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After I said my byes to Jenna and her parents, I walked out at the parking lot to meet Damian waiting for me. He smiled a little and opened up the door for me. I didn't know what to talk about so the conversation during the drive ended in small talks of How are you and fine, thank you. He said 'Congratulation' four times, I had to inwardly roll my eyes at the awkwardness. Is this how it feels to talk with exes or what. So we just listened to the radio while he drove.

He had bought a new car as the color was different. Well, I have a bad taste in cars. I am that bad.

He tried to concentrate on driving as he tried not to make eye contact with me. Somehow, I found that adorable. The hotel he talked about took fifteen minutes to reach. I had to close my jaw because the quiet, No-one-will-disturb-us hotel was a 5 star hotel. The Cicada.

Oh man.

He opened my door which was kinda embarassing for me, I was not used to this kind of treatment. He ushered me inside and checked in in the reception. The whole trip to the room was silent. He kept quiet for a while. I didn't even know why I was here? What the hell was I doing? The urge to go back was emmense but I would be doing wrong to Damian if I didn't let him speak as he says. This was the last talk and next week I would be in New York with a new life to start.

The room looked... expensive and really quiet. I smiled as I went inside and examined the hall. He dropped his jacket on the floor and waited for me to talk or something.

" Well..." I said clearing my throat. He smiled and shrugged.

" Its been what?... 2 months since we saw each other eye to eye." he said sitting on one of that expensive couch.

" Actually its one month and three weeks since we broke up." I said looking down at the floor. Very well furnished floor.

"Wow..." he sighed.

" Yeah..." I said with a small smile. He got up and came towards me. Suddenly I got the urge to look at his face.

Oh...fuck.

He looked so handsome even with the beard and his muscles strained even with his t shirt on.

Damn, he's hot!

" Thanks, I guess." he said with a chuckle.

Did I just say that out loud? I slapped my mouth shut and stared at him blushing.

"You know, that's how we met. You,speaking to yourself. It was fascinating and amusing." he said coming closer. I smirked at him crossing my arms.

" Oh really?" I said with a smile. " I thought you fell for me. Thanks to know I was just fascinating and amusing."

" Oh, I did." he said grabbing my waist all of a sudden and bringing me closer to him. Our faces inches apart. My breath hitched.

There it was again. That moment when everything stops like you are running between the space and time. Like you... are Flash or something. You don't notice anyone, not even your freaking parents are near you. Like it is the end of the world and this was it. Like a last fuck.

" Damian.." I whispered looking at his lips. Those delicious lips..

" Huh.." He said doing the same. I gulped.

" What are you doing?" I asked as I clutched his thin shirt. It was as if our bodies were synced. As if doing this was just the thing our bodies were made for.

" I love you." he said and smashed his lips on mine. My lips moved as if on their own.

His tongue entered my mouth and explored every part of my mouth. As if claiming it. I moaned loudly as we kissed. Oh god... I missed him, his lips. His everything. I love him. So much that I can let him go for his good. 

He was Damian, Not just anybody.

My Damian.

Somehow we ended up in the bedroom as we kissed. He was trying to get my jumper off me.

This was it.

I was ready. For him. Just one last time. I want to feel him. Just this time and I will let him go.

I wanted to cry but I couldn't ruin the moment.

The clothes evaporated, we were on the bed exploring each other. His hot body rubbing all over me. His mouth doing miracles on me. My lust was spilling out with his. He was smling all the time he kissed every part of my body. I smiled back cause his beard was tickling me.

He found my erection leaking like a faucet. Never was I turned on like this, not even when I was watching porn. This was different. This was.....this was making love. This wasn't just sex. We were doing something so pure and wonderful that my tears started flowing from my eyes. With all the pain that I had kept hidden inside me. Damian shushed me gently and kissed me as he entered me slowly

and sensually. I cried out with pleasure. His mouth muted my moans and groans. The pain was there for a minute and then came an Unexplainable pleasure from within as he thrusted hard into me. Damian was here making love to me.

