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(Author's Note: This chapter is a little steamy, nothing graphic though)

Slowly pulling the car into Sean's driveway, I parked and turned the key off. I sighed deeply, resting my head on the steering wheel for a bit and closing my eyes. I felt completely drained and void of all emotion. Forcing myself to unbuckle my seatbelt, I told myself not to cry. I was done with that. I got out of the car slowly, shut the door and locked it, before trudging up the driveway and towards the front door.

I slipped Sean's house key into the lock since it was on his key ring and pushed open the door. Most of the lights were off inside, as it was almost 11 by now, and Sean and his mom were nowhere to be seen. Slipping my shoes off by the front door I readjusted my bag that was slung over my shoulder and moved into the house. I wasn't sure if Sean's mom would be okay with me staying here, so I wrung my hands nervously and I searched for any sign of her. The faint sound of the television could be heard from the living room at the back of the house, so I made my way in that direction.

I stumbled into the room and found Sean's sleeping form on the couch, the TV going in the background. He looked so peaceful. His beautiful eyelashes were so long and perfect, and he had the most peaceful expression on his face. He was laying on his side, and I could barely make out his chest rising and falling slightly. I couldn't seem to peel my eyes off of him, and I was conflicted on whether or not to wake him.

I decided to take my bag upstairs to his bedroom first, hoping I could at least spend the night here. I made my way out of the living room and over to the steps, tip toeing up in case Sean's mom was already asleep. Her room was on the main floor but I figured it wouldn't hurt to be quiet.

I flicked on the light in Sean's bedroom and looked around, setting my bag on the ground. I decided to hurry and change clothes into some basketball shorts and a simple white tee. I was desperately tired and just wanted to close my eyes for a little bit. My eyelids felt so heavy. I grabbed my toothbrush that I had packed and some toothpaste and sauntered off to the bathrrom and quickly brushed my teeth. Once that was done, I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. I halted in the doorway, wondering if it was a sleepy Sean or Kristen.

"Hey hun. How'd it go?" Kristen said gently as she came into view at the top of the stairs. She was already dressed in some pajamas and had her hair down loose, falling over her shoulders. I looked down at my feet, not quite knowing how to answer that. I shrugged and ran a hand over my face.

She closed the distance between us and I found myself being embraced in a hug. She patted my back gently.

"I'm so sorry Jake. It's not fair. I can't understand why your mom is being like this," she said. I shook my head.

"I just I...I um..." I stammered, looking at her briefly.

"Jake you don't even have to ask. Of course you can stay here. I already said you are like my son. You and Sean are my boys," she smiled sweetly.

"Kristen I can't thank you enough for being so good to me," I told her. She hugged me again briefly.

"It's good to have you here Jake. Well, I'm off to bed. You boys should be too. I know Sean's been waiting up for you," she said. I snorted.

"Yeah it looks like Sean was successful with that," I joked, trying to lighten the mood. Kristen shook her head and chuckled.

"You know how he can be without his beauty sleep. Well goodnight Jake. I hope you get some good rest," she said, patting my shoulder as she turned to walk back downstairs. I lingered a bit before turning off the bathrrom light and heading back to Sean's room to put away my things.

Once that was finished, I wandered down the steps and back into the living room. Sean was still in the same position on the couch as I left him earlier. I sat down on the very edge of the couch where I could fit and gently reached out and touched his cheek, running my finger down towards his jaw. I thought about when we first met in 2nd grade, and how he always helped me with my homework. We had always hung out together whenever we could since we met and we hardly ever fought. Sitting there looking at him, I realized I have always loved him. He's always been there for me. Between this beautiful boy and my awesome brother Collin, I had always been cared for and loved. I was closer to them then I ever was to either of my parents. Now that Collin was gone, it really opened my eyes to how much Sean has been a part of my life. My heart fluttered at all of these thoughts. It made me feel like a teenager getting butterflies when he gets his first kiss.

Sean hummed slightly as I continued to stroke his cheek gently. I leaned down and placed light kisses along his jaw and cheek before capturing his lips with mine. His lips started to move with mine and suddenly his eyes fluttered open. His gorgeous chocolate brown eyes bore into me and I loved every second of it. He pulled back to look at me closely..

