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My body felt stiff, I wanted to collapse on the side of the road but I pushed on.

Finally I reached the cafe, my mom greeted me with a rushed smile, I smiled back.

Before I sat down I walked to the bathroom, I felt horrible.

I was so pale, and I had bruises on my neck and chest from where little closeted psycho grabbed me.

My nails had started to blacken under them, and the rotting had worked it's way further up.

I bit my lip frustrated, why was this happening to me, I was literally a walking corpse.

But why did Eric look so normal, what the hell am I?

I should probably go see him, luckily it was a small town so I knew where everyone lived.

I need to eat before I go though, I walked into the kitchen and took a box of fries.

I ate as I walked there, it was through the woods opposite my house.

The sun beat down on me so viscously, to be honest it was starting to burn.

I put on my sunglasses once I reached the other side of town, his house was one of the old ones.

It was big and had a lot of land, I saw his car parked in the drive way, did he live alone?

I walked up the stairs, the front door was wide open, i stepped through it.

There were no pictures on his walls just paintings of different places around the world.

The inside was contradicting, it was extremely modern, except for the fire place.

"What are you doing in here?" Eric's soft voice rang loudly.

"I want your help" I said confidently, he walked down thee glass stairs.

"What makes you think I still want to help you?" he said, he didn't like me before I died why would he help me.

"Because I'm like you" I said, I took off my glasses, he shrugged.

"Oh really? I don't think so" he said holding up a mirror, my dark blue eyes looked back.

"They were red before" I swore, I poked around my eyes.

"We are, you said it yourself" I said crossing my arms.

"Well we're not exactly the same it close enough" he said walking past me.

"Well than what am i?" I asked him, I needed answers.

"Well what do you think you are?" he asked me, I was getting frustrated with this well game.

"I know you're a vampire, I don't know what I am though" I said.

"I'm surprised you've figured out as much, most people go through denial" he said picking up a glass.

"Well I did for a little, remember" I said motioning when his fangs came out, this struck a cold look in his face.

"Leave" he said, crap had I offended him with all that, I mean he did actually show me who he really was.

"Look I'm sorry" I apologized, his eyes started turning red, and his hand went through the glass.

"Go" he said, I looked at him disgusted, I shook my head and laughed.

"Of course, you're all the same, except you really are a monster" I said, he wouldn't help me before what changed.

"You have no idea what I'm like" he yelled after me.

"You're a cold asshole like the rest of them, I'll figure this out by myself, I've come this far alone" I said as I slammed the door.

I began to run through the woods, why did I think that anything would change.

I was so angry, i needed to do something, I just wanted to hurt someone, worse than how I'd been hurt.

I smelled fear, it made me hungry, I quickly followed the smell.

There he was, the blonde boy from Texas who had stomped on my throat.

He visited the tree where he had killed me, I grinned with satisfaction, wouldn't it be ironic if I killed him here.

"Look man, I'm so sorry, I was such a coward, I didn't like you but I had no right" he began talking to the tree.

"I wished everyday that they would stop, I prayed that it would be easier for you" he began crying.

"I guess I was just mad, no one knows that I had a gay brother" he choked on his words.

"He committed suicide and then we moved here, my family fell apart, he ruined everything" he said with anger.

"But I loved him so much, he was my big brother, I looked up to him but he just left me" he began to sob.

"I thought that if I bullied you it would make you straight and it would never happen to you, but I made everything worse" he collapsed.

He started to cry hysterically, I hated him yet I felt bad for him, I was to nice to let this happen.

"I wish that everything was different, if I could've done anything to make your life easier I would have" he cried.

"You could've just been my friend, or even have just stood up for me" I said, tears stung my eyes.

He spun around so quickly, I knew what it was like to be mad because you lost someone you loved.

"You could've not done anything, it would've been better than making me want to die everyday" I said crossing my arms.

His face was pale and his nose was red, "I was so scared everyday, but I never showed it" I said.

He began to cry and breathe heavy as I spoke, "you could've just talked to me, but instead you killed me" I said.

He grabbed the sides of his face, he was having an anxiety attack, "I'm so sorry, you don't even know how sorry I am" he cried looking me in the eyes.

"I do know" I said as thoughts about my dad raced through my head, and I said what I longed to hear everyday.

"And I forgive you" I said, he started crying even more, I knelt down. so we were at eye level.

"I forgive you Simon" I said with a sad smile, his muscular arms wrapped around my neck as he cried into my shoulder.

I put my arms around his back and hugged him back, he kept crying sorries into my neck.

I placed my chin on his shoulder, and that's when my perception changed.

I felt a beating against my face with my heightened senses, a slowly calming heartbeat, he was genuine but so was my hunger.

I breathed in through my nose, he smelled so good, I felt pain in my mouth, my grip on him tightened.

He coughed, "wh-what are you doing" he coughed, he couldn't breathe, I was frozen.

Something fought my conscience, it was trying to take over my body, tearing sounded in my gums.

I forced myself off of him, he looked into my eyes worried, "are you okay!?" he asked me.