This was it. I was going to heaven. The pleasure was too much. My erection getting strained and hard again. He gave out a groan and found his release which was hot inside me.

It was just for few minutes that he started to thrusting again with a grunt. My eyes were too tired to open so I just went with flow. I felt like I was floating in a soft cloud.

" Ethan..." he called out making me look at him half opened, mouth gaping as I was finding my release for the third time.

" I love you so much." he whispered before he kissed me. I kissed back.

" I love you." I whispered back with a smile. His thrust faltered and slowed down as he looked down at me.

" What?"

" You heard me..." I said chuckling trying to thrust back at his hip. He just stared at me with adoration. I pulled him in for a kiss and whispered, " Now, fuck me."

" Yes, Sir." he said as he started to make love to me.

We made love all night. I loved him even more. More than my life.

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I was wide awake as I stared at the clock on the wall. It read 12 am. My body felt like I took a jump from the Mount Everest to the ground. From the pain on my hips, I kinda felt sorry for Mr. Polt, our old neighbour who complained about it all day and I did not think it was a big deal.

Well, putting the reasons to the pain aside.

The bed was empty but I heard the shower somewhere so that was a relief. My phone vibrated suddenly making me get up too fast cause the pain to travelled through my back and down again.

I cursed as I checked who it was.

Dad.

I walked towards the balcony and connected the call.

"Hey, dad. I am sorry. About.."

" Hey it's alright. I will meet you in the morning," he said. I knew he was smiling. " So did you talk with him?"

" Y-yeah... I did." I said in a high voice.

" Ethan..."

" I did, Dad. I mean, Talk with him. I talked with him." I stammered.

" You did not do anything else right." he said with a suspicious voice.

" I..."

" Hah! Of course you did. You are staying all night there. What am I thinking?" he said with a laugh. That laugh wasn't good.

" Dad...."

" I know, I know. You are old enough to make decisions and chose the partner for having sex. Suprisingly, it's my favourite football player." he rambled.

" Dad, I am sorry but it just happened."

" It's okay. We will talk about it tomorrow. At breakfast. Or lunch. Or..I dont know. But we will talk." He said making me smile.

" Okay." I said.

He dropped the call making me laugh a little. I heard a chuckle from behind and turned back to see Damian in his naked glory. I sighed and got on bed closer to him. He rubbed his hair with a small towel getting beside me.

" You tell everything to your dad." he said chuckling.

" Not everything. That's gross." I said flinging my phone at the end of the bed. He sighed as he wrapped me in his arms.

" I miss this." he stated as he kissed my hair.

" Really? cause I thought this was the first time we got intimate with each other." I joked. He laughed and pulled me closer.

" No, your smile, your witty remarks, Your smell." he said smelling my neck.

" I smell like semen, saliva and sweat. I don't think that's romantic." I said smiling at him.

" Everything smells good on you." he said resting beside me.

" You are good for my ego." I said kissing him. He sighed.

" Don't start things you can't finish, Ethan." he warned me playfully. I smirked at him and rubbed his arms.

" Ethan..." he warned again. I laughed out loud and sighed.

" Okay, Okay. Just listen okay. So before all this happened, what were you trying to talk about?" I said.

" Yeah..."

" Okay. I am all ears." I said settling on the bed comfortably. He cleared his throat and took a deep breath.

" So after you went away that night.." he started, " I had a huge fight with my dad. I decided enough was enough. I went out just to cool my head and all of a sudden I am heading towards London in a 1am flight. I stayed there for 1 week and I don't know, things happened. Met friends who I hadn't met for years. Partied my ass out and somehow in one of the parties I met Garret Jacks."

" The music director!!!!" I shouted shocked at the name.

He laughed and nodded. " I have to tell you, I was drunk like a hobo. I wasn't even in the state to stand up but somehow I convinced him to give me chance to hear me."