"Jake, what time is it?" He asked, his voice heavy with sleep as if he wasn't fully awake. It was raspy and sexy as hell.

"It's just after 11," I replied, my face close to his. I ran my hand up into his hair on the side of his head, softly combing over it. He closed his eyes briefly and covered my hand with his.

"How'd it go?" He whispered, clearly fighting falling back asleep. I chuckled lightly.

"Shh let's talk about it later. C'mon let's go to bed," I told him. He nodded slightly with his eyes still shut. I pecked him on the lips again and then grasped him by the waist to help him stand up. He wrapped an arm around my waist and we walked together like that until we reached the staircase. He pulled me by the hand up the steps and down the hall into his bedroom.

I closed the door behind us and turned to find Sean quickly stripping down to his black boxer briefs. He looked so incredibly hot in them. They were my favorite pair on him as he had multiple different colors. He turned to face me with sleepy eyes. I walked up to him and kissed him hard on the lips, suddenly overcome with love and lust. I wanted him. I needed him. He wrapped his arms tightly around my neck before reaching down for the hem of my shirt and lifting it up. I held my arms up and he pulled it over my head. He brought his lips to mine again and I wrapped my arms around his waist, pressing his hips against mine. He smiled against my mouth and ran his hands along my shoulders and down my back. I slid my own hands lower on his body and cupped his ass, giving it a squeeze. He moaned softly into my mouth.

I led him over to the bed and laid him down before laying next to him and kissing his shoulder.

"Sean?" I said, gazing at him lovingly.

"Yeah?" He replied, his eyes glittering as he looked back at me. He put his hand on the side of my face and smiled one of his winning smiles. I always loved seeing his beautiful smile.

"I love you," I said, watching his eyes shine as I spoke the words.

"I love you," he repeated, and wrapped his arm around me pulling me closer to him. He kissed me furiously on the lips and captured my tongue with his, swirling it around in my mouth, making me moan with delight. I pressed my hips into his, wrapping an arm around him.

* * * *

Daylight streamed through the blinds on the window as I looked over at Sean's alarm clock. It was 9:43. I couldn't see Sean's face as his back was to me and I was spooning him from behind. He seemed to enjoy that as he was pressed firmly against me and I had an arm wrapped around him. My face was right up next to the back of his head and I loved the smell of his hair. It was a mixture of the shampoo he used and his natural smell. I don't know quite how to describe it. Sean's natural smell is just...it's just him. It smells so good. As I lay here in his bed, I can smell it on the sheets and I loved it. I felt so at ease being here with him.

Sean suddenly rolled over to face me, his eyes fluttering open. 

"Goodmorning babe," I greeted, giving him a light peck on the lips and ruffling his hair. I rubbed his back with my hand. 

"Morning," he smiled shyly. "Last night was amazing," he whispered, his cheeks turning bright red. 

"Yeah it was. I love you so much," I replied. He smiled so tenderly and looked deeply into my eyes.

"I love you more," he said, putting his hand on my shoulder. He cleared his throat, his voice was still raspy from sleeping. I loved how hot and husky it sounded. "Jake, um..it was...it was my first." He broke eye contact with me briefly and shook his head slightly in embarrassment. His cheeks were still flushed and it was adorable. I cupped his chin and made him look at me.

"It was mine too," I said gently, kissing his forehead. His eyes widened in realization.

"Really? I would never have guessed..." He said, puzzled. I chuckled at that.

"I'm that good huh?" I smirked, trying to hold in my laughter. He pulled a face and smacked my chest.

"Shut up," he said, sitting up in the bed. I looked up at him and giggled at his frown, causing him to roll his eyes at me and then join me chuckling lightly.  Sean had his back against the head board and I was starting to get slightly uncomfortable in my position still laying down. Plus I wanted more contact. I craved his touch.

I sat up and crawled in between his legs, leaning back against his bare chest and laying my head on his shoulder. I turned my head to look at him and as soon as I did I felt his lips on mine. He put his arms around me as he pulled away from the kiss and gently rested them on my stomach, swirling his thumbs in small, soothing circles.

"I've always wanted to do this," I said absentmindedly, not realizing I said it out loud.

