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Vic's POV

"Vic, you and I both know he was the best thing that ever happened to you." Mike whines. "You can't let him go that easy."

"I'm not letting him go. He left." I sigh, just about having enough of it.

Mike hasn't shut up about Kellin ever since he left and frankly, I just want to forget about him. I'm not angry anymore. I've cooled down. I'm just upset and I miss him. I miss him even more knowing that he's never coming back. I'm never going to see him again. We're never going to exchange 'I love you's. He's never going to be in my arms ever again. He's not mine anymore and I have to live with that. Mike's right when he says that Kellin is the best thing that happened to me. But he's also the worst. If I never loved him then I would have never lost him. I wish I never met him. I wish I just had minded my own business. I wish I had listened when he told me to leave him alone. I wish I could forget him; but I can't.

"He gave me this before he left. Just in case you changed your mind." Mike murmurs, holding out something that I never thought I'd see again; my necklace.

My stomach churns at the sight of it.

"I don't want it." I mumble looking away from it.

Mike grabs my hand and places it in my open palm before closing my hand around it.

"You may not want it but you need it Vic. You need it now more than anything." He sighs.

I look out of the car window, up at the courthouse that people are piling into. I spot my dad who's entering the building in handcuffs as the police are escorting him in. Mike's right, I do need it now, but I need Kellin more. And it's my fault he's not here.

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I leave the room, my entire body shaking. I don't know why I'm shaking. Maybe from shock. I don't know. It's over. The case, the trial, the sentencing, everything; it's all over. Mike grabs my shoulder and leads me out of the building to get some air.

"It's over Vic. He's gone. Out of our lives. You don't have to worry about him anymore." Mike says in a comforting tone and I nod looking down. "You alright?"

I throw on one of my famous smiles and nod looking up at him.

"He sure was shocked to see you." I laugh and Mike shakes his head.

"I can see right through that laugh and that smile. Don't lie to me, are you okay? It's okay to not be okay." Mike says softly.

I can't push back tears any longer so I just let them go and Mike pulls me into a hug.

"I miss him Mike. I miss Kellin." I sob and Mike rubs my back.

"I know, buddy, I know." He whispers.

"I love him. I want him back. B-but he left. And now h-he probably hates me." I sob clutching onto the back of his shirt whilst I soak the front of it with tears.

"Hey, I don't think Kellin could ever hate you. I'm sure he misses you as much as you miss him. I don't doubt that you'll find your way back to each other again." Mike says comfortingly but I don't believe it. I shouldn't because if I get my hopes up they're only going to be crushed. Kellin's not coming back. I made sure of that when he left, and now it's my biggest regret.

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"Are you sure you want to do this?" Mike asks for the thousandth time. At first I thought that he was just going to miss me but like everything else, this is about Kellin.

It's been a month since Kellin left. I spent Christmas and New Year's with Mike. I planned to spend them with Kellin once up on a time but he's not here. I haven't heard a word from him. For a while, I kept checking my phone, hoping that he'd call or text me but he never did. But I never had the guts to call or text him either. I've stopped checking now. I've stopped waiting around for him. I'm moving on with my life but Mike's not making it easy.

"What if he stops by whilst you're gone?" Mike asks as I throw a few more things into my suitcase.

"Then do me a favor and tell him that I'm gone." I sigh before zipping up my suitcase.

There's a long silence before Mike looks up at me sadly.

"You've been so sad." He whispers and I sit down next to him.

"I'm sorry." I apologize but he shakes his head.

"Don't apologize to me. It's not me that you've been neglecting. How am I supposed to trust you to go off to college? You barely look after yourself. You forget to eat. You don't sleep at all. I'm worried that you're not going to come back." Mike whines sounding worried. "You can pretend you're over him all you want Vic but you and I both know that's a load bullshit."

"I need to leave Mike. I need to get away for a little while. I'm not looking after myself because I'm too focused on him. I need something to take my mind off of him and I was planning on going to college anyway. I was just going to talk to‒" I pause not wanting to say his name. "to him about it before I decided on it."

He nods and wraps his arm around me.

"I'm going to miss you." He mumbles and I smile lightly.

"I'm going to miss you too Mikey. You'll have Mark. Tony and Jaime will be here too. Besides, I'll be back before you know it." I explain and he nods with a smile.

"Okay." He whispers. "You got everything?"

I nod and he shakes his head before getting up.

"I'll be right back." He says and I nod confused.

He soon comes back into the room holding a...present? Wait, two presents. One's big and the other is pretty small. The small one is wrapped in Christmas wrapping paper and the bigger one is in birthday wrapping paper.

"Kellin gave these to me before he left. He told me to give them to you when you're ready and I think you're as ready as you'll ever be." He explains and my heart strains.

Mike sits back down on the bed and passes me the small gift. He gives me a reassuring nod and I take a deep breath before opening it. A piece of paper with writing falls out so I pick it up and read it.

'Merry Christmas Baby, I know how you always lose yours. Make sure you don't lose these ones.

Kells <3

P.S. I slipped you one of mine. I thought it'd look better on you.'

I look down into the wrapping paper to see three brand new beanies and one of Kellin's old ones. He did get me beanies. He knows me too well. I can't help but to tear up a little. I pick up his old beanie; it's maroon and it's also the same one he wore the day we performed our song at school. I hold it up to my nose, breathing in his scent that still covers it. He always smelt so good. I must look insane but I don't care. This is just opening old wounds, reminding me that I still miss him so fucking much.

I sit the beanies aside and blink away my tears before looking to Mike. He passes me the other present and I take another deep breath before tearing the wrapping paper off. I gasp when I see that it's a brand new acoustic guitar. There's a note stuck to it so I tear it off and read it.

'Happy birthday Vic. I know I can't be there with you to celebrate but I'll make it up to you. I bought this because it reminded me of the time you played at school. You should play more. I love hearing you play. Don't tell Jesse but you're so much better than him ;)

I love you so much and I'll see you when I get home.

Love Kells <3'

"He's so sweet." I snivel, wiping my eyes.

Mike pulls me into a hug and I hug him back tightly.

"You'll see each other again. I promise. Love does that." Mike smiles. "It brought me back to you. It's going to bring you and Kellin together."

I smile and nod. I'll get back with Kellin. I have to. I can't live without him.

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