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I'll edit later. I'm super tired.

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I open my eyes and see James rummaging around his room. He was going through his drawers looking for clothes I presume because he was just standing there in his boxers.

He turns around and catches me staring before I could turn away. He stands there proud; as he should be. He is absolutely gorgeous.

"Staring is impolite, my Darling" he smirks.

I shake my head and bury my head in my pillow, trying to hide my embarrassment. I feel as a pair of hands run down my back.

"Did you put some pants on?" I murmur into my pillow.

"Yes" he says amusingly.

I hesitantly look up and see that he had put on a pair on track pants, but no shirt.

I sigh in relief. He chuckles and flops down beside me and pulls me closer by my waist. I look at him seriously and stares right back. My eyes drift away from his and down to his chest.

"What are you doing?" I question him.

He shrugs and smiles, "I like having you in my arms" he cheekily says.

I look back at him and roll my eyes at him, "Oh please. I sleep in the same bed as you every night" I amusingly exclaim.

He reaches up and moves a lock of my hair that fell into my eyes. "And I enjoy every second of it" he whispers.

He leans forward and pecks my nose. "Sorry, you're just so kissable" he hops off the bed.

I run my hand through my bedhead, "James, you do know that you are confusing the hell out of me, right?" I place my feet on the ground.

He half smiles and nods, "Yes, I do. I'm sorry you feel this way, but I know that one day you feel the way I feel about you" He pulls on an athletic shirt.

"Listen, I'll be back in a few hours. I'm going for a run" he tells me and grabs his running shoes off the shelf.

He leaves his room and soon leaves the apartment, making the sound of the front door echo throughout the apartment.

He is driving me absolutely insane. There is a part of me that just wants to be his, but there is also another part of me that thinks that is a ridiculous idea.

There's only one thing person I could talk to about this. Grayson, my best friend.

I quick throw on a pair of sweatpants and a sweatshirt and head downstairs. I knock on Grayson's door and after I few moments he opens it, looking more tired than ever.

I guess I didn't realize that it was so early.

"Are you okay? Its seven thirty in the morning" he rubs his eyes.

I push past him and into his apartment. "Listen, I need to talk to you about something important" I plop down on his couch.

He nods small and sits down beside me, "Would you like some coffee or something?" He asks.

I shake my head, "No, I just need to talk to you" I tell him urgently.

He nods, "Is this going to lead to me punching someone in the face?" he asks.

I shake my head, "How would you feel if I was to tell you that James has feelings for me and I might return them?" I ask eagerly.

He sits there for a moment and then looks back at me. "Vena, James and I are on friendly terms if that's what you're trying to ask" he shrugs.

I shake my head, "No Grayson. This is really happening and I don't know what to do. I am so confused and I was afraid to tell you because I thought you might be mad since I thought at the time that you didn't like James but now that I do-" an hand is placed over my mouth, making me stop blabbering.

Grayson pulls his hand away cautiously, "You done?" He gives me a questioning look.

I nod and smile.

"When did this all happen?" he asks.

I shrug, "I don't know like a week ago" I shrug.

He smiles, "Do you have feelings for him?" he asks a stupid questions.

That was the one question I couldn't answer for the life of me.

I shake my head, "I don't know, Grayson. I'm freaking out because James keeps on pestering me and I can't think anymore. This whole same situation keeps on popping into my head when I least expect it" I run my hand down my face, taking a deep breath in.

He pats my back, "Do you want me to talk to him? Tell him to lay off for a bit?" he asks caringly.

As if that's going to work, I sleep with him every night.

I groan and slouch back into my seat. "That would never work" I mumble.

He grabs my hand, "Why" he laces our fingers together.

I can't tell him, that's against the rules and I'm sure that would get into some major shit if James found out.

I shake my head, "He won't listen to you" I guess that part was true.

I climb into my best friend's comforting lap. He wrap his arms around me and rubs my back, "Please tell me what to do" I plead.

He chuckles deeply, the vibrations running through his chest. "I'm afraid that I can't do that for you".

I groan and burry my head in his chest, I was just about to get comfortable when my phone started ringing. I reach into my pocket and look at the caller ID. Oh look at that, it was just another idiot waiting on the other end. I hit answer.

"What do you want, Grant" I growl into the phone.

He laughs loudly, making me pull the phone away from my ear. "I need you back at your apartment, everyone is waiting for you and also bring Grayson" he hangs up.

I drag myself out of Grayson's lap and stand up, "Come on, we are needed upstairs" I pull him up.

He tells me that he is going to get dressed and in a matter of seconds, he came back ready to go. I- well looked like crap.

We walk upstairs up to my living space and I open the door and see that everyone was there. All of James's friends. Which included: Grant, Ryder and Leah.

