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I was letting him get to me again.

I was letting him fiddle with my feelings

His lips burn fire down my neck. They were on my collarbone when his breath moved across my skin.

"Vena. Please" he pulls away from me and looks at me. "I need to know how you feel about me. I can't keep on holding back" he desperately said.

"I- um..." I trail off.

He shakes his head, "Vena, you know you're killing me right?" he gets off of me.

I sit up and look at him.

"I am trying so hard to make you fall for me and it one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life" he runs his hand through is hair.

I can't deal with this kind of pressure right now. It was going to kill me.

So what I did was just walk away. I got up and left the bedroom, not a word said. He didn't stop me either.

I walk down the stairs and see Grant, Grayson and Leah sitting on the couch.

I flop down beside Grant, seeing how Leah was pretty close to Grayson; like thighs touching. Yeah. That close.

"What's wrong?" Grant asks.

I glance at him, "Ask your best friend" I mumble.

He chuckles, "He lay some new news on you?" he smiles.

I shake my head. "No Grant".

He shrugs and keeps on watching TV.

I stand up and throw on my coat, "I'm going for a walk" I announce.

Grayson stands up, "Is it okay if I join you?" he asks.

I nod, "Yeah. Grab your coat. I'll be waiting outside" I mumble and step outside.

I take in my surroundings. It was absolutely beautiful. There was so many trees. It smelled wonderful.

Moments later Grayson steps outside and grabs my hand, lacing his fingers with mine.

I loved how Grayson was so caring towards me.

"Tell me what's wrong" he leads me off the deck to the path ahead off us.

"Where do I begin?" I look up at the fall sky.

~

"I can talk to him" he says as soon as I tell him everything; everything except for our deal.

I shake my head, "No, don't" I plead, "I don't want him to get mad at anyone" I glance up at his face.

He runs his free hand through his hair, "I want to help you, Vena. I am your best friend. It is my job to keep you happy" he takes my other hand so that he is standing in front of me.

"Let me do this for you. You do so much for me and now it's time I returned the favour" he looks into my eyes.

Throughout all the years that I had been friends with Grayson (Which was a very long time) I had noticed that his eyes changed to a bright baby blue when he was cold.

I groan, "Fine" I give in.

He smiles brightly, "Good", he lets go of my hand and we walk side by side, swinging our interlocked hands.

"Now let me get this straight; you think you have feelings for him, but you don't want to get close to him because you're roommates?" he asks.

I nod, "What am I going to do, Grayson? I have to sleep in the same bed as him for a week" I groan.

What? I want to see how he would respond to me sleeping in the same bed as him.

He shrugs, "I have to sleep in the same bed as Leah" he says with a smile.

Ooh, I think my bestie is getting a crush.

I laugh, "Yeah, but you will enjoy it" I respond.

He raises an eyebrow at me, "And you'll enjoy sleeping with James" he laughs.

We didn't deny these facts, because I think I am starting to believe them.

~

We get back up to the porch of the vacation house and stand there for a second.

"How much do you want to bet that everyone is still sitting on their lazy asses?" Grayson smirks.

I chuckle, "I'm not betting anything because I know that is exactly what I am going to see" I turn the door handle and push it open.

Just as I thought, They were all sitting there watching the huge flat screen TV that was planted on the wall. Except for James.

"We are in a beautiful place and all you can do is sit and do nothing" I addressed.

"We're tired, Vena" Leah complained.

I shrug and climb the stairs up to my room. I open the door and see James sleeping there soundly.

I smile at the sight and quietly shut the door behind me.

I walk up to the bed and lean over to see his sleeping face.

Grayson told me to do a cheesy thing: Follow my heart, do what it is telling me to do.

He said that I think too much. That I do what would be logical. Everything I had been doing was to benefit myself in the future.

He told me to think about the now, not the future.

Maybe he was right.

Maybe I was blocking my real feelings for James, but then again maybe I wasn't.

For this one time, I am going to listen to what he told me to do, because it might just help me.

I climb into bed, next to James and lay down in front of him.

I move his arm over so I can cuddle into his chest. I press my head to his chest and I could hear his steady heartbeat.

I noticed that he smelled really good, must have been some cologne.

"Darling" he murmurs.

I look up at his face and see that his eyes are still closed. "Yes?" I reply.

He pulls me closer to his chest, "We need to talk in a bit" he mumbles.

I nod into his shirt, "Yeah we do" I agree.

He drapes his arm over my side and slides his fingers up the hem of my shirt.

I didn't brush his hand away because he had a way of making me feel safe without even really trying.

~

"Shh. This is adorable and you're going to ruin it" Leah's voice wakes me.

I open my eyes and see James's face next to mine.

"Who cares?" Ryder's voice snaps back.

James's eyes flutter open and smiles at me.

