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Chapter 35

Daniel's P.O.V

'I want to talk to you', Angelo said. Those words made my heart pumped blood to my entire nervous system in a not so good way. And damn, he sounded like he was crying. I messed up big time and I know it.

It wasn't anyone's fault but me. I hid the situation to Angelo wherein I promised that whatever the problem that comes in to our life, we will share it together and solve it together. Yet, I broken that promise.

I walked out of the lecture hall and rushed in to the rooftop of block A. There wasn't any special thing at the rooftop. The place was just quiet and people don't usually come up to that place. It was a perfect place to take a nap or to talk about serious matters.

I took the lift (elevator for you, Americans) to get into the top floor and went straight to open the door. As soon as I opened the door, the cold breeze hit my face like something was telling me to prepare myself. The winter has started and I don't want to spend my cold night alone.

'I will fix this.' I thought, while walking to find Angelo.

He was sitting on the floor, Indian style. As soon as I saw him, I was mesmerized by how glorious he was. I can't help but to question myself 'how lucky am I to have him in my life.' He was looking at his phone and he didn't sense me approaching.

"Ahem." I fake coughed to get his attention.

He looked at me with his puffy red eyes. I could see the hurt reflecting his eyes, and it melted my confidence right away. All I wanted to do is embrace him and protect him and comfort him. Damn, I missed him so much. He has become my strength and my soul and I couldn't live without seeing him or touching him every single day.

I could tell that the feeling is mutual as he ran to me. I cloak him with my arms and savor the moment of heat radiating from the two of us. It was the best heat to share with your love one. You know that your soul is the perfect match for each other by just that certain feeling.

Butterflies were flying in my stomach as I slowly lift him up, as if trying to become as one.

"I missed you. And I'm sorry" I whispered and buried my face on his neck.

He wasn't talking, neither spoke a single word to me. He was just crying and it wasn't just a cry. It was a cry of hurt and... it feels like a cry that something was about to end.

I put him down so he can stand up on his feet. "Hey my angel, what's wrong? Please tell me?" My eyes started to build up tears from the strange feeling in my heart.

Angelo was looking down at the floor, while his tears are falling freely on the ground. His shoulder was shaking from crying. I was really hurt seeing him broken. It reminded me when Nathan passed away.

I cursed myself when I realized that I broke another promise yet again. I promised to Nathan that Angelo will never be broken anymore. But here there he was, broken and hurt and I didn't even know what I was supposed to do.

I embraced him once again and guided him to sit on the corner. The cold breeze are hitting our skin but I could care less about it.

We were sitting in silence for 10 minutes when he calmed down. He was in between my legs as my arms were wrapped around his tiny body. His back was on my chest and I could feel his heat cursing through my body.

After the deafening silence, Angelo spoke up with his groggy voice. "You need to give Chloe a chance to build a family with you and Jared." At first, it didn't make sense. I barely notice Chloe's name. I was focused on his breathing and how he feels right in my arms.

Then after a minute of silence, realization hit me. "What?" I asked. My voice was a mixed of surprised and annoyance. "Why would I build a family with Chloe? What are you saying?"

He sighed and turned to face me. He cupped my cheeks with his soft and cold hands. "Listen to me." He looked me straight into the eyes. "Let's think about Jared. He needs a mother figure and he needs his mother. Chloe has all the rights to be with him. Jared has the rights to have a proper family. And I couldn't give that to him."

I was shocked about what I was hearing. I stood up and paced back and forth while massaging my temples. "No." I said firmly. "Chloe has abandoned all her rights to Jared as soon as she decided to disown him. As soon as she walked out of the hospital without even looking at Jared."

I stopped in front of him. "You are my family. Jared is our son. We are family."

Angelo stood up. "You have to realize that not all people agree to this kind of relationship. They might take away Jared from you. Or Chloe can take legal action about it and gain Jared's custody by herself alone. I don't want it to happen"

"Fuck people! Fuck Chloe! To me, we are perfect and I would never let it happen."

"Stop being selfish!" he snapped. I was shocked. He never snapped at me before. "I'm sorry." He whispered when he saw my shocked face. "All I'm saying is that let's not think about ourselves. Let's think about Jared's best interest. And he needs his mother."

I walked closely to him and held his hands with mine. "But I love you. I need you. We need you." I said and kissed his hands.

"And I to you." He replied. I looked at him in the eyes and waited for the expected word- 'but'.

"But-" And there, he said it. The one word that can make everything change. "...we have to do it for Jared's sake."

"We are happy together. Aren't we? Why does it all have to change? I don't want Chloe. I want you. Please." I was thinking to kneel down in front of him if I must, just to change his mind.

"We are more than happy. Yes." He looked down on the floor while holding my hands. "I never been so happy until you and Jared came into my life. I love you. I love Jared. And that's why we have to do this."

'We have to do this.' He has been saying it several times. Then it clicked on me. Realization hit me.

With worried eyes and a heart that was beating faster than the bullet train, I asked him. "Are you breaking up with me?"

The pain in my chest started to drown my emotions while I was praying that it everything that was happening was all nothing but a big joke.

Angelo looked at me straight in the eyes for a second and then he looked away. "Yes." He whispered.

I froze on my spot as he kept on avoiding to look at me. "Look at me in the eyes and tell it to me again." I cupped his face with my hands and diverted it towards me. "If you'll say yes, I'll walk out of here now and will try to forget you." My tears started to fall freely from my eyes. The pain and fear that was aching in my chest and that I was trying to hide had finally overflowed.

Angelo looked at me, emotionless as he removed my hands on his face gently. "I'm sorry Daniel. Perhaps we are meant to meet each other, but we are not meant to stay together." He looked down once again.

"Angelo, please look at me." I insisted.

"Yes, I'm breaking up with you." He said it directly. No trace of regret in his voice. Nothing.

I slowly walked away from him until I reached the door. "You just broke my heart. I don't know why you are doing this. All I know is that we are happy together and you are my family. We are a family. I don't understand." With that final remark, I walked out of the door and ran to the lift.

I couldn't stop myself from crying. I punched the lift's door and put a dent on it. I didn't care. I didn't care about anything at all.

People were looking at me when I walked out from the building. They were throwing me weird looks but I couldn't care about them. All I wanted to do is walked away from the nightmare that I just been. In fact, I was waiting for someone to shout 'It's a prank!'. I was waiting for a TV show host or even Alex to popped out from nowhere and tell me that it was just a prank. Although it wasn't a good thing to joke about, I would be alright with it as soon as it was not real.

But nothing happened. No TV show host. No Alex. Nothing at all but my broken heart.

I ran straight to the parking lot to get into my car. I drove off to No Limits to drown the pain away with the help of alcohol. They said it is effective to numb the pain away.

I never been broken like this before. I didn't understand. How could he just throw away all the moments we've shared together?

As soon I got in to the pub, I ordered a glass of rum right away. Max, the pub manager, looked at me with concern. "Are you okay buddy?" he asked.

"Yes mate. Don't mind me. Just need some space." I replied, trying to sound casual.

He handed me my order and said, "On the house."

I raised my glass up to him to thank him. I walked up to the corner of the pub and prayed that nobody will bother me.

'I will never stop loving you, Angelo. And I will never let you go.' I thought to myself. 'Cheers to the broken hearted pathetic guy. Cheers to me!'

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