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Story plot: Yeosang is happy, beyond happy. He has an amazing relationship that makes him feel like he can fight the world. His boyfriend goes to every fan meeting, just to watch and support his boyfriend. What Yeosang doesn't know is that this fan meeting is going to change everything. In 5 minutes his world is turned upside down, and not in a positive way.

Yeosang is feeling great today. He doesn't have much time to see his boyfriend, but his boyfriend goes to every fan meeting just so they can see each other. He hasn't seen him in two weeks. Knowing he has a fan meeting today is making him feel great. He'll finally get to spend some time with his boyfriend again.

Everyone thinks it's absolutely adorable. Yeosang doesn't have much free time in his schedule so he can't go out to visit his boyfriend. When everyone started to find out that he shows up at every fan meeting, they adored it. They're always so happy to see each other.

"Ah you're seeing him again today aren't you?" San says as he watches Yeosang jump happily around their dorm room. "Yes! Finally! I'm so happy Sannie I've missed him so much. We couldn't even call in the past two weeks, it was just a little bit of texting back and forth." San looks up from the tv.

That's doesn't sound anything like Yeosangs boyfriend. When they got together, he'd let Yeosang call in the middle of the night, just so they could talk. They would skype each other every other day if it fit in Yeosangs schedule. The fact that they've just been texting is concerning San. "So everything is all good between you two?" San decides to ask, not wanting to worry Yeosang for no real reason. "Yes it's all perfect." Yeosang replies as he jumps down on the couch next to San.

"I did miss our skype calls a lot though.. He said he didn't have time because he was busy. I can't blame him. He's always trying to fit his life into my schedule so I should be thankful for that. I just missed seeing his beautiful face and smile.." Yeosang says as he lays his head down on Sans lap, looking up at him. "I can imagine Sangie. Thankfully he'll be here today and you get to see him again." San looks down at him. It's heartwarming to see his friend be so happy and excited.

"Is everyone ready to go?" Hongjoong asks looking at the other members. They all agree and jump in the van to go the venue.

As they arrive it's time to get their hair and makeup done. "Yeosang you need to sit still. I can't do your hair if you keep moving." "I'm sorry." Yeosang looks into the mirror and smiles. Just a couple more hours and he'll be able to hug and kiss his boyfriend again.

"I'm sure he can't resist this look on you Sangie. You look like a small angel!" San says as Yeosang gets all shy from the compliment. "Y- you think?" "I don't think, I know!" San smiles.

"30 minutes before we go on!" Seonghwa shouts and they all nod.

Yeosang finally got his hair and makeup done and looks at himself in the mirror, Sans words going through his mind. San smiles and walks over to him giving him a loving backhug. "I told you so, you're an angel!" Yeosang blushes and looks away "I remember wearing a similar outfit on our first date." He grabs his phone from his pocket, showing San a picture from 2 years ago. "Oh wow it is really similar!" Yeosang smiles.

"You know I remember that day clearly. It was on friday after school and we were already sending like cute little letters back and forth, putting them in each others locker. Then he walked up to me after my last class asking if I'd like to go out for dinner. Of course I agreed and we went to this small italian place and San it was just so romantic! After dinner he asked me if I wanted to be his boyfriend and after I said yes we had our first kiss. This sounds so cliche but it started to rain so my blouse was soaking wet and he took me back to his place and he gave me that long black hoodie I own." Yeosang smiles brightly as he relives the memory from that day.

"That is honestly the cutest thing I have ever heard! I can't believe you two are already together for nearly 2 years. You guys make such a perfect couple." San says as he smiles at Yeosang. He's being really kind and supportive about their relationship, but in his mind, he will always wish it was him making Yeosang this happy.

He's put those thoughts far away by now. Yeosang never even got into an argument with his boyfriend. So San decided he can't keep dwelling on a boy who seems to have his love life perfectly worked out. It hurt a lot, but San knew it was the best thing he could do. Now he's happy and he's really glad he became so close to Yeosang. Especially since Yeosang was never the kind of guy who let people in that easily.

