"Yeah," i breathed, it was all i could say in my daze. Benjamin scopped his head down so he could kiss me one more time before rolling off to his side beside me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I nuzzled into his neck and grinned. Alright... so my life was better than i thought. I'd snogged Benjamin twice in one day. Wait... i turned my head and looked at my digital clock's glowing green numbers. 2:OOAM, okay, so twice in two days. But still, not bad.

Benjamin brushed his lips over my cheek and pulled me back against him because i'd moved away to look at the clock.

"Don't go," he sighed into my ear, making me shiver.

"I'm not going anywhere," i breathed back. Then slowly we fell asleep in eachothers arms. i didn't dream that night.

Blake's P.O.V

I decided to pay Benjamin a little treat and let him walk me to school. So i rode my bike to his house, parked it round the back and went inside. His mum was at the kitchen counter with Lace, his little sister.

"Goodmorning Mrs Benjamin's Mum," i said cheerily. She looked over at me and smiled.

"Oh hello Blake, Benjamin isn't here this morning. I found a note on the kitchen bench that said he'd eaten, packed his bag and already left for school," Mrs Benjamin's Mum said to me. I sighed and slouched onto a stool.

"Aw, and i rode all this way too," i sobbed. Lace giggled and scooted her own stool closer to mine.

"BB, you can visit me," Lace giggled happily, then squealed and covered her face in her own embarressment. She was almost as cute as me.

"Okay, how is Lace this morning?" i smiled happily. As if i could say no to such a cute little teddy bear.

"Good..." Lace whispered, leaning in close to me and putting her hand beside her mouth as if to block it from her mum hearing, but she'd put it on the wrong side. "Did you know i slept all by myself last night?" i gasped overdramatically.

"No way, that's amazing!" i cried out, holding my arms above my head. Lace blushed and laughed into her mouth. i glanced at her mother, who was smirking into her cup of coffee. "Well, i better dash if i want to catch up with B before school," i said and stood. I hugged Lace and waved to her mum before heading out of the room.

"Bye darling, come over any time," Mrs Benjamin's Mum called after me. Yeah, i do anyway, i thought as i mounted my bike.

Zain's P.O.V

When i'd woken, i was disorientated. My first thought was, OMG had i gotten drunk at the arcade or something and come home with some stranger? But once i'd checked that, yes i was wearing clothes, my memories came flooding back. I was lying next to Benjamin Warner... in my bed... in our underwear. So first thing i did was sneak off to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. On my way back i'd noticed my brother's bedroom door was closed and knew he was home from his shift. Oh crap, i hoped he hadn't come check up on me when he'd gotten back, what a shock for him.

i slunked back into my room and starred at the god-like sight in my bed. Benjamin had been laying on his stomach with the blanket only covering his butt. My bedroom window was parrallel with my bed and the curtains hadn't been closed last night, and since my room faced sunrise, the golden sun was falling through the dusty glass onto Benjamin's sleeping figure. To top it off, his hair was all fluffy from sleep.

My heart fluttered at the sight. I still couldn't quite believe this. It felt so... other worldly. Like it was someone else's life i'd just walked in to. Like the main actor of a movie had died during filming and they're hired me to fill in the rest of the role, only i didn't know the script or the lines or anything. I felt like a guy shoved out onto a stage in front of a full audience and my voice had been caught in my throat. Most of those things i would have before thought were scary horrible things, but today it felt glorious, i felt alive.

So Benjamin had woken up then, catching me watching him and of course i blushed. He'd chuckled and beckoned me over and we'd curled up under the covers for a little while longer before my alarm went off and we got up. Benjamin went back home to get dressed for school and leave his mum a note while i got dressed and shoved all my messy room into my wardrobe and under my bed and hoped he hadn't noticed it before. I decided to leave my bike to when i got home after school, which was a very big deal for me and when Saxon got up he almost choked when i told him i wasn't working on it this morning.

"You've gotta be fucking kidding me? You're not working on your bike? Are you feeling okay? Have the aliens kidnapped my baby brother and left me with some clone?" Saxon ranted on loudly. I hoped Benjamin didn't get back until my idiotic brother had left. So far he hadn't mentioned seeing anything last night, and my brother wasn't the kind of guy to pass up a good round of teasing, especially on his "baby brother". So my brother left and i began making eggs, singing to myself quietly. I was stiring the eggs with a wooden spoon when arms wrapped around my waist and lips touched my neck.

