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Hii guys, omg its been way too long, a month, im super sorry for the wait, I hate school and i didnt know what to write, cries. I have holidays soon, but thats not before EXAMS omfg, someone save me , so im thinking i can finish this story soon and get something else happening aha, what do you think about that :P

So if you want more just comment and tell me so or just vote 

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Chapter 12- Is It Just Admiration?

Alex's POV

When the bell went for last class, I rushed out into the courtyard determined to get to Zac before he left. We needed to talk about the Xavier Aiden situation. I walked around the courtyard waiting for him to get out school. He couldn't have already left, could he?

I scanned my eyes over the emerging students, locking in on him with Sienna. I picked up the pace and caught up to him. I placed a hand on his arm, catching his attention. He turned around and shot me a smile. "Hey, can we talk?" I asked. He waved a quick goodbye to Sienna and turned to me.

"Sure, let's go to my place" he replied and made a gesture for me to follow him to his car. I walked behind him, thinking about what I had to talk to him about. I had to do something.

I hopped in and relaxed into the seat, so tired from school. We stayed in comfortable silence as he drove us to his house. Before too long, we had arrived at his house. I walked behind him, looking around his place, impressed by its beautiful design. I would love to live in a house like this one day.

"Nice house" I commented, admiration evident in my tone.

"Thanks, now come on lets go inside" he said grinning at me as he unlocked the front door and made his way to his room. I followed him across the hall towards his room.

When I stepped into his room I couldn't help but notice that it was filled with posters. It was mostly movie posters and celebrities, but one thing stood out. It was the wall filled with photographs, mainly including his friends and family, but some were just of him in various places. I went closer and admired the amazing moments he had been able to capture. "These are so good" I told him my eyes glistening. He gave me a cheeky smile in return and patted the space next to him on the bed. I took a few steps and landed next to him.

"So what did you want to talk about?" he asked.

"Aiden and Xavier" I started with a sigh, "Do you know what happened?" I asked.

"Well, I know as much as Xavier has told me" he answered.

"All I know is that on Siennas birthday they kissed, then Aiden fell hard for him, then they became friends and now there is bad feelings between them" I told him, a frown settling on my face.

"I know what happened, so  last week...there were confessions and a fight"

"Really? what happened?"

"Xavier told me, that Aiden confessed his feelings for him and basically he rejected him"

"Oh wow, so Xavier doesn't have any feelings whatsoever for him?"

"I'm not sure, he's a pretty affectionate guy but in the past when people have told him they liked him he pushed them away"

"Then, do you think they could ever be together?"

"Maybe, if Xavier stopped being such an idiot and Aiden found a way to forgive him" he replied, his eyes drifting awkwardly towards the door as I struggled to find a response.

When our conversation finished, discomfort seeped in. I stared into his eyes, they were such a beautiful shade of brown. His soft luscious, black hair looked so smooth to touch. His lips looked so deliciously pink and kissable. I didn't even know what I was thinking by this point. The only thing that stood out in my mind was that I wanted a bit of him. Before I knew it I had touched his lips with mine. My eyes closed shut as lust overcame my conscious.The only thing I could think about was more.

He fell back on the bed in shock but in a matter of seconds, we were both kissing each other passionately. I traced my hands down his sides and slipped my hands into his back pockets. Then I threaded my fingers through his hair, softly pulling at the strands. It's not like it was my first kiss or anything, but it felt like the best kiss I've ever had. Thoughts were getting jumbled up in my mind as I failed to think straight. My mind was filled with him and only him, Amelia was the last thing on my mind at that moment. I pulled back as images of her floated into my thoughts. I-I was kissing a guy, a close friend and a boy. I got off of him and moved away from him, shock evident in me. I turned around and faced the door. What was I doing? I loved Amelia, I was with Amelia. I didn't like boys, I didn't like Zac. We are just friends,  Just friends and that is all.

I cautiously turned back and gave him a wary look. We simultaneously reached up and put our fingers on our own lips, which were tingling. What have I done? Is our friendship ruined?

"You talk to Xavier and I'll talk to Aiden" I rushed out without a breath quickly. I hurried to the door but he put his arm closing the door shut and blocked me from escaping. I bowed my head in embarrassment and guilt. I couldn't talk about this now.