"Shut up, Ryder" Leah growls back.

James sits up of arm and looks at them, "Guys please be quiet. Ven is asleep" he whispers.

Then the voices were gone.

He lays back down and pulls me close to his chest. He runs his hand up and down my back in a soothing manner.

I look up at him and smile. He leans down and pecks my nose.

For reason these little actions made me happy.

"I'm sorry that I overwhelm you sometimes, Vena" he runs his fingers down the side of my face.

"I just you want to want this as much as I do. I can tell that you are slowly gaining feelings for me" he smiles.

I did believe that he was right. He was going to school to become chef, not a physiologist. Although, that did confuse me because he is in my Physiology class.

He sat up, making me falling off his chest. I sat up and looked at him.

"Do you have feelings for me?" he asks the that same question that took the life of my to answer.

He grabs my hand and holds on, as if he knew that I was going to leave.

I sigh, "I don't know James. There are sometimes when I think I do and then there are sometimes that I know that I could never" I run my hand through my hair.

"I know that you have given me time, but I need more. I can't just have feelings for you like that. It's not that easy"

He scratches the back of his neck. "How much more do you need?" he looks up at me.

"I don't know James, but I need some" I pull away from his hand and leave the room.

I go back down the stairs and flop down on the couch beside Grant.

"I see you have returned" he nudges me.

"I'm surprised she ever did, seeing how she was all wrapped up with James" Ryder snickers.

I roll my eye. I had to see this coming.

"Ooh did Vena do the dirty?" Grants says in an childish tone.

I roll my eyes again. If I keep on rolling my eyes they might roll right out of head.

I shake my head, "No, I did not, Grant" I assure him.

He raises an eyebrow at me, "Then what did you do?"

I shrug, "Sleep, I was tired" I tell him.

he shrugs, "That's not what Ryder told us" he mumbles.

I turn and look at Ryder, "What did you lie about?" I ask.

"I didn't. I just told them that you were having a cuddle fest with James" he says, not looking up from his phone.

I shrug. I guess that was true, but I liked cuddling with James. That was true wasn't it?

I smile at that thought. I liked the idea of being in James's arms. Like I mentioned before: he makes me feel safe.

He knew how to comfort a person without trying. He was the type of person that just knew something was wrong.

There was stomping down the stairs until James showed at the bottom. He sits down beside me and rest his arm along the back of the couch.

The couch was huge, it could fit all six of us comfortably.

Everyone had now directed their attention back to the TV, watching something.

Eventually, everyone fell asleep on the couch, except for me and James.

We did already have a nap upstairs. It was almost six o' clock and everyone just laid there.

I glance around and see how they were lying and it was quite humorous.

Ryder was on the far end and he was just barely hanging on to the couch.

Next to him was Grayson and Leah, with her head laying on his shoulder. That's adorable; as Leah would say.

On the other side of James and I, was Grant. He was upside down, his legs hung over the back of the couch.

How did that he even happen?

And James and I were having a cuddle fest; as Ryder would call it.

I was curled up in his lap, my head laying on his chest and my hand resting on his chest.

He had his arm wrapped around my hip and his other on my knee. He was resting his chin on top of my head.

I knew James had to get up to make supper in a bit, but as of right now he wasn't going anywheres.

Not if I had anything to do with it.

"Vena-" he whispers.

"Don't ruin it by talking" I cut him off.

I feel him nod and settle in his spot.

A few moments later he spoke, "You do know that I have to get up before any of them wake up" he whispers.

I nod, "I know" I answer quietly.

I feel him kiss the top of my head.

My eyes were staring to close, I swear I tried to keep them open but it was difficult. I couldn't stand keeping my eyes open anymore, so they just shut.

~

I laying on my side when woke.

I look up and around and there was nobody on the couch, nobody in the living room.

I stand up and glance over the couch down at the end there they were sitting around the dining table, talking. I hop over the back of the couch and walk across walkway to the table.

Grayson looks up first and smiles at me, "How'd you sleep?" he asks, which makes everyone turn their attention to me.

I nod, "Good, do you know where James is?" I ask.

Grant nods, "Yeah turn the corner and then you'll find the kitchen, he's making dinner" he gives me directions.

I mumble a thanks and turn the corner and see a huge kitchen.

I swear to god, tis house is fit for Bill Gates.

I notice James stirring something on the stove. I walk up to him and wrap my arms around him from behind.

I hear him chuckle, "Leah. I'm-" he glances behind him and see me.

I should have expected something like this was going to happen.

I should have known.

Once a player, always a player.

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I'm sorry for not updating yesterday, it was late and I was tired. Anyways here was this update.

There could be a possibility of me updating again today, maybe not. I don't know.

Anyways, comment whay you guys thought. I miss seeing all those comments.

-BWS

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