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Story plot: Wooyoung is constantly trying to hide his relationship with Seonghwa. Whenever Seonghwa tries to show him the slightest bit of affection, Wooyoung rejects it straight away. When they first started dating, which is about 6 months ago, Seonghwa understood why he was worried about exposing their relationship. But now, 6 months later, Seonghwa is hurt and tired of his boyfriend rejecting him.

Once they're inside the building for the fansign, Wooyoung instantly intertwines his fingers with his boyfriend. There are so many rumors out there, saying they're a couple, but Wooyoung will do whatever it takes to deny that. Unless they're in a place where he's sure no one can take pictures and leak them.

Seonghwa looks down at their hands and brushes his boyfriend's hand with his thumb. He wishes he was able to hold his hand in public, but Wooyoung rejects very sign of affection in public.

Damn baby, I wish I could show the world how proud I am to be with you. I wish I could tell you that I love you in public without making you feel uncomfortable. I wish I could hold your hand, pull you close and kiss you. I just wish I could show them that I love you.

Lately Seonghwa is struggling a lot with his own feelings, but he's too scared to talk to his boyfriend about it. He doesn't want to seem pushy, forcing his boyfriend to be open in public. But it's getting harder and harder every day. Sometimes, when they have a busy schedule, it feels like they're not even really together.

It's not that Seonghwa is doubting Wooyoung's love for him, but it just starts to feel more distant every day with no sign of Wooyoung ever being ready to be out in public.

However, the others have noticed that Seonghwa isn't as happy as he used to be, but none of them dare to approach their Hyung to talk about his feelings. They all know he would say that he's doing just fine, even when he's not. He doesn't want the others to see that broken and sensitive side of him.

Wooyoung sits down to get his hair and makeup done for the fansign that will start in about 2 hours. Seonghwa settles down on the couch and looks at his boyfriend through the mirror, flashing a gentle smile. "You're already beautiful babe." Wooyoung smiles and blushes. He's still not used to the compliments Seonghwa gives to him on a daily basis.

"You're really handsome too hyung." Wooyoung smiles and closes his eyes as they start putting on his eyeshadow.

Once Wooyoung is ready, it's Seonghwa's turn to get his hair and makeup fixed. They're going for a bit of a darker eyeshadow this time and Wooyoung can't keep his eyes off his boyfriend at this point. He loves it when his boyfriend is wearing dark makeup with bright lenses. It just makes his already beautiful eyes stand out even more.

Seonghwa is ready as well and drops back down on the couch. Before he can do anything, Wooyoung plops on his lap, facing him and looking straight into his eyes. "You're sexy." Wooyoung whispers into Seonghwa's ear who literally melts under the soft whisper from his boyfriend.

"You're sexy." Seonghwa replies as he places his hands around his boyfriend's neck. He knows that Wooyoung isn't going to make a move here, but he does enjoy the contact so much.

Since Wooyoung is always being so distant once they step outside, Seonghwa enjoys every little intimate moment they have to the fullest. Seonghwa brushes Wooyoung's neck softly as he looks back into his eyes.

Seonghwa pulls him closer until their lips finally meet and move perfectly in sync. Damn, I've missed this so much Woo you have no idea.

"Alright love birds we need to get on in 5 minutes. If you could wrap up your little makeout session that would be great." Hongjoong jokes as he passes the couple and joins the other members in the hall.

Wooyoung pulls away and smiles, placing a light peck on Seonghwa's lips before getting off his lap. "I love you so much Hwa." "I love you even more Woo." Seonghwa's smile quickly fades as his boyfriend makes his way into the hall. Love bird time is really over from this point on and it really stings.

Seonghwa forces himself to get up and walk into the hallway as well.

Lately, Wooyoung won't even let him joke around with him at fansigns anymore, because he's scared that people might find out. It's as if they're becoming even more distant this way. Seonghwa used to love fansigns because he could joke around with his boyfriend without people pulling conclusions, but even that is over right now.

Wooyoung on the other hand isn't feeling any better, but Seonghwa doesn't know. He doesn't want to push his boyfriend away all the time to protect himself. Hell, he doesn't even know what he should protect himself from. But he's too deep in it to just grab his boyfriend and act like he never pushed him away. Damn. When did I turn this into such a complicated issue.

The fansign is a lot of fun for everyone, even though Wooyoung and Seonghwa stay miles apart during the entire event.

Occasionally, Seonghwa will look at Wooyoung and vice versa, but none of them even share a smile or anything.

Wooyoung is looking so damn fine today in his thick cargo jacket. Seonghwa just wants to grab him by that cargo jacket and pull him in for a kiss. He's mindlessly signing the albums, because all he thinks about his grabbing his boyfriend and kissing him in front of everyone.

