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Kizumi had a hold of my shirt as his lips pressed against mine. At first, I was frozen. It was sudden and completely unexpected. However, my body reacted despite the fact that my mind was confused by the situation.

My own hands lifted and grabbed his shirt as well as I kissed him back. It felt so nice...he kissed me with passion, but gently as well. I couldn't help but let him wrap his arms around me as I kissed him back with more force than I had at first.

Crap... I thought as we pulled away momentarily to breathe. Kizumi and I were looking each other in the eyes now, and I felt my cheeks flare. Then, just like before, he pulled me along with him. This time, however, I was not merely thrown onto a surface. I was pushed down with some force onto his bed, and he was over me again.

I felt dizzy as we continued to kiss. It was hot in here, and I felt so...embarrassed. It was so...weird...but I couldn't help reacting to the constant kissing I was receiving. His hands, which had been placed on the bed a moment ago, moved to my shirt.

No...I have to stop this. I thought as I clenched his shirt in my fists. I couldn't though. His hands went under my shirt, and I bit my lip to avoid making any sound when he pulled away again. His hands ran over me, making me shudder slightly. Kizumi leaned down again, and removed his hands from my torso. As we kissed again, I felt his fingers brush along the top of my jeans, and I panicked.

"K-Kizumi." I had pulled away, and was stopping his hand from going any further. "...we can't do that." My voice sounded shaky. I couldn't help it though. My breathing was uneven and I was disoriented at the moment.

"Why?" He asked. He sounded much more in control than I did. The whole time I thought he was the one who wasn't in control of his emotions, and that he'd be the one who would find something like this difficult. Instead, I was the one who was completely lost.

"Well...I mean...I..." I stuttered over my words pathetically and covered my eyes with my free hand. I couldn't believe what was even happening right now. It went from a Rubik's Cube to this in such an unbelievably short moment.

"Well?" Kizumi waited. I peeked at him and saw that his expression was starting to turn to irritation again. It kind of hit me that this was probably hard for him to do. It would be awkward if he had only kissed me and left it at that...but I couldn't even begin to imagine doing anything else.

"I don't...know..." I was at a loss for words. Kizumi pulled his arm out of my grip and leaned closer to my face and said,

"I promise I won't do anything like that." His words sounded truthful. I knew exactly what he was talking about. Sex.

I thought my face might melt if I had blushed any harder than I was right now. What am I doing? I thought to myself as he leaned in and kissed me again. Would anything else not be just as bad? Was this really okay with me?

As Kizumi kissed me, my fingers started knotting in his hair. It was like I couldn't control my own body in this kind of situation. Kizumi's hands felt so good on my body, and I reacted to every touch in spite of what my conscience was saying. I'm not even sure my conscience knew what was right or wrong in this situation...

Eventually, I gave in to Kizumi's touch. I didn't want to argue with myself anymore, and his hands felt too nice to even pay attention to my thoughts anymore.

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