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I had to re-retype this so you all better love me.

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Vic stands up and grabs my hand pulling me up with him. He starts leading me out of the room and I look at the serious expression on his face. It's so weird not seeing him smile. It's bizarre even. His grip on my hand gets tighter and tighter as we walk through the big house. As we walk closer and closer to a particular room, I start hearing the beeping noise that I hear every time in in Vic's room. But as we're getting closer to the room, it's getting louder. We stop outside the room and Vic turns to me seeming anxious.

"I want you to meet someone." He whispers and I nod.

He opens the door and we walk in. There's a boy in a bed an he looks around the same age as me. He looks to be sleeping but by the heart-rate monitor that's beeping steadily and the numerous tubes coming out of him, I can tell that he's not sleeping at all. Vic leads me over to a sofa that's sitting next to the bed before he sits down on it, pulling me down on his lap. He wraps his arms around my waist and I can feel his heart beating heavily and rapidly against me. He rests chin head on my shoulder and sighs deeply.

"Kellin, this is my brother Mike." He says and my eyes go wide.

"Your brother? You never told me you had a brother." I say a little dazed.

"I haven't told you a lot of things." He repeats his statement from earlier.

"What happened?" I whisper as Bic squeezes my hand tightly.

"Did you mean what you said earlier? About never leaving me and being here every step of the way?" He asks avoiding my question.

"Of course I did. Vic, you can tell me what happened, I'm not going to judge you and I'm definitely not going to leave you." I say bringing his hand to my lips and placing a light kiss on it.

He sighs and swallows hard. There's a silence as I wait patiently for him to begin talking.

"When Mike and I were young, we were really close–like brothers should be. I was always there to defend him if anyone messed with him—like an older brother should. When I hit high school, I mixed in with the wrong crowd; Josh, Jeremy and Oli. They were the kind of people who beat up the dorky kids and shoved people in lockers. They'd bully the nicest kids for the fun of it. I found myself slowly becoming one of them. I'd tip lunch trays on innocent people and tell people to go kill themselves. I was a horrible excuse for a human being. I didn't really think much of it until Mike started school. He was bullied a lot in elementary school and middle school, yet I still can't figure out why. He was the nicest person I've ever known. But the extent of the previous bullying didn't even come close to what he copped in high school. One day, Oli and Josh were beating him and I just watched. I didn't step in for a second. I was too scared of what they'd think of me. I was so stupid. When I got home, I apologized to Mike and I really meant it. I felt terrible. He told me it was okay and that he understood but I knew it wasn't okay; neither was he." He stops and I shift around on his lap so I can see his face.

His face is wet with tears yet more just fall. I kiss his cheek and run my fingers though his hair gently.

"Take your time." I whisper and he nods wiping the tears from his face. He then takes a deep breath before he starts talking again.

"That ended up happening all the time. Mike would get beat up and I'd do nothing. Then like the coward I am, I'd apologize. For a long time, Mike said it was fine but then I noticed him start to get distant from everyone. He'd spend a lot of time in his room and he'd rarely eat. I saw him getting skinnier and skinnier and it broke my heart. I'd try to get him to talk to me but he ignored me or brushed me off. Then after a while, I walked into his room to check on him and I found him with a blade to his arm. The most heartbreaking thing was that his arms weren't only covered in cuts but also scars. He had been hiding it from everyone for a while. I was so concerned at this point. I stormed over to him and ripped the blade out if his hand. We both just stared at each other. No one talked for what felt like forever. Mike was just looking at me blankly while I was crying. Then something inside of him snapped. It was like someone flicked a switch. He just raged. He was so angry. He pushes me out if his room and he was yelling at me. He was screaming about how it was all m-my fault. That I b-broke him. Then he told me he h-hated me and slammed the door shut." Vic has to stop speaking because he's hyperventilating so much.

I hug him tightly and rub his back as he cries and chokes into my neck.

"Vic, it's alright." I whisper soothingly. "Calm down, baby."

It's a while of me shushing him and soothing him until he finally stops crying. When I pull away, he a staring at Mike with regret and sorrow.

"You don't have to continue." I tell him but he shakes his head.

