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Pic of James------> (Jeremy Renner)

Phoenix's bathroom floor...

[Phoenix's POV]

That couldn't have happened. There's no way my dad slept with Kaj. I must be having a nightmare. (Pinches left arm.) Ouch! I'm awake. Yup; I'm wide awake.

(Nick is knocking on the bathroom door.)

Nick: "Come on. Let me in Baby."

I won't let him in. He doesn't understand that my dad was so cold with me because I am gay. Is he gay too?

"Leave me alone!"

Nick: "Come on babe! I just want to help."

Ugh... I hear the desperation in his voice. I should talk to him. (Opens the door and lets Nick in.)

"Sit." (Nick sits next to Phoenix.)

Nick: "I understand that Kaj betrayed you and you don't have to forgive him but you should talk to your father."

"I don't want to speak to him. He has always belittled me because I am gay. He has never acceted me and look at him now. He has slept with a man and who knows how many times. Maybe it hasn't been Kaj; maybe there have been more." (He's now crying.)

Nick: "Shh..." (He moves Phoenix closer to him and wraps his arms around him.)

"Baby, I've always tried to be a good son, get good grades, do good in sports and..." (Sobs some more.)

Nick: "It's alright babe. Everything will get better." (Tears are running down his cheecks.)

"Are you crying? Sorry..." (He whispers the last part and continues to cry.)

Oh my God. I'm embarrassing myself. He shouldn't see me cry this way. Now I've made him cry. Grr... (Cannot control the sobbing.)

Later that day. Night Time...

[James's POV]

What have I done? I've hurt my son more than I usually do. How am I going to explain that I'm bisexual? He's not going to understand. I've always been cold towards him because he is gay. I'm such a hypocrite. I should have been nice to him. I guess I've always been jealous of him because he has openly been able to be who he is. He's never cares what people think. He is a really honest guy while I've been keeping this secret from my sons all these years. Geraldine knows; I told her the day we met. She has always been extremely understanding and loves me. She knows that I've slept with Kaj. I tell her everything; we agreed that I could sleep with men as long as I didn't get emotionally involved. I love my Geraldine and I would never leave her. What I had with Kaj was only a fling. I'll probably forget about him when I return home. How will I explain that to Ryan or Phoenix? (knocks on Phoenix's door)

"Bud let me in." (Hears nothing.)

"Come on Phoenix. Let me explain. I'll explain everything." (The door opens and James walks in.)

As I sit at the edge of Phoenix's bed, I realize that he looks so fragile. It's all my fault.

Nick: "I'll leave you two alone. I'm going to find Hannah."

Phoenix just nods. (Nick kisses his forehead and leaves.)

Phoenix: "Speak."

How do I even begin...

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