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TRIGGER WARNING: This story contains sensitive subjects such as eating problems and self neglect. If you ever want to talk to me, I'm always here to listen!

Story plot: Where Yunho and Mingi have a relationship.  When they came out to the group and all the fans they mostly received loving and supportive reactions. They don't tend to be extremely clingy or too touchy because they want to keep that part for themselves. As they all have their monthly talk with the manager, Yunho's behavior visibly changes. No matter how hard Mingi tries, he can't get his boyfriend to speak up about what's wrong. Until one day, Yunho collapses during practice.

Boyfriends are suppose to tell eachother everything right? But what if it's such a big thing you don't want to drag you significant other into? What if it's too much.

After a long day of practice it's time for a monthly talk with the manager. After some time it was Yunho's turn. As he walks into the small office he's full of confidence that things will turn out quite positive. He's been practicing really hard, even after the other members left to make sure  he gets everything spot on.

"So I've been studying everything for quite some time now" the manager states with a serious tone that starts to frighten Yunho. He was working hard right? He is doing his very best to make Atiny and the others proud. "I don't know any other way to put this but it seems you have gained some weight over the past few months. At first I let it slide, thinking you would notice. But it seems like you haven't." Yunho has no idea what to say, all he can do is just look at his manager. Sure he has been eating more, but he has also been practicing a lot more than usual. "I think that is something you need to work on okay?" Yunho nods quietly as the words sink in. You gained weight.

He walks out of the office. "How did it go babe?" Mingi asks as he pulls his boyfriend on his lap, wrapping his arms around his waist. Yunho becomes aware of every touch. Did Mingi notice as well? Does he mind? "Fine, nothing special" Yunho instantly regrets his answer. Things weren't fine and it didn't go well. "I'm going to shower and go to bed. I'll see you later okay?" Yunho kisses his boyfriend and gets up.

On the way to his dorm so many thoughts are spiraling around his mind. Is he letting the group down? Why did no one tell him this before? How am I going to work on this?  Yunho sighs as he steps into his bathroom and undresses. He stares at himself in the mirror as tears start to form in his eyes. He doesn't understand where his manager is coming from. It's not that bad but, if his manager says so, it must be true. Yunho steps on the scale, barely able to read the numbers on it through his teary eyes. He pushes it aside and takes a long hot shower.

In bed, Yunho his trying to figure out a healthy plan to lose weight before the next monthly talk. He needs to show his manager that he is working on it and that he is doing his best to be the best version of himself. 

The first week went pretty smoothly according to his set up plan. He started to eat more fruit and vegetables and quit snacking late at night. He practiced as hard as he could. If this plan was working, Yunho felt like he could stick with it. That sunday he stepped on the scale in the morning, believing his changes would show. Reality hit him hard when he saw he barely lost any weight. How could that be possible with all the changes he made. He rubbed the tears from his eyes, feeling lost as there was a knock on the door. "Hey babe, you wanna watch a movie with us? Seonghwa is getting the popcorn ready!" "Uh no thanks I'm pretty tired." Yunho put his pyjamas on and hugged his boyfriend. He needed to work harder than ever.

The following weeks Yunho started to skip meals, finally seeing results on the scale. Everytime the boys would go out for dinner he'd make up an excuse so he wouldn't have to be there. 

"Yunho I think we need to talk" Mingi said as he took his boyfriends hand and led him upstairs to his bedroom. "Something wrong?" Yunho asked as he sat down on Mingi's bed. "No. Well yes actually uhm. You never go out to eat with us anymore.. You're not-" Before Mingi can continue Yunho needs to cut this conversation short. He can't know about this. It's his problem. "Oh babe no I'm just trying to work hard and make sure I get everything right." He leans forward and kisses his boyfriend softly. "Okay but, if there is something wrong I'm here and-" "Sshh I know babe. You're there for me."