"I need to." He whispers and I nod in understanding.

He squeezes my hand tightly and I squeeze back. He takes a breath and turns back to me before he continues.

"I found him the next morning. He had swallowed a lot of medication, which led him here; in a coma that no one knows if he's going to wake up from. I naturally told my parents that it was my fault that Mike had tried to kill himself. Then I explained why and my dad was furious. Mike was their baby; their pride and joy. And it was my fault thy he did this. My mom stopped talking to me and my dad started beating me. It was okay though because I know I deserved every second of it."

I know I shouldn't but I cut him off.

"Did Mike deserve to get hurt?" I ask and he shakes his head. "Do I deserve to get hurt?"

He shakes his head again and looks at me confused.

"You don't deserve to get hurt Vic; no one does. No matter what our mistakes are and what the cause and affect of them are. No one deserves to get treated like they're nothing." I explain and he gives me a small grateful nod.

"Anyway, after all that stuff happened, I didn't want anyone to get hurt because of me anymore so I told Jeremy, Oli and Josh that they needed to stop it. They didn't like that and we fought like children until Josh crossed a line when he said that Mike should've died because that's what he deserves. As soon as he said that, I couldn't stop myself. I beat the shit out of him an even though he said those things, like you said, no one deserves to get hurt. I still horrible for doing it. Josh moved state, Jeremy and Oli moved school and I got expelled. I was homeschooled for a bit until I came to Clairemont." Vic explains. "I didn't man for Mike to get hurt in any of this. I was so stupid and naïve. I didn't think of what affect my decisions would have on him."

I cup his face and gently kiss his lips.

"Thank you for explaining everything to me." I whisper. "I don't think any less of you for what you've done in the past. It was very brave of you for opening up to me like that."

"I feel so much better doing so. Thank you or listening and not judging." He whispers back and I smile hugging him tightly.

We just hold each other silently. Vic's heartbeat has slowed and settled now. He seems calm which relieves me. I hate seeing him so upset, it breaks my heart.

"You know," Vic begins quietly as he pulls away from the hug. "this is the whole reason why j hate that you hurt yourself and why I constantly make sure you eat. I've already lost one person I love; I don't want to lose another."

My eyes go wide as his words run through my head.

"Y-you love me?" I squeak out.

He smiles gently at me and nods before kissing the tip of my nose.

"More than anything. I love you so much Kell." He murmurs and I connect my lips to his in a subtle sweet kiss.

When we pull away, I gently cup his face again and run my thumb under his eye.

"I love you too." I whisper an his eyes well with tears again before he starts crying.

I hold him close to me as he cries into my neck. I shush him gently as he tightens his grip around me.

"You okay?" I ask him as he starts settling down a bit.

He pulls away and smiles softly, his glassy eyes twinkling a little as he does so.

"Yeah, just tonight has been so hectic, yet everything has fallen into place. Hearing you say that you love me back is more than I could ever ask for." He explains with that beautiful smile that I've been waiting all night to see.

"Things are going to be a lot better for you now, Vic." I promise and he kisses my head.

I think you're right." He murmurs before kissing my cheek. "I'm tired. Do you want to go to bed?"

"Definitely." I sigh relieved.

He smiles and gently pushes me off if him before he stands up himself. He goes over to his brother and leans down before kissing his forehead.

"Get well soon Mimey." He whispers before walking back over to me and taking my hand.

We leave the room and go back to Vic's. He closes the door behind us and leads me over to the huge bed. He pulls the covers back and gets in before I do the same. He then pulls the duvet over us and wraps his arms around me whilst hooking his leg around mine.

"I like sleeping next to you. It makes me feel less alone." He murmurs and I kiss his nose.

He lets out a tired yawn and I smile at his cuteness before kissing along his jaw.

"I love you Vic. Goodnight." I murmur.

"I love you too Darling." He whispers before placing a small kiss on my forehead then closing his eyes.

I wait until I hear the comforting sound of my boyfriend's breathing even out, indicating that he's fallen asleep before I close my eyes too and falls asleep almost instantly.

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I hope you all enjoyed that and don't forget how beautiful you are, inside and out.

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