Those 30 minutes felt like ages to Yeosang. He just wanted to run up to his boyfriend, hold him tight and never let go.

"Okay it's time lets go!" Hongjoong says. No need to repeat that because Yeosang jumps up on his feet and rushes to the small stage with the others. He walks on stage, the brightest smile on his face as he's looking for his boyfriend.

He finally spots him and his smile grows even wider as he waves at him blowing a ton of kisses. He sits down on his chair next to all the others. San sits down next to Yeosang and smiles "Did you see him?" "Yes he's right there!" Yeosang says and points at his boyfriend who is sitting somewhere in the middle.

Halfway during their fan meeting his boyfriend stands up and Yeosang smiles brightly standing up as well. The room goes quiet as they all look at the two lovebirds.

"Yeosang," he starts with a serious tone that startles everyone. Everyone but Yeosang, who's just so happy to finally see him again.

"I can't do this anymore. I can't keep following you wherever you go. I found someone else. He lives closer to me and I love him." He says with the coldest tone ever before getting up and making his way towards the exit. He doesn't even look back.

Yeosang gets really pale and dead quiet. That bright smile quickly fading as he hears those words coming from his boyfriend. No no no no no! "But.." is all he manages to say as tears start to fill his eyes. He's lost for words. He's hurt. Feeling dizzy, nauseous, upset and all the bad things at once.

San gets up and grabs a microphone "This is your loss! You just lost the most precious angel on earth! Don't you dare to ever come back here or text him or anything!" San is furious. He really need to pull himself together to not chase that asshole and beat him up. Nobody hurts his Yeosang like that.

Yeosang turns around and starts to cry. He's about to run off as his legs give in. San quickly catches him and holds him tight. "I'm here Sangie. We're all here for you okay."

San quickly glances over at Hongjoong "I'm going backstage with him for a minute. We'll be back." Hongjoong nods. Everyone is speechless after what just happened.

San guides Yeosang back to the changing room. He sits down on the couch pulling Yeosang on his lap who's bawling his eyes out. It's heartbreaking to say the least. San has seen Yeosang get upset a few time, but this time it's different. It's as if the whole world is crashing down on him. His sobs are filled with so much pain, that even San starts to feel the pain that Yeosang is in right now.

"Sshh I'm here. I won't leave you Sangie. We can stay here as long as you need okay?" Yeosang takes Sans shirt in his hands and nods slightly. San pulls him closer, letting Yeosang soak his shirt with tears.

San thinks of anything that usually calms Yeosang down when he's upset about something. He's not sure if it will work this time, but the least he can do is try. He softly places one hand on Yeosangs upper back and the other one on his neck. He starts to rub his neck in soft circles. Yeosang is still sobbing heavily. Shit.

San takes a deep breath and starts to sing a song about friendship, rocking Yeosang slowly from left to right and still caressing his neck. My Sangie.. I wish I could heal your broken heart. You don't deserve this.

Yeosangs sobs slowly quiet down as he nuzzles his face into the crook of Sans neck. San smiles softly, feeling relieved that Yeosang has calmed down a little. He speaks softly "I'm always here for you okay? I won't leave your side." Yeosang nods, slowly letting go of Sans shirt.

"Sangie can you look at me?" San whispers and Yeosang looks up. His eyes are bloodshot red and puffy from crying. San places his hand on Yeosangs cheek, brushing the tears away with his thumb. It takes every bit of strength not to kiss him right now. No matter how badly he wants to, now is not the time. "Do you wanna go back to the others and Atiny angel?" San asks and Yeosang nods quietly. The thing that is hurting San the most right now is that the happy sparkle Yeosang always seems to have in his eyes, has disappeared.

Yeosang gets up and grabs a pair of Seonghwas dark sunglasses that are spread out on the table. I want to be around the others and my Atiny, but they can't see me like this. I'm a mess.

As they get back Yeosang sits down next to San. No one speaks about what just happened, because they don't want to upset Yeosang again.