What's holding me back? Wooyoung's feelings? Hell I don't even know why he's feeling this way and what bothers him about being open in public. Maybe he wants to be out but he doesn't know how to do so. Should I go for it? Risk it all?  Fuck. I'm going to risk it all and pray for the best.

As all the members get their butts of the chairs, Seonghwa makes his way over to his boyfriend. Wooyoung looks at him, love and fear in his eyes at the same time. Seonghwa takes one last deep breath before he places his hand on the back of Wooyoung's head and pulls him in for a long lasting kiss.

There is no way back. It's live or die at this point.

At first it seems to be going pretty smooth when Seonghwa feels his boyfriend lean in and kiss him back. But that all changes in a matter of seconds when Wooyoung places his hands on Seonghwa's chest, pushing him away in full force, causing Seonghwa to tumble and fall ass first on the ground.

The whole venue quiets down as they watch the event happening right in front of their eyes.

"What the fuck hyung?! What were you thinking?!" Wooyoung shouts as tears start to fill his eyes.

What was I thinking?

"Woo I-" Seonghwa stutters. He doesn't know what to say or do at this point. His boyfriend is starting at him with anger and hurt at this point. "Woo what?!" He shouts as Seonghwa gets up from the ground, tears forming in his eyes as well.

What do I do? Do I continue this? Do I need to back off?

Seonghwa bites down on his bottom lip and locks eyes with his boyfriend. "Woo I love you." Wooyoung is quiet, looking straight into his boyfriend's eyes. The anger slowly disappears from his eyes as he realizes what Seonghwa is trying to do.

He's trying to make me come out.

They both remain silent. Waiting for each other to make another move and guide this conversation. "I- I need a minute." Wooyoung stutters as he rushes backstage, leaving Seonghwa standing there on the spot.

I fucked it up. I completely fucked it up.

While Hongjoong makes his way over to Seonghwa, Yeosang rushes backstage to his best friend. "Woo where are you??" He shouts as he hears soft sobs coming from the corner. "Woo.." Yeosang makes his way over to him and kneels down to pull him into a warm hug.

Wooyoung wraps his arms around his best friend and continues to sob for a little while. "I- I know why he's doing this Yeosang. I hurt him. I hurt him so much." Yeosang looks at him, confusing written all over his face. "You hurt him?"

Wooyoung looks up and nods. "Yeah I did. Y- you guys may not notice, but I don't allow him to show affection when we're in public, ever. I always push him away and keep distance between us. I hurt him a- and he just wants to show everyone that he loves me but-" Wooyoung shuts his eyes tightly as more tears escape.

"But.." Yeosang continues carefully. "But I don't allow him and I know it's breaking him." Yeosang nods as he rubs his best friends back softly. "Why don't you allow it?" Wooyoung shrugs but then decides to speak up anyway. "Because I'm scared people will hate us. I'm scared they'll want to hurt him or me."

"Woo, we will always protect the both of you remember that. Nothing in the world could tear you two apart. If you really do love him as much as you always tell me, you need to get your ass out there and show him." Wooyoung looks up at his best friend. He never expected such a statement from Yeosang, but he knows he's right.

Wooyoung nods as he dabs the tears from his eyes and gets up. "You're right. God I hope I didn't fuck it up Sangie.." Yeosang gets up as well. "Come on, let's go. I'll be with you." He pushes Wooyoung back onto the stage.

"S- Seonghwa?" Wooyoung stutters as he looks at Hongjoong hugging Seonghwa who is clearly upset.

Seonghwa looks up at his boyfriend, feeling Hongjoong back off.

"Damnit hyung I was stupid okay. I have been an idiot for the past 6 months." Wooyoung stares at the crowd. "Yes 6 months. We've been together for 6 months but I never allowed my wonderful boyfriend to show affection because I was afraid of the hate that could come from this. Seonghwa can you forgive me for everything I've done that hurt you? Please.. I'm so so-"

Wooyoung can't finish his sentence because Seonghwa ran up to him and pulled him firmly against him into a gentle kiss. Wooyoung shuts his eyes, wrapping his arms tightly around his boyfriend and returning the kiss this time.

They just pulled back when the whole crowd starts cheering for them. "SEONGYOUNG!" Wooyoung blushes and hides himself into the comfort of his boyfriend's arms.

It's just now that he realizes how much he has missed his boyfriend these past 6 months. He pushed Seonghwa away like they weren't even a thing and he hurt his feelings by rejecting all his affection. Wooyoung is still unhappy about the situation that he created and he'll talk to his boyfriend about it for sure.

But for now, they're finally fully enjoying each others company in public.

A/N: I'm sorry for the slow uploads. I'm having a writer's block and it sucks. So if you have any requests, please send me a message! 

Would you guys mind if I started AU plots as well?

This ship was requested by the lovely 

I hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing this!

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