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hello everyone

long time no see

if you've read the posts on my account you'll know that i have had no idea where to go with this story for a while, and honestly i've moved on.

i wrote this at a time when i was really struggling with my gender, and reading gay books was genuinely the only time i felt comfortable, still don't fully get why but i just felt like i was longing to be a boy who loved a boy and so after reading like every gay book there was on this lol i decided to write my own while, immaturely, stealing little plot lines here and there from other books. (i mean not really stealing lets be honest this type of book on here follows the same four plot lines over and over again lol, no hate i love 'em <3 )

anyways, i had writers block for ages, started moving on to other things and getting busy with highschool, and eventually only thought about this book once in a blue moon. like today. every half a year or so i come back on to check how it's doing. it amazes me people connect with this and want to read it.

i'm honoured that there's been people waiting for this to be updated for almost two years, but i'm afraid i'm about to disappoint you.

like i've said, i've moved on from this. i'm about to graduate highschool and i wrote this in ninth grade when i was in a very bad place and just didn't know how to write a story lol

so, not only does this story seemingly have no where to go due to the inconsistent characters and plot holes, i've let it go.

i get a bit sad thinking that i can't continue it but it was a piece of a past part of me. i won't be updating this anymore or this account, but i am so thankful for all of you and the reads and votes and comments :) you guys give me a little confidence boost :) and i am so insanely elated that some of you connected with this and that i was able to make you feel something, that's all i ever wanted to do.

i'm pursing film studies after i graduate so maybe i'll post a script here one day in the far future lmao

and if any of you are reading this for the same reason i once wrote it, if you're struggling with your gender, it'll get better. i'm still struggling with mine, but i've learned to embrace the fact that i'm not a girl. i don't know if i'll ever fully be trans, but i know that books about boys loving each other feel like a stab to my heart, and i know that one day it'll sort itself out. it sucks but you gotta be patient.

so, i leave you all now but thank you again for the joy and confidence you've brought my little 14 year old self, they once thought this book to be the most important thing in the world. and while i see it as probably the cringiest thing i've ever done, i appreciate it from their POV.

i love you all lots and i hope this brings some peace to those of you who are still waiting and for those of you who come to this chapter right after finishing the last one for the first time :)

goodbye all ! <3

much love,

leo

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