"Making me breakfast? How romantic," Benjamin chuckled softly and huskily. I blushed and took the pan off the heat, tipping them evenly onto two plates. Benjamin was still holding me as i shuffled to the table and put them down. I tugged on his arms.

"Benji, let go so we can eat," i laughed. Benjamin buried his face in my hair and shook it in protest.

"I don't wanna," he whined quietly. I tilted my head back so it rested on his shoulder and looked at his face as he pouted at me.

"Do you want to starve?" i asked him, smiling.

"Yes!" he grumbled, giving me puppy eyes. It softened me, but then my stomach growled.

"Well i don't," i laughed and tugged free of his grip, slipping into my seat before he could grab me back. I shovelled a forkful of egg into my mouth and Benjamin sat down. His eyes were locked on me as he ate and i felt extremely self-conscious. Uh... anyway...

So i did the dishes and locked the house and we walked to school together, even though it was still early. We didn't hold hands, and i wasn't sure why, but i wasn't going to make the move in case he didn't want it. Maybe he was just one of those guys who didn't like holding hands? Or maybe he was ashamed of me...

We got to school and there were a few teachers and students about, but not the majority.

"Where do you usually sit?" Benjamin asked me as we rounded the corner of the science rooms.

"Around the back of the school," i shrugged. So Benjamin walked me there, none of my friends were around. Benjamin looked pretty edgy, he kept checking his watched and scratching the back of his neck and hand. Did he have somewhere to be? Did he not want to be seen with me? i sat down on the grass and sighed.

"You don't have to stay with me if you don't want to you know," i mumbled, letting my bandanna fall onto my forehead to cover my bowed face. My face was getting hot and i used the back of my hands to cool it. Were my friends right? Was Benjamin just messing with me? I was such an idiot. But Benjamin sat down beside me and put his head on my shoulder and kissed my neck lightly.

"I don't want to go Zain, i want to be with you," he mumbled softly. I smiled and my heart swelled at that. YAY!

"Then what's up?" i asked him, confused.

"It's just... well i have a bit of a reputation of being straight, like the top dog. And well... i guess it makes me kind of shallow to ask but, do you mind if we keep us a secret for a while?" Benjamin whispered. i guess i sort of understood.

Benjamin's P.O.V

I felt guilty for asking. It was horrible of me. But i couldn't come out yet. Only my friends knew about me.

"OKay..." Zain mumbled against my head. I just wanted to hug him and never let him go. I didn't want to leave and say goodbye right now. I wanted to go back to his house where it was empty and just spend time together. I'd longed to touch him, to kiss him, and now i could and i couldn't let him go. But i'd have to try.

"Zain, i love you," i breathed into his ear, brushing my lips over it. Zain squirmed under my touch and smiled up at me.

"I love you too," Zain leant up to kiss me on the lips but stopped, his face dropped and he fell back. I glanced around me quickly, we were alone and there was no where in sight. I cupped Zain's chin and pressed my lips to his. My heart flowed with happiness as i tasted his sweetness. I wanted to engulf him in hugs and kisses. Zain put his hands in my hair and pulled me closer. For a moment i forgot we were in public, until someone coughed beside us. I sprung off of Zain and looked up to see Matthew smiling down at me.

"Well well, what have we got here?" Matt grinned. Zain blushed and adjusted his bandanna and glasses. I was so relieved i hugged Matt's knees and winked to Zain, who blushed redder. I reached out to Zain and wrapped my arms around his neck and i knelt on my knees in the cold grass. Zain wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his head in my chest.

"Alright you two, unless you want the school on your case, i suggest we head off," Matt said. I nodded and put Zain back on the grass. He was smiling up at me so cutely i couldn't help but bend down and peck him on the lips one last time before getting to my feet and walking off with Matt. I turned and waved to him before i disappeared around the corner and out of sight. He waved back.

P.O.V.... Unknown

"They have found eachother," the smaller figure hissed to the bigger one. To anyone else they would be two very shady men starring across the school oval at the boys. The smaller's ones voice was high and raspy, like a life spent breathing many cigarettes. While the bigger's was deep, like nails running down a metal pipe.

"Indeed," the bigger one. the boss, mused scornfully, rubbing his chin.

"What do you want us to do?" the smaller one hissed.

"I want you to get rid of Mr Warner, he is proving to be quite a problem for us," the big guy growled, then turned and hopped into his car. The smaller bowed,

"As you wish master," he said and got into the driver's seat. The car pulled away from the curb and drove away. Benjamin Warner wasn't to know what was coming for him.

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