After the fanmeeting, San reaches out to Yeosangs glasses and carefully takes them off. "You're still beautiful Yeosang. Please don't feel like you have to hide your feelings from us. We all understand how horrible you must feel right now. So please don't make it harder on yourself and try to hide it. Let me be there for you.." Yeosang smiles slightly and rubs in his eyes. "Now you're going to make me cry again!" He chuckles and blinks his tears away as San smiles at him and pulls him in for a tight hug. Soon all the others members gather around wrapping Yeosang up in a group hug. "8 makes 1 team right?" Wooyoung says and smiles, creating a small smile on Yeosangs face again.

When they get back to the dorm, Yeosang is the first to take a shower. He needs some time alone to process all that happened today. Yeosang turns the shower on and steps under it.

I can't believe it.. Is that why he's been avoiding my calls? Is that why he's been texting me? Oh my God, what if he was cheating on me.. What if he and that stupid other guy already got together. What if they were having sex when I was trying to skype him last week?!

Yeosang feels the tears roll down his cheeks again.

Maybe I'm just not good enough. Maybe I'll never be good enough. I wish I was as strong as San.. Being able to yell at him.. But no. I did absolutely nothing.

Yeosang starts to cry silently.

I won't ever be loved again. How I can trust anyone at this point? I can't. He promised me to always be there for me and that we would figure it all out together. But he fucking left me for someone else. Am I that easy to replace? Was it ever true love than? Or was I just an experiment to him?

After about 40 minutes there are soft knocks on the bathroom door. "Sangie, are you okay?" It's San. "Y- yeah I'm coming out in a minute." Yeosang turns the shower off and he stares at himself in the mirror. I'm a complete mess.

He sighs and slips on his comfy sweatpants and a hoodie before getting out of the bathroom, only to see San sitting on his bed. He quickly gets up and pulls Yeosang close. Yeosang sighs and wraps his arms around San, closing his eyes for a moment. He's feeling a mixture of comfort and sadness at the same time. It was hard for him to let San get close, but right now, he's so happy he let him.

After a while, it's San who breaks the silence. "I wrote you a letter." he says as he blushes. Is San blushing? Why? "Really?" Yeosang says as the same blush is creeping up on his cheeks as well. "Can I read it to you?" he asks and Yeosang nods. They settle down on the bed and San clears his throat while taking out the crumpled piece of paper from his pocket.

"Yeosangie,

I'm so sorry about what happened today. I can't describe how much I feel for you. It must be horrible to lose someone you loved so much.

I hope you know that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel and that bad things always happen for a good reason.

I hope I'm a good reason.. Look.. Yeosang I've loved you from the day we first met. But then I found out you had a boyfriend. So I pushed all my feelings aside so that I could support you and your relationship. It broke my heart seeing you so hurt and vulnerable today. All I wanted was to take the pain away from you at that point.

I know it's probably the worst timing ever, but I don't want to let my chance slip by. You don't have to answer right away either. You can take as long as you need to make a decision. 

But Yeosangie, would you want to be my boyfriend?"

San looks up from the paper seeing tears roll down Yeosangs cheeks. "Oh don't cry please I didn't mean to make you cry!" San says as he pulls Yeosang closer, but Yeosang stops him just in time so that he can cup Sans face in his hands.

"S- Sannie I don't know what to say.. I'm so scared to love again.. To be loved again.." San nods understanding. He knew it might be too soon to ask this to someone who is going through a horrible breakup. "But I do.. Sannie I'm scared.. But I do want to be with you. I really want to be with you b- but I'm so scared.. W- what if-" Yeosang doesn't get time to finish his sentence. "I know baby. I know you're scared. But I will do whatever it takes to protect you from any hurt in the future. You're my everything Yeosang and I will love and protect you with all my heart. We will takes thing slow. I will follow your pace." Yeosang smiles through his tears as he feels two of the softest lips plant a small kiss on his forehead. "I really love you Kang Yeosang. With all my heart." "I- I love you too San. I really do." San smiles brightly as he places another kiss on Yeosangs forehead.

A/N: Well I tried to work this one out. It didn't work out the way I hoped it would which sucks. I hope you guys still like it though.

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