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Story plot: Seonghwa has a huge crush on Hongjoong. Sadly, Seonghwa is too nervous and shy to actually confess to his leader. During the mini mission they decided to pair up to do the filming.

Seonghwa sighs as he sits down on his bed after another mission. They've spend so much time these days and he's slowly getting more and more frustrated with his own feelings towards their leader, Kim Hongjoong.

From the day they met, they've always had a special connection. A connection that caused Seonghwa to slowly develop stronger feelings for the other over time. At first he tried to deny it. He has never been in love with a guy before, so he figured his feelings might come from the strong bond that they had developed.

The more time they would spend together, the more his feelings were growing to a point where he would feel empty whenever Hongjoong left to go back to the studio to finish some things up. All he wanted was to follow his leader, just to be around him.

He still kept pushing those feelings aside, forcing himself to believe it's just a strong friendship.

But he won't forget the day when he couldn't deny it any longer. It was a sunday morning and he was making breakfast as usual. He remembers Hongjoong entering the kitchen, telling him he wasn't feeling well because he had probably overworked himself. Seonghwa spend the whole day taking care of his leader, making sure he was comfortable and feeling better. At some point, Hongjoong was laying on the couch, his head resting on Seonghwa's lap as they were watching a movie. It wasn't just a friendship for Seonghwa anymore, he definitely felt the butterflies in his stomach when Hongjoong laid down, head resting on his lap.

From that day on, Seonghwa worked on accepting the fact that he had definitely fallen in love with Hongjoong, but he hadn't told anyone yet. It was the Woosan couple who dragged him to their shared room to talk. They noticed the way Seonghwa would casually follow Hongjoong around the room with his eyes never leaving the precious boy.

"Seonghwa hyung, you're in love with Hongjoong aren't you?" Wooyoung asked as he sat down next to Seonghwa on the couch. Seonghwa felt all the blood rise up to his cheeks, not facing either San or Wooyoung. "Hyung.." San continued carefully. They cared about their hyung. "Trust me, no one knows or even suspects anything. It's just that we're boyfriends and we see the way you look at him. The way you smile when he smiles. To us, his name is tattooed on your forehead." Seonghwa continued to glance down at his lap, not knowing what to reply. "Hyung.." Wooyoung placed his hand on Seonghwa's back. "We know it can be really confusing. It's not easy to accept and it's complicated when you like a guy." San nods in agreement. "I remember when I catched feelings for Wooyoung. It took me forever to accept it and honestly. At the time I didn't talk to any of you guys about it, but I wish I did." Seonghwa takes a deep breath. "I.. I think I might be.. Well no, I don't think I might feel that way, I do. I just really love him. I'm madly in love with him. What do I do? I can't just pull him aside and be like oh yeah hi I'm in love with you. What if he doesn't feel the same about me. It would make things so awkward!" San smiled and nodded his head. "Trust me when I say you'll find the right moment. I can't tell you when that will be, but there will be a moment when you're like; this is it. This is the moment." Seonghwa sighs and nods, resting his head on Wooyoung's shoulder. "Please don't tell anyone.." "We won't hyung, we promise." Wooyoung says, letting Seonghwa stay like that who was thinking about a billion things at the same time. But San was right, he felt so much better now that he'd talked about it.

Months have passed by and Seonghwa is still hopelessly waiting for that feeling San told him about. There have been a few moments where he thought he'd might spill it. But he always waited to long and Hongjoong would leave to the studio again.

He stares outside his bedroom window at the starry night sky, thinking about the mission they were going to film tonight. If he's thinking about how he's going to film it? Absolutely not. He's thinking about all the possible ways he would wake Hongjoong up in the morning. He groans as he realizes his mind is going somewhere else instead of focussing on what he's supposed to be doing soon.

Instead of trying to force himself to focus, he grabs his little diary instead to write down his thoughts. Something he found out to be very helpful to get his focus back. He starts to write down all the possible ways to wake Hongjoong up in the morning as his smile grows wider with each possibility.

Hongjoong.. If I could only make these fantasies come true.. If only I could find the right moment to tell you. So far, you have given me no signs in loving me back but that's okay. I talked to Wooyoung and San again a couple of weeks ago about this. They said that it's best to tell you anyway, whether you love me back or not. I need to get it off my chest and if you don't feel the same way about me, that's okay. But then I can work on getting over you and moving on, instead of dreaming about what we could have.

He closes his dairy, putting it away before making his way back downstairs to the others. Maybe they can give him some real advice on how to handle this mission.