"Do what?" He asked curiously. I chuckled.

"Sit like this," I replied. He brought his lips to the side of my forehead and kissed me there affectionately, smiling as he did it. God he made me weak like jelly. It sounds so sappy but I could totally stay like this forever. I didn't have to leave this bedroom because he was all I needed. Laying here with him was so relaxing.

"Jake was it really your first time?" Sean suddenly asked. I turned in his arms to face him.

"Yes," I said, gazing into those chocolate brown eyes that I love so much. My thoughts drifted to us together last night. We had made love for the first time and thought we were both nervous, we were too caught up in the moment to think too much about it. I had never felt more pleasure in my life. It was absolutely mesmerizing. The passion was so strong and I just had never felt better. It made me completely forget about what had happened earlier in the night and this morning, I felt nothing but at ease even after what had happened with my parents. All I could focus on was Sean.

"What are you thinking about?" Sean asked, his eyes searching my face. I smiled.

"Just you," I shrugged. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and pulled me close. I sighed with content as I put my head on his chest.

* * * *

We finally got around to getting up about an hour later. We were being so lazy. I didn't bother to put a shirt on, I just found my shorts and slipped them on while Sean did the same. He grabbed my hand and we hurried downstairs for some breakfast. Kristen had already left for work. I yawned and found a seat on a stool at the counter while Sean busied himself in the pantry and fridge, looking for something to make.

"How about waffles?" He asked over his shoulder.

"Mmm. Waffles sound good," I replied, watching him as he fished out some pancake mix and opened the cabinet to find the waffle iron. The whole time he was busy preparing out breakfast I couldn't help but smile like a fool at how cute this was. My boyfriend was cooking us breakfast. Any thoughts I had about my parents were washed away as I focused solely on Sean. He glanced my direction every so often and gave me a smile. "Can I help with anything?" I asked him.

"Nah babe. I've almost got the waffles done." He replied. He grabbed some plates and plopped the finished waffles on them and then he buttered each of them and brought them around the counter to me. He went back to fetch the syrup and then took a seat next to me, his hand finding my own and holding it while he dumped syrup on his waffle.

Once we were both eating in a comfortable silence, Sean turned towards me on his stool, grasping both of my hands in his.

"Jake what happened last night?" He asked me, his gaze intense. I sighed and waited a few moments before speaking.

"I don't want you to worry. It's fine," I replied, attempting to appease him.

"Tell me the truth," He demanded.

"Okay...you were right, talking to Kim was a mistake," I answered honestly.

"I'm sorry babe. What did she say?"

"She was just a jerk about it. Said she didn't believe I was gay. I think she's really bitter about me not liking her or something," I shrugged. Sean regarded me carefully as if deciding how to word what he wanted to say next.

"What about your mom?" He asked tentatively, his grip tightening around my hands. I looked down at them and squeezed his hands back, closing my eyes and taking a deep breath.

"Honestly? She's in denial. Nothing's changed there. I got mad and left. I felt way better when I saw you afterwards," I replied. Sean pulled me into a tight hug, rubbing his hands against my back.

"I'm sorry for last night. Maybe we shouldn't-" he started, but I stopped him.

"Are you kidding? Last night was amazing. I wouldn't change anything about it," I said, forcing him to look at me. He nodded. "Sean I wanted it to happen because I want you, not because I was upset. Okay?"

"Okay. As long as I didn't make you do anything you weren't ready for," he replied. I kissed him too shut him up. I needed him to know that last night was the best thing that ever happened for me. It couldn't have been more perfect. I could taste the maple syrup from his waffle, makng the kiss that much sweeter.

"You're the most amazing guy ever. I love you with all my heart. Last night was an expression of that," I said. My heart was pumping hard in my chest and tingling with excitement as I thought about last night. I started getting hard thinking about it. Sean chuckled in my ear, before kissing and sucking on it. I threw my head back and he moved down to my neck, nibbling lightly and sucking. I bent down and kissed him on the lips again, he opened his mouth and I slipped my tongue inside, eager to taste him. I left his lips and stood up off the stool. I grinned wickedly at him before kneeling down on my knees. I slipped my hand into the waist band of his shorts and tugged them down.

"Jake..." Sean moaned.

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