He got to his feet and walked over to me his hand was outstretched, there was pure worry in his eyes.

"I'm okay Simon, I just have to go, don't tell anyone I died ok?" I said to him quickly.

"Yeah of course not, out secret" he said, he clearly noticed my red eyes, he knew I wasn't human anymore, but I knew he was being honest with me.

I began to run home, faster than I had ever fun before, but it slowly started to fade as my hunger did.

I began running at my slow usual pace, my heart was having palpitations, I stopped and clenched my chest.

Thankfully I had made it to my house, I climbed up my stairs, crawling into my house.

I was having a heart attack, "why is this happening" I said in agony, I breathed hard.

My body was dying, and now that everything I was brought back for was settled I had nothing to live for.

I crawled up my stairs and collapsed on my bed, I let the pain take over until I blacked out.

My eyes fluttered open, I was still alive, my alarm slowly became louder and louder.

I picked it up and threw it at the wall, it shattered along with a little of the wall, I don't know why I was so angry.

I was still alive, I should be happy right? but what's the use of life with nothing to live for.

I got to my feet and walked towards my bathroom, as usual my mom was at work.

I got in the shower and started washing my hair, I heard a clink, did I drop something.

I heard another clink, what is that I thought, I felt something in my hair, it felt like a little twig.

I rubbed my eyes and opened them, the water was stained with blood as I held one of my finger nails in my hand.

I gagged, "what the hell" I said, my heart was racing, I'm literally falling apart.

Most of my nails had fallen off or was about too, I got out and put bandaids on most of my fingers.

My arms had dead pale blotches, the rotting was getting worse, I had bags under my eyes.

Why was this happening to me? why couldn't I just die, would my body just turn to dust while I was still here or would my brain rot first.

My body was so sore, It's like all of the bruises I had ever gotten had come back all at once.

My blue eyes were a little lighter today and the yellow starbursts in my eyes were a little paler than usual.

My lips were starting to turn blue, and they were ridiculously cold, it didn't help that they were chapped.

But the saddest thing was I still looked really good, this is what I'd prayed for during puberty, be careful what you wish for I guess.

I walked into school, yet again everyone was talking about how good I looked, if only they knew how bad I felt.

I started coughing, I quickly opened my locker, I coughed into my hand, blood splattered on my hand.

"Dude are you okay?" Simon said quietly into my eat, I looked at him and nodded.

"I mean I've been worse, I've been dead haha" I laughed, he shook his head and laughed at my dumb joke.

"Look man, what's going on with you, I think we're pretty close now, we've been through enough" he said compassionately.

He took out a tissue and wiped the side of my mouth, he looked at the tissue with sad eyes.

"Well I came back from the dead, it's got to have some costs" I whispered to him.

"Well how? are you like a witch or a vampire or something" he asked me, I think he'd believe aliens at this point.

"I'm a vampire I think well that's what Eric said" I whispered, his eyes widened.

"Wait is he one? did he turn you into one? is there more?" he whispered loudly, he looked around to make sure no one heard.

"Yeah, and i don't think so because he was just as shocked that I came back to life, and I don't think so" I said quickly.

"I can't believe it, I always knew there was something else, like god clearly is a joke" he said nostalgically.

"Yeah but you can't tell anyone Simon, not a soul" I said looking into his childish eyes.

"You know I won't Abel" he said honestly as he rubbed my shoulder, I flinched in pain.

"Dude are you okay" he rolled up my sleeve and looked at the quickly forming bruise.

"What the hell!? shouldn't you be like indestructible?" he said scared, I shook my head.

"No I don't know why but I'm slowly dying again, I want to know why Eric is a full vampire" I said to him.

"Yeah Same" Simon said more curiously than me, I guess he was a geek at heart.

I was already learning so much about him, he had a big heart he just built up walls so he wouldn't get hurt.

"Well are you in pain?" he asked me awkwardly, he shut his eyes scared for the answer.

"I'm in so much pain, worse than ever" I said softly, he clenched his jaw, his eyes got watery.

"I'm so sorry man" he said again, I smiled at him warmly, he was actually a good guy, his past had just made him cold.

"We're over it remember, at least I'm alive" I said with a smile, he forced a smile.

"Got to think positive" he said, his fingers slowly caressed my shoulder.

"Exactly" I said with a grin, he grinned back, his blonde hair was always styled like he was going to church or something.

But his pale green eyes were the type that said he was wild and was fun to be around.

He was the same height as Eric, Tim however was ridiculously tall, like 6'4 and really muscular.

I was only 5'9 and Eric and Simon were both 5'11/6ft, I looked up at him, his jaw was so defined.

"So now we have to find out how to make you like Eric" he said with a smile, I smiled back.

We walked to homeroom, "so have you, you know drank blood?" he asked me, I shook my head.

"Yesterday was the first time I wanted it, but I lose myself, I don't think I could stop" I said honestly.

"Maybe that's what you need to do" he said as he pulled out his iPhone, he typed away.

"Okay so clearly the people are bogus but a lot of things say that there's a transition stage" he said, I lifted my eyebrow.