" Seriously!!!! Damian, That's great." I said and hugged him. I was really happy cause at last he was gonna live his dream. He had gotten his chance and he wanted to share this news with me. He loved me so much and I felt honoured. I carressed his face and kissed him.

" I knew you had it in you." I said, " Your Madonna is gonna rock the world."

"I just signed for a five year contract with him. He says I need to stay with him for a while in Melbourne where we will discuss the songs and whatever. Its a whole lot of process. Australia and then I gotta meet the producers and sponsors. I am freaking out and I knew you would be the one who would be thrilled to hear the news most." he rambles like a little kid.

I laughed and hugged him. I was so proud of him.

" What about you?" he asked. I shrugged.

" College." I said, " New York and I am gonna start it with Jenna. We selected the same subject and maybe even start a part time job and I am gonna be so busy trying to-"

" Ethan...I wanted to say something..."

" Huh, what?"

He kissed me deeply and grabbed my face. His eyes serious and filled with adoration.

" This all happened because of you. I never opened things about my passion, you saw something in me and pushed me to go do the right thing." he said getting up and rambling nerovusly.

" Dam-.."

" Come with me." he said smiling. I just stared at him shocked at the words. Me? With him? In Australia?

" I-I-I don't... Damian, I don't know.."

" Hey, take your time. Think about it cause I want you to come with. If you come, I can handle anything there. I gave my resignation to the coach yesterday even though he wasn't happy about. I mean no one was." He said with a sad voice.

" Damian, I am happy for, really. Excited for your new career and thank you for giving me the credit but Damian, it was all you. All you! I didn't go to Garret Jacks for you, you did. I didn't coax myself to go in a 1am flight. You did." I said.

" Ethan, you were there when no one was. I am glad I met you that day in the hallways. I love you. Come with me. Let's do this together." he said catching my hands. " Please..."

" Damian..."

" I have to ask you something?"

" Dam-"

" Just please-"

" Damian!!!!"

He shut his mouth. I sighed and took a deep breath. I knew all the fibre in me was saying to go with him and help him but there was this bigger part of me in my heart that knew that that would be stupidity. Living and loving Damian would be a dream but not a dream I was looking for now.

" Damian, I am happy for you but your decision to take me with you would be foolish. What am I supposed to do there?" I asked him. He just shook his head.

" I don't know, apply for colleges there? Ethan, there are lots there and you would be staying with me. We can do this."

" No we can't."

The bitter truth.

"Ethan." he whispered shocked at my words. I shook my head.

" We broke up for a reason. It's not the age or anything. We just.... we just give up easily on each other and I don't want to go to another country knowing at some point I am gonna be helpless guy." I said, " I got in a business management college,Damian. That's all my dad can offer me and I am happy with that much. I love the fact I have to settle down by myself in New York. I am gonna be on my feet. And so I am not ready to do things that aren't meant for me, Damian. You also have to focus on things that have appeared on your doorsteps. Without anything to worry you or take your time."

"Ethan, please. I love you."

" And I you but with everything from recent events I have realised love isn't everything. At least not in our case." I whispered.

" Oh god. So this is it?! Like a real shit!" he murmured catching his forehead. " I was so... I thought."

" Damian."

" I love you, damnit!! Why are you rejecting me?!" he shouted angrily this time.

" I am sorry." I whispered moving closer to him but he moved away. I cringed.

" I thought you loved me."

" I do, Damian. I-."

" No you don't. You getting in the college? That's just a sad excuse!!" he shouted grabbing my shoulders.

" What?" I shouted back.

" Ethan I gave my heart on a plate nad you crush it like a bug! arrghhh!! What was I thinking?"

" Damian, I am not changing my decision." I said gathering my clothes.

" What.. what are you doing?" he said staring at me wearing my clothes back on.

" What do you think? After this I want you to make love to me or something? No!! Damian, I love you!! I still do and I know that's your shitty part talking right now but if I don't go,you will make it harder for me to love you." I said searching for my bag.

" No, Ethan!" he said running towards me. " I am sorry. Please dont go. Please!!"

