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Chapter 10

(Sterl’s POV)

                Do you ever know that feeling when your mom looks at you accusingly and you don’t know if she’s supportive of you or not? And you get antsy and get paranoid of what she will say? That’s how I feel now.

                I sit side by side with Patrick while Karen sits across us. Vince is on the kitchen, trying hard not to laugh at us but fails miserably, I can clearly hear his stifled laugh and I can also make out some of those stifled laughs as K’s own laugh. He’ll be sorry later. My real problem now is Karen. She knows that I’m gay, but when she asks if I have someone in my life now, I would deny it.

                “So…” She starts. “How long is this going on behind my back?”

                “About a couple of months or more now, ma’am.” Patrick replies formally.

                Karen gasps and looks at me accusingly.

                “And you don’t plan on telling me this?!”

                I look at her guiltily and apologized. I was planning on telling her, but with the situation we are in, it was nearly impossible. And she’s busy with her work. She sighs heavily before running her fingers in her auburn hair.

                “And the fact that you’re dating a wolf.” She states. Patrick and I shot our heads in unison. Vince chokes on to something and coughs hardly, and I can hear K patting Vince’s back.

                “Tell me, Patrick, is Sterl your mate?” She asks.

                “I would know who my mate is on my birthday.”  Patrick replies.

                “Then tell me, what will happen to sterl when you find ---“ I cut her off by asking how she knew. I don’t want to hear what Patrick has to say, and I could also sense that Patrick is in deep thought about Karen’s question. I mentally groan, now he won’t stop thinking about it.

                Karen looks at me knowingly and thankfully, she didn’t push it. I know she knows that I’m avoiding those topics of mate. Instead, she answered my question of how she knew.

                “Jake and I are close friends. We’re childhood friends actually, I knew because of him. That was one night when he brought me to that party, it was his birthday party. It was funny remembering that night, because, he’s 16 years old and still they held a party for him. The party was held outside of his house, at your pack backyard, then, we were ambushed by rogues. He protected me from those rogues. That’s how I knew.” She explains.

                I nod and look at her. “So, are you fine with me and him?” I ask while pointing at Patrick and back at me. She laughs and stands up and hugs us both.

                “As long as this wolf won’t hurt you, I am.” She says. I laugh and mentally answer her that I can take care of myself.

                “So, for the sex talk…” She says. I groan loudly and so did Patrick. “Use condoms, no bareback – you don’t want to spill his seeds inside your butt. No blowing of his loads inside your mouth – you may get STD’s through that…”

                Surprisingly, we survived the ‘sex talk’ as Karen say. And it was midnight when she decided it was enough. But, she did promise us that she will continue that talk next time, so I promised her that I won’t bring Patrick in this house anymore.

                I rub my eyes as I woke up. I still shiver whenever I remember the talk last night. Could that get any worse?

                School’s back and whether I admit it or not, I’m excited. I can’t wait to see my friends, also, Elisa. She told me that she’ll be going to this school too. I saw her in the entrance gate, standing awkwardly as the other students look at her weirdly; it was like they saw a ghost. I walk up to her and she visibly relaxed as she saw me. She smiles shyly at me and I grin back.

                “Do you have your schedule already?” I ask.

                “No, not yet. It feels a bit awkward with all of them looking at me like that.”  She replies while looking anxiously around her. I laugh and pulled her to the office. Even the lady in that office looks at her weirdly, but, she managed to smile and make a conversation to Elisa. Throughout the day, Patrick was not there, I was looking forward on meeting them both. Elisa has most of my subjects, so we were together all day. What was even weird, was when I introduce Elisa to Vanessa and Vile. They would always share a look and smile awkwardly at Elisa.

                Vanessa pulled me to a corner, while, Vile talks to Elisa who is may I add; very obvious of how uncomfortable he is.

                “Why are you so… I don’t know – very weird around Elisa?” I ask. Vanessa just keeps on biting her lips while looking nervous. I don’t know why they act like that, but it makes me nervous. VERY NERVOUS.

                “I don’t know too. But, Elisa happens to have the same face with Alyssa.” Vanessa replies with a shaky laugh. I raise a brow at her.

                “So? I didn’t know that. Maybe they’re twins.” I say while smiling at Elisa as she looks at me worriedly.

                “I’m not worried with that. I’m worried with ---“ Vanessa stops in the middle of her sentence and looks behind me.

                I look back and was immediately kissed by Patrick. I smile and kiss him back.

                “Sorry for not being here today.” He starts. “Marcus extended my training.” He whispered to me. I laugh and we hold hands. I remembered Elisa and I eagerly pulled Patrick to our table. I felt him tense under my grasp but I ignored it and introduce them both. Elisa was turning crimson while Patrick stared at her curiously.

                “Alyssa?” Patrick says out of nowhere.

                “N-no, I’m Elisa” She replies with a stutter. Something bothered me with the look Patrick is giving to Elisa, it was a longing look. A look that says ‘I miss you’, something more like that. I cleared my throat to ease the tension between the two. Why do I get the feeling that the two of them knows each other?

                I look back at the two of them. Then, I remembered what Patrick called her, what Vanessa told me, and how the school reacted to Elisa. I connected the dots and it made sense.

                Alyssa died, the day I came here. Elisa is her twin, which in result, getting a weird look from the students. And Elisa is a carbon copy of whom Patrick dearly loved before me, and that made me doubt things. Does Patrick really love me? Or am I just a rebound just to forget the person he loved dearly?

                The two of them stared at each other for so long. After a few more minutes, Patrick reaches up to her and pulled her in a hug. I was crushed as I saw that, that was the answer to my question. I look down to hide my teary eyes and walk away, Vanessa reached up to me but Vile stopped her. I walk away, that even Patrick didn’t notice. Once I made a good distance from them, I sobbed as I ran to the bathroom and inside the stall. I cried their silently.

                Once the bell rings for my first subject in the afternoon, I was calmed already. But, still I was broken. I entered the room a few minutes late, the teacher was ready to scold me but kept her mouth shut as she saw me. I smiled sadly to her and apologized for being late. She nod and told me to sit down. I didn’t sit beside Patrick, not just because I don’t want to, but also because, Elisa is sitting beside him. It hurts me more to see them and I was ready to cry a bucket whenever I glance at them. I can feel Patrick stare at me the whole time, but I ignored it. After our lessons, I immediately got out of our room and headed to the gate instead of going to my next class. Patrick didn’t follow me throughout the time, and I was half thankful, half disappointed. But, what else can I do?

                If he does love me, he would feel my pain by what he is doing now.

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Dear Readers,

            I'm so happy that you supported me with this story and I'm planning to end it soon, maybe 3/4 more chapters left. DO YOU WANT A SEQUEL TO THIS? haha! JUST TELL ME IF YOU DO cause I'll make one if you want me too. a'right? tell me if you're interested of the sequel to this book.

LOVELOTS sincerely,

bittersalt :*

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