We sat down and he handed me his phone, "yeah see, just don't slide it over" he said.

"Why?" I asked looking at him, he coughed and looked around the room.

"Uhhh straight guy stuff" he said, I rolled my eyes and laughed, clearly he had ridiculous amounts of porn.

He was right though, there was a lot of stuff that said vampires went through transition and it was completed by drinking blood.

The only problem was it was very brief, nothing explained why I was falling apart, reliving my death, and becoming more attractive.

And another major flaw was that it didn't say how much blood, like what if I killed someone or need a ritual or something.

I told Simon exactly what I had just thought, he nodded.

"True, this is really dangerous, have you asked Eric for help?" he asked me, I nodded.

"But I really offended him, he didn't deserve it, I don't think he's going to help me now" I said resting my face in my hands.

"Us, you mean he won't help us, we're in this together Crosswell" he said putting out his pinky.

I took it with mine, he but his thumb, I raised my eyebrows, he made a 'really' face.

"You've got to bite it or it won't count, it's something I do with my little sister" he said softly.

I smiled and but my thumb, he bit his and looked into my eyes, "I know you trust me cause we kept eye contact" he said happily.

"It's a psychology thing" he said, I nodded impressed, he was smarter than he let on.

"But on a real note, if you need blood to turn into a vampire you can drink mine, cause I trust you" he said looking down.

I knew he wasn't gay so this homoerotic stuff was awkward for him, but I knew he meant well.

"Thanks Simon, lets hope it doesn't get to that though" I said warmly, he smiled at me.

"Right" he said with a grin, the teacher started taking roll, I realized this was the first time if ever had a friend.

Proud to sit next to me, even though we got bad looks all morning and horrible looks, he still stood by me.

He's made me feel so much better than he's hurt me, even though this is ridiculous, to me he's made amends for everything.

And he didn't do it out of fear, or cause he felt bad, he did it cause he genuinely wanted to help me, he's a true friend.

"Oh god" I said to myself, I grabbed the sides of my head, Simon put his hand on my shoulder.

"Dude what's wrong?" he said quickly, I took them off, I felt like I had just been shot in the head.

My head was exploding, blood started rapidly dripping on the table in different spots.

"Oh my god" Simon said loudly jumping up, he quickly crouched in front of my table.

"Look Abe calm down" he said, I noticed that I was hyperventilating, everyone was staring at me.

"Hey hey hey, just look at me" he said, tears welled in his green eyes, I focused on them, they were so calming.

The commotion around me slowly faded as I fell into a green pool of serenity.

Red stained the image as the reflection in his eyes revealed myself.

I had blood pouring from my nose, eyes, and ears, my body went limp.

All I heard was the people's loud voices draining out, Simon picked me up bridal style.

Eric sat in his back corner looking down at the table pretending nothing was happening.

"Why don't you help him!?" Simon yelled, everything was so slow yet a blur.

Erica head snapped up, his face was full of worry, he was just as shocked as us.

But what really caught my attention was Tims nervous brown eyes, he was actually worried.

"Do I have permission to go to the hospital!?" Simon yelled to the teacher, he nodded worried for me, I liked my homeroom teacher.

Simon ran with me in his arms, we drove, I mustered all my might to mutter.

"You can't take me to the hospital" my voice drowned out, he shook his head as he out me in back seat.

"I know man, we're not" he said as he jumped in the drivers seat, he stepped on the gas and sped down the street.

Everything was spinning, but it was like the small yellow specs in my eyes had jumped off and showed me the milky way.

I know I'm hallucinating but it was amazing, I was so enamored by them, they slowly started fading.

After they disappeared it was like the night had started to turn into a bloody sunrise.

I came to a stop and the green filled my vision, "dude your eyes are blood red" Simon said as he picked me up.

"Luckily my dad and step mom are at work" he said trying to keep me conscious by talking to me.

He carried me up his stairs and delicately placed me on his bed.

"Stay awake buddy" he said as he ran out of the room, he came back in with a bunch of stuff.

Something warm wiped my face, he was cleaning the blood off my face, my head didn't hurt anymore, I just felt disoriented.

I probably had a major concussion, the green in his eyes warmed me, they were so tranquil.

"Dude you keep drifting, stop it" he said, his voice sounded so distant but he was right there, he was there for me.

I smiled at him, "something that I have that Eric doesn't have is this" I said as I took his hand and pressed it against my chest.

His eyes widened, it was the only warm spot on my body but what's more important was my irregular heart beat.

It may be off but still it was a heart beat, I would go on, "we still have something in common" I said quietly.

"How?" he said confused, I think that's why Eric looked so shocked, my heart clearly wasn't supposed to beat.

"I don't know, all I know is that if this keeps beating I'll be fine" I said softly.

Everything was so blurry, "okay buddy go to sleep" Simon said as his head softly rested on my chest.

He laid down next to me with his hand gripping mine tightly, he was pretty strong, or was I just weak?

Before I knew it I had been swept away into my subconscious, this happens way to much.

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