Seonghwa plops down on the couch next to the Woosan couple. "How are you all going to film tonight? Like pair up to help each other out or?" Seonghwa asks as he looks at the others. Jongho smiles over at Yeosang. "I got myself a hypeman!" Yeosang chuckles and smacks Jongho on his arm. "You know I'm just going to be laying on your bed with my earplugs popped in right?" "Yeah I know." Seonghwa laughs and shakes his head.

San glances over at Seonghwa. If he's not going to ask it himself, San will casually suggest it. "Yeah me and Woo paired up, obviously. Mostly just for company but also to help each other a little bit. Maybe you could pair up with Hongjoong?" Seonghwa feels his cheeks heat up immediately after hearing his name. He quickly tries to pull himself together to face Hongjoong who smiles at him with his beautiful shiney smile. "Wanna pair up?" He asks casually making Seonghwa's heart melt. "Yeah sure!"

Hongjoong nods and walks back into the kitchen to grab a drink, giving Seonghwa a brief moment to shot a blushing glare towards San who simply shrugs and smirks.

After a while they all make their way to different rooms to start filming. Hongjoong plops on Seonghwa's bed right away, feeling exhausted. Seonghwa shuts the door and chuckles as he sees Hongjoong spread out on his bed with his eyes closed.

"Just start filming hyung. Don't mind me I just wanted to lay down for a second." Hongjoong says as he looks at Seonghwa who smiles and nods. "I'm just gonna scribble down some things before I film."

Damn he's beautiful. He's doing absolutely nothing. He's just laying there but.. Wow.. How am I suppose to film when I only got eyes for him..

He grabs his notebook and starts to plan out how he's going to film each little message. After a while he looks at Hongjoong who seems to have fallen asleep on his bed and sighs.

He gently brushes some hair from Hongjoongs eyes, letting him rest on his bed.

If you only knew Hongjoong.. If you only knew how I really feel about you. How badly I want to be the one who treats you right. Who makes sure you're healthy and resting. Making beautiful memories with you.

"Damnit Hongjoong.." He sighs as he mindlessly brushes his fingers through Hongjoong's soft faded out red hair. "You have no idea how much you really mean to me. You make my heart skip a beat every time you look into my eyes. I want to be the one that makes you smile when you wake up in the morning. I want to be the one who takes care of you and loves you unconditionally." Seonghwa speaks softly as he looks outside at the stars.

"You have such a special place in my heart. I always tried to deny the way I really felt about you. I'm just hopelessly in love with you. I still haven't figured out a way to tell you.. San told me to wait for some kind of moment, but how do I know when that moment comes? What if it never comes and I never get to tell you how I feel about you?" Seonghwa whispers as he feels the tears prick in his eyes just saying those words out loud.

What if there will never be a moment.

Hongjoong smiles as he opens his eyes slightly. He heard every single word that came out of Seonghwa's mouth since he was only half asleep.

"That moment just happened Hwa." Hongjoong whispers as he pulls Seonghwa down, cupping his face in his hands and pressing his lips firmly yet gently on his. Seonghwa's body stiffens up. He can't believe Hongjoong was awake the entire time and has probably heard every single word he said.

As Hongjoong softly caresses his cheek with his fingers, Seonghwa's body relaxes as he melts into the kiss. Lips moving slowly in sync for a while until Hongjoong pulls away to catch his breath.

"D- did you.." Seonghwa stutters as he's so close to Hongjoong's face, looking right into his eyes. Hongjoong nods, placing a light kiss on Seonghwa's forehead. "I heard every word." Seonghwa quickly brakes the eye contact, feeling so embarrassed.

"Look at me babe." Seonghwa shivers at the sudden nickname and looks into Hongjoongs eyes again. "I love you unconditionally Park Seonghwa. I wish I talked to you earlier because I feel the same way about you, but I thought you didn't feel that way about me." Hongjoong whispers as a slight brush is creeping up on his cheeks as well.

Seonghwa smiles, biting down on his bottom lip. "Hongjoong.. I don't know how to ask this properly.." Hongjoong smiles as he continues where Seonghwa left off. "Does the question involve the word boyfriend?" He says teasingly, poking Seonghwa's cheek. Seonghwa nods and Hongjoong smirks, waiting for him to pop the question. "Damnit Joongie. Do you want to be my boyfriend?" Hongjoong squeals softly as he buries his head onto Seonghwa's chest nodding furiously. "I do. I really do."

Seonghwa smiles brightly as he wraps his boyfriend in his arms. "I love you endlessly Hongjoong." "I love you endlessly as well Seonghwa."

A/N: I hope you guys loved this one as much as I loved writing it!

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