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How? Why? Why me? 

These were the questions running through my mind.

Why do I always have to get the short end of the stick all my life. I don't ask for much but just once in my life.

I would love to come first not literallybut just let things go my way for once,okay okay,

maybe I'm being a little sarcastic with my last statement. 

But when you've been dealt blows so much in life.

You feel Like something,  Somewhere has got to give

Why does this always happen to me!

Feeling the tears burn down my face. 

I jerk my sleeve over my eyes.

I  continue speeding down the highway

I had to get away. 

I had to get away from him, 

I have been nothing but the perfect lover and stillhe does this?

After all we've been through! 

It happened the first time and he said that she was just a friend but, this time. I caught him and on our fifth year Anniversary, how ironic right?

I push down on the accelerator.

Swerving pass some cars.

Paying no mind to the constant ringing eminating from my Iphone 5s.

I throw it on the backseat of my BMW.

Yes that's how we are now.

Me a stay at home Dad and him bringinghome the Money. Him telling me that he should take care of me so that i would'nt have to Work a day in my life?

Huh story of my life. 

I have everything that I want

But not what I need the most

Which happens to Be My Husband August.

It's Not he's Real name.

But i Guess i've Gotten so used to everyone calling him that so it kind of caught on with me.

He is the Guy I've been with for a good 8years now.

We've been together for a good three years before he cheated

Impregnated some Female.

And that's the story of how i became  a daddy two years ago

The Sad part is that mother died while giving birth.

To A Beautiful little Boy we Decided to Name, Adam Davontaye Alsina. 

I was emotionally not ready to bare the burden of raising a child but with August Career starting i had no choice but to take the Daddy Role.

We may be married but that was infont of a Judge

Thats Just One of the many joys of dating a Celebrity. I hope you caught onto the sarcasm there.

I'm what you would consider.

The Man Behind the Man! 

I'm there but not really?

I guess it comes with the territory.

A life of pain and heartbreak.

I jerk out of my thoughts.

I hear honking from cars as I pass.

I check in the rear mirrior.

I see a fimiliar Ferrari speeding up to my speed.

That had to be him.

My Husband August!

I turn down an exit. Speeding towards a one way street.

I had to get away from him,

Can't stand to look at this man right now.

I don't ask for much only his love

But i guess even that's not enough.

Not paying attention to the road.

I swerve seeing a homeless man step into the street.

I instantly step on the break and head straight into an oncoming car.

You how people say your life flashes before your eyes when you know you about to die?

Well its true. It's like a million slides happening in your brain at once. Some are happy and some sad. Makes you wonder if you lived your life to the fullest.

I guess I should take you back.

Eight years ago.

When I was still a Junior in High school.

When and Where it All started.

So here's my Story....

I live the life of the

'Man Behind The Man'

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