"We kissed..." he started, with all sorts of emotions flashing past on his face.  

"...I know" I said with a hint of hesitation

"Do you l-like me?" he asked with a slight stutter.

"Of course not, I have Amelia and she is my girlfriend if you have forgotten" I finished and ran out of the door and out of the house as quick as possible. I caught my breath and decided to go see Aiden.

I just couldn't do this right now, I wasn't gay. I just know it; it was just a moment of irrationality, caught up in admiration for him.

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I put my hand on the door to his house to knock but it was suspiciously unlocked. I peered inside, his parents saw me. "Alex!, Hello" his mum called out as I gave a smile and slight wave in return.

"Hi, I was wondering if you knew where Aiden was?

"Well, how do I put this...we asked a few questions then he just ran out, Sienna went to look for him" she said with worry etched all over her face.

"Oh ok, I'll go help" I said and rushed back out the door in a flash. Where could he have gone? I wondered...maybe the ice cream shop or the beach. It must be one of them.  

I got in and sped towards the seaside. I pulled up and parked the car. Did he walk here? Wow. I locked the car and had a quick look around. The beach is Aiden's getaway place whilst the ice cream place was his comfort place. I saw a guy along the shore, I figured it was him. I moved closer and tapped him on the shoulder.

He gave me a surprised look and resumed to his crouched position. He ran grains of sand through his hands randomly distributing them across his lap.

I sat down next to him, thinking carefully about what to say to him.  

"Hey" I started in a quiet tone.

"Hi" I heard him mumble in an almost intelligible tone.

"I'm here for you, you know, we are best friends"

"I know, sorry"

"You told Xavier..." I started cautiously. I felt him tense up next to me and turn his face away. I moved closer and wrapped my arms around him. "I'm sorry, I didn't know" I hugged him closer to him as I felt him relax into my arms. I continued "I'm so sorry, I should have been there for you"

"It's not your fault, it's mine" he whispered in a hoarse voice. He was crying?

"Come on, let's go, your family is worrying about you"

"Just a little bit longer, I want to enjoy that moment" he said as he closed his eyes and laid down on the sand, with peace and calmness reflecting off of him. I remembered he told me something about Xavier and him, forming their friendship here. No wonder this place has a higher significance than usual.

I laid down beside him, drinking in the remainder of the light, as day turned into night. I sat up in a upright position and got up, holding my hand out for him to take. He gave me a small smile and lifted himself up with my help. I directed him towards my car and held the door out for him, he needed me and it's time I did my part to help in all seriousness. I took the short route to his house then I stopped the car and turned to him.

"If you need anything, just ask, I'll always be there for you, no matter what"

"I know, thank you" he opened the door and went inside. After a few moments I drove off. When I arrived home I was met with darkness. No one was home at the moment.

I walked upstairs to my room and let my thoughts take over. I cannot believe I kissed him, hopefully he won't say anything, because I sure won't. I love Amelia too much, to let one meaningless kiss ruin my relationship with her. I face palmed, how could I do something like that to her, now I feel like I'm keeping something really big from her. I'm a cheater. She deserves to know but I don't think I will be able to ever admit something like this to her. I have to talk to Zac tomorrow about it, after that I don't think we can be friends no more. It's over, done.

I'm so sorry Zac, but this is the way it has to be, Amelia is the only one for me.

Aiden's POV

I can't forget about him, not now, not ever. No matter how hard I try but maybe the only solution is to try and fall for someone else. It's obvious nothing is going to happen between us, our friendship is done and over. But even it does, I think it won't be as I thought, like in my dreams and fantasies.

I'll talk to my friends tomorrow, or whenever I decide I can survive going to school again, hopefully its quite soon, I can't let my parents get suspicious. It's already bad enough that Sienna let it slip it's something to do with rejection.  I cannot believe her, even though she did it in good intentions. I can handle it by myself, I don't need my parents interfering in this side of me. The more vulnerable and emotional part of me.

Although this side of me rarely comes out, when it does it stays for a while, hopefully this time it won't be as painful for me. I honestly hope I can find someone else to