I shut the door behind us and I hobble inside and plop down on the couch between Ryder and Leah.

"This better be good" I scowl at Grant.

He nods, "It is. I swear" he smiles.

We listen in, but he just sits there like a freaking idiot.

"Well go on" James urges him.

I look in his direction and see his forehead glistening with sweat. Looks like someone needs a shower.

"Oh, right. Well you know how we have that fall break coming up right?" he looks at each and every one of us.

I nod. Winter is coming and it sucked. Days are getting colder, but that also meant that Christmas was getting closer and closer.

"Well since you obviously aren't doing anything. I am inviting you to stay at my parent's cabin up in Maine" he smiles at us.

I smile at the thought. Grant is rich so that means this house is huge and that also means that James can't make me stay with him. I'll be free.

"I'm in. When is the break?" I ask.

Grant smiles towards me. "This weekend" he stands up.

"So how about you guys? Do you guys want to go on a little vacation?" he asks.

There were a bunch of 'Yeahs' and 'whoos'.

Grayson leans down by my ear, "Do think I should go?" he asks.

I nod "Yeah you should" I tell him.

He smiles and pats my shoulder, "Okay".

I stand up step over to Grayson, "I didn't get a very good sleep last night, so I'm going to have a nap. You can stay here if you want, I don't mind" I tell him.

He pecks the side of my head and nods, "Try ad get some sleep and don't think too much" he tells me.

I walk off the direction of my room and yell back, "Please keep it down, I'm going to have a nap".

I open the door to my room and look at my bed. It was perfectly made. It feels like I haven't slept on it in ages.

There were so many things going through my head now. The trip (Which I was extremely excited for) and James. There he was again, intruding my thoughts.

I close the curtains and climb under my comforter. It a familiar feeling, one I missed most.

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The door creaks open and quietly shuts. I suddenly feel a dip in the open spot beside me. I turn around and Grayson smiles back at me. "Sorry that I woke you, but I think you have a class in about 20 minutes" he half smiles.

My eyes widen, "Oh my god, thank you" I quick wrap my arms around his neck and turn away from him and start to get dressed into something more presentable.

I thought the point of having afternoon classes was so that I wouldn't be in a rush. The worst part is that James has the same class as me and it's almost impossible to concentrate when he's blabbering in your ear.

I turn around towards Grayson, "Is this okay?" I ask.

He nods, "You look fine" he assures me.

I walk back over to him and pull him in for a hug, "I'll be back in a few hours" I pull away and grab my bag and run into the living room. I see James sitting there reading a book. He looks up and sets it down, "I'm glad to see he got you up, I thought I was going to have to leave without you" He smirks.

I roll my eyes. He picks up his laptop bag and swings it over his shoulder, "Well let's go" he opens the door.

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Something pokes my cheek, jolting me out of my sleep. I snap my head up and see James sitting beside me with amusement plastered on his face.

I glare at him and sit up.

"Class dismissed" my physiology professor tells us.

I turn my head and give James a death look. He let me fall asleep throughout my whole class! That's like three hours of a total waste of information.

I stand up absolutely furious. What a jerk. I need to learn this stuff.

"Relax Vena. I'll teach you later" he places his hand on the small of my back.

I take a deep breath and nod, "You better" I snap.

He chuckles and walks out with me. "At least you're not tired anymore" he smiles.

I nod and we head back home.

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"I'm home" I shout once James closes the door.

There was nothing, zip, nadda.

I quick call Grayson.

"Hey where'd you go" I said as soon as he picked up.

"I have a friend over, I'll see you later" he says quickly.

Interesting...

"Okay, well I guess I'll see you later" I drift off.

"Yup, Okay bye" he hangs up

Well that was weird.

I feel a hand on my shoulder, "I want to watch a movie" James grabs my hand.

I groan drop my bag down on the ground, "Fine" I plop down on the couch.

I sits down beside me and wraps his arm around my shoulders. He flips through movies on Netflix until he finds one he wants to watch.

"Are you okay, my Darling?" he asks.

I lean into his chest. "I don't know James. I getting all these mixed feelings" I look up at him.

He smiles and moves a lock of my hair out of my face, "I know and I'm sorry that I put you in this situation" he leans in and kiss my forehead. "I care about you a lot, Vena".

I smile at his words and cuddle into his chest. "I know, James".

He wraps his arms around me and pays attention to the screen.

James snuggles into the side of my neck and is breathing settles. Maybe James didn't get a good night's sleep either.

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Sorry, I made this a thousand words short but I thought it would be considerate of me to update tonight for those who are still awake, if not you'll have a nice surprise in the morning.

So as you may have found out, there's going to be a trip together and I think you'll like it. Anyways PLEASE comment. Thanks

-BWS

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