" Damian, I am sorry but I have to go." I whispered feeling the tears coming out. He grabbed me from the back trapping me in his arms. He was sobbing. He was crying.

" I am sorry, Ethan stay the night." he whispered through the tears making me whimper. Oh, the heartache!

" Damian, I love you."

" I love you,Ethan. One last night. Please. If this is goodbye then please." he whispered pullin me towards the bed.

I sighed and leaned on his body. This was it! This was the last time I would feel his heat, his kisses, his sweet nothings again. I had to cherish it.

The night was young and we were just but passions for each other.

I started it with a kiss.

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I woke up earlier than him. I knew he was heavy sleeper if he wanted to. I smiled looking at his face illuminated by the morning rays. I wanted to touch him badly but I couldn't. I got up and wore back my clothes. I stared at him for full 20 minutes before slipping the last words he needed to hear from me.

From now it was different. Different paths, Different lives. I smiled and wiped away my tears as I gently placed the card on the night stand.

I walked out of the room carrying my bag. I noted myself to call Jenna and talk to her about the moving out thing. I swiped through my contacts and my eyes landed on Damian's number.

As I got out of the hotel, I deleted the number and hopped in a taxi.

I cried for hours.

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I didn't hear from him. Not gonna lie but I expected him too asking me why I left him there like a one night stand and all.  I arrived home that morning with a messy face and hair. I ran inside my room as soon as dad opened the door. I just stared the walls remmebering every words, every kiss he gave me.  Somehow stripping out of that feeling was just so strange. I was so.... broken.

Is that it?

Am I broken?

I just left the person I love. Of course, I am heart broken. Man, I had to explain to Jenna too.

Dad didn't ask about it as he had planned to. He just made me pasta, smiled and left the room. I cried in my pasta.

Three days after that I met Jenna and planned all the things we needed for the flight. For the first time after the whole Damian thing, I was actually excited about it.

As the day came for the departure, I realised what I did was good for both of us and prayed he would be feeling the same thing. Jenna knew the whole thing and also knew it was a sensitive matter for me.

The night before the departure, Dad and I had a beer together for the first time. He says its a welcome to the manhood ceremony. I laughed all night thinking about it. I always look at my phone in case if he called me. To say Hi or even a small congratulatory wish. I was getting paranoid.

" Everything is packed and ready for sail." I said as I packed my bags inside Jenna's new car. She had drove by my house to get me. Dad was emotional so was Cecily. They both were sniffing or hugging for long odd minute. I had to drill in their brains that I would be back for christmas and Thanksgving and New Year and what not.

" Ethan, don't forget to call me. If you need anything, just press speed dial and I will pick it up even if I am working." he said hugging me again. Sometimes I think he is a mom material. 

I nodded and grabbed the last bag in my list. I kissed Cecily all over her face and tickled her as I explained her I would come back soon.

" Take care, Dad. I will come soon. It may take a lot of time to adjust there, I will keep you informed." I said walking towards Jenna's car.

" Bye, Ethan. Don't forget about us." he screamed.

" I don't think I would be able to, dad." I grumbled. I got on  and reached for my seatbelts.

" You do know they are crying and running towards the car." Jenna said looking through the rearview mirror.

" DRIVE! DRIVE! DRIVE!" I shouted.

I looked out the window and waved them goodbye. I felt sad leaving my hometown. Leaving Dad and all but this was worth it. I silently hope and wished all the luck to Damian for his career and hoped that maybe I would be able to go and watch him in his concert someday. I knew he was angry with me that I didn't come with him but I will never regret the decision I made for myself.

I was beginning a new life. A life without stupid chaos.

A life without bullies.

A life without...... Damian. ( sad sigh)

A life without..... drama!

A chill coursed through my body and made me shudder as if I was walking naked in Alaska right now.

But I think it was because I just jinxed it.

Damn it!

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END OF BOOK ONE.

EPILOUGE COMING UP SOON.

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