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1 YEAR LATER

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Niall flicked through the channels waiting for Zayn to return from the football game he and Louis went to. Louis and Harry still hadn't spoken to Niall, because he cheated, and even though Zayn forgave him, they say they never could. Niall was lonely.

Even after a year, Niall still didn't want to have sex with Zayn. Making out was as far as it went for them. Niall felt bad because it wasn't even because of what Liam and he did, like Zayn assumed, it was because Niall still wanted Liam, and only Liam, and he knew that deep down.

There was nothing much on the tv, so he settled on some lame old comedy show and lay down on the sofa. He was almost asleep when the door open, laughs erupting as more than one person stumbled through the door.

"Niall?!" Zayn called and the blonde sat up and rubbed his eyes in response, stretching slightly.

Behind Zayn crept in Harry and Louis, Louis strangely silent and looking at the floor, but Harry was smiling. "Harry and Louis wanted to see you." Zayn said grinning at Niall.

"Speak for yourself." Louis muttered not looking up from his shoes, in which he appeared to be deeply interested in. Niall felt his heart sink.

"Well I wanted to see you, bud." Harry said, "You wanna chat in the kitchen, since that's your natural habitat." He joked, and Niall glared playfully before getting up.

Harry closed the door to the kitchen behind them, and Niall sat on the table on the centre of the room, "Sorry it's been so long, mate." Harry said, pushing himself up onto the table beside the Irish lad, "I just wasn't sure how to approach you."

"It's okay, at least you have now." Niall answered, playing with his fingers anxiously.

"So how's it been, living with Zayn and all." Harry said, nudging Niall to try and make him smile. Niall let a stiff smile crawl on his features for a moment,

"It's not as great as you think Haz." Niall replied, turning to look at his friend. Only now had he noticed how long Harry's hair was. He probably hadn't had it cut since he last saw him. His green eyes and always visible dimples were the same as ever, but he looked as though he'd physically aged a lot since they last spoke. He was taller to, as though he'd had a growth spurt or something.

"What do you mean Ni?" Harry asked, face furrowing into confusion.

"We've barely even kissed, and I don't miss it at all Harry. I don't think I love him anymore."

"You still have feelings for that guy? Luke was it?"

Niall blushed and chuckled somewhat, "Liam."

"That's the one. You have feelings for him?" Harry pushed, gently, he didn't want to alarm the lad. Niall shrugged in response. "I'll take that as a yes." The blue eyed boy sighed and nodded defeatedly. "Why are you still with Z then?"

Niall thought for a moment. Harry had been his friend since forever, but he's Zayn's friend too, "Zayn's been- weird." Harry said nothing, waiting for Niall to continue. "He, I told him maybe it wasn't the right time to move in with him, and he, he went all physco and bit my neck. Not like a love bite or anything. It was awful. He keeps getting mad when I tell him I'm not ready to sleep with him again. He thinks something happened between me and Liam that I'm not saying. But there isn't I swear on it Harry! I'm scared if I tell him I don't love him, he'll hurt me really bad!"

Harry reflected for a moment, processing the information in his calm, wise mind. "I think you have to tell him Niall. If he hurts you, call me. Ni, the only way out is you telling him. I'm sorry, there is no easy way out of it."

"I know, if there was, I would have taken it Haz. I know you're right, I'm just, scared."

"I know. I can't imagine what it would feel like to be in your situation. He was kind enough to forgive you for cheating, and it's like you're throwing it right back in his face."

"Thanks Harry. Way to make me feel better." Niall laughed half heartedly as Harry hurriedly apologised. "It's okay, it's true."

"It's your call Ni. I won't force you. But, you'll always have me, yeah?" Harry said hopefully.

Niall laughed, "Of course. Thank you Haz."

"My pleasure!" Harry replied and pulled Niall into his side, hugging him for a few moments.

A knock sounded on the kitchen door and Niall sat up as Zayn walked in. "Everything okay?" He asked.

"Yeah fine." Harry said, copying Niall slipping off of the table.

"Louis wants to leave so," Zayn trailed off awkwardly.

"Oh, okay, Text me, yeah Ni? My number is still the same." Harry said quickly hugging Niall, whispering in his ear, "I'll try to talk some sense into Loubear, okay?" Niall nodded.

"Thank Haz." He called as Harry left the room.

"See you Ni!" He yelled in response before the front door opened then slammed shut.

"Hey Ni." Zayn said, walking towards the blonde, wrapping his arms around the small boy's neck.

"Hi." Niall replied relaxing into the cuddle. He liked this Zayn.

He felt the dark haired lad press quick kisses to his jaw, and then his lips. And Niall kissed back slowly. Zayn began to heat up the kiss and Niall tried to shift away, but he was squished between Zayn and the table.

"Zayn." Niall mumbled, pushing at his chest but Zayn only ignored him and went on, "Stop." Again, Zayn ignored him and Niall got annoyed. With all his strength, he shoved Zayn away. "I SAID STOP ZAYN!"

Said boy's face turned to one of hurt and confusion, "Why? I was fun."

Niall shook his head, "No, Zayn don't you get it? It may be fun for you, but it's not fun for me. I don't love you anymore Zayn, why can't you see that?!" Niall yelled, ignoring Zayn's expression.

"C'mon Ni, you don't mean that."

"I DO ZAYN! I do mean it. Why can't you just accept it, I. Don't. Love. You!" With that Niall fled from the kitchen, speeding upstairs and grabbing his suitcase from the wardrobe, ripping his clothes from the coat hangers and throwing them messily into the case.

He suddenly heard Zayn stomp into the room, "What are you doing?"

"Baking a cake." Niall sassed back sarcastically.

"No Niall, stop. You can't leave me!"

Niall stood from the case, having zipped it up and looked Zayn challengingly in the eyes, "Watch me."

Taking the blonde by surprise, Zayn grabbed his wrists amd shoved him violently up against the wall, "You. Aren't. Leaving. Me." Zayn growled, digging his nails hard and carelessly into his boyfriend's wrists. Niall whimpered slightly in pain, "You hear?"

Niall nodded and blinked, hurriedly, the tears from his eyes.

"Good." Zayn replied, dropping Niall's wrists and walking from the room. Niall stood against the wall, staring emotionlessly down at his wrists which were were red, small beads of blood joining in little arch shapes on his wrists while other arches from Zayn's nail's were white.

He blinked the tears from his eyes and  stumbled to the bathroom, three words playing repeatedly in his mind

Help me Liam.

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Sooooo sorry it's been a month since I updated. I don't have much of an excuse besides the fact that I went back to school last month and I have had soooooo much homework. Also, like all of you guys, I really really miss niam in this story. Of course, I have a tumblr acc called Niam-fanfiction where there are short stories and one shots that aren't on wattpad, so if you miss niam, u can read them. I am also in the process of writing a niam one shot set in victorian times and I am really excited about that! Anyway, O will try my best to update asap and there will be a tad bit of niam in the next chapter :)

Love you all so much as always, so if you read this, smile bc I love you x

Thanks for reading this and I'm happy ur still reading this.

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