There are only a few days left on the calendar before the next monthly talk would take place. By now Yunho is barely eating and visibly lost weight, covering it up by wearing more baggy clothing. He's happy with the results but deep inside, he feels like crap. He can't keep up with this much longer. He's exhausted, not only physically but mentally. It's not even about losing weight anymore, it's about finding something he has control over. He knows things aren't right, but he's too scared to talk about it by now. Every day he would plan his meals very carefully, making sure it's just enough to get him through practice. He's becoming more strict with it now that the monthly talk is coming up.

It's the last day of practice before they have a day rest and Yunho is determined to push himself through this one. Mingi has been constantly asking him if he's okay and he tries to stay away from the confrontation he can feel is coming. Even the others are up his ass and asking questions but he just changes the subject. It's none of their business.  

After a few hours Yunho can feel his energy dropping by the minute. His vision is becoming blurry and he's making mistakes he hasn't made before. "Yunho are you there? You're never like this during practice." Hongjoong asks and looks over at him. "Yeah I am sorry. I'm just tired I guess." Hongjoong shoots a glance as Mingi who is seeing the exact same thing. "Please continue. Let's go from the start and I won't make mistakes again." Hongjoong starts the song from the beginning. Yunho tries hard, really hard, but it's not enough. It's too much to keep up with the pace. His vision becomes blurry before he hears Mingi shout his name "YUNHO!" 

Mingi is just in time to catch his boyfriend before he collapses. "Yunho stay with us. Please someone give me some water and an energy bar!" Mingi brushes his cheek softly. Yunho can hear everything but he can't open his eyes. His body feels numb and he's unable to do anything at this point. "What have you done to yourself baby..." Mingi asks with tears in his eyes as he feels the weightless body of his boyfriend in his arms. He knew something wasn't right from the moment Yunho left the small office about 4 weeks ago. He tries to feed Yunho small pieces of the energy bar combined with water.

Yunho opens his eyes slowly, surrounded by all the members and still wrapped up in his arms of his boyfriend. Tears stream down his cheeks. He didn't expect this to happen. He didn't expect them to notice, let alone care. 

"Yunho.. What's going on.." Jongho asks carefully.

"I- I'm so sorry guys" Yunho sobs as he feels two arms wrap closer around him. "I didn't mean for this to happen"

"We know Yunho.. We know.. It's okay." Hongjoong says, worry clearly audible in his voice.

Yunho covers his face in Mingi's chest and cries. How is he going to put this into words. He has used all of the possible excuses by now and he knows they won't believe another one. After some time he calms down and turns his face back to the other members who are still there. He holds onto Mingi's hand and takes a deep breath. "I- it started four weeks ago.." He swallows hard remembering the exact words his manager said to him "you have gained some weight".  "The manger said I gained weight a- and I wanted to prove him that I could lose it and be a perfect fit again and-"

"He said what?!" Wooyoung shouts and gets up. "I'm going to-" San won't let him finish as he pulls him back down. "Not the time" he says and smiles softly.

"I can't believe he actually said that to you. You're so perfect Yunho. You're tall and slim. In the next meeting we're all going to tell him the damage he has done with those words, I promise you that." Yeosang says as Seonghwa nods.

"I'm going to help you through this baby. Get back to a healthy life. I promise we will take things slow but I'm going to help you." Mingi says as he kisses his forehead.

"I'm scared.." Yunho mumbles and closes his eyes. Exhausted from crying the past 30 minutes or so. "I know.. but we're all here for you." Mingi whispers as he gets up with his boyfriend in his arms. "Practice is over. It's time for nothing besides cuddles from me." Yunho smiles slightly and speaks softly "Thank you guys". Making all of them smile. 

Mingi knows it's not going to be easy to help his boyfriend out of this, but he is willing to do whatever it takes to help him.

A/N: Okay I know this one was very shitty, but I wanted to put something out there for you guys. If you have any advice on how I can step up my writing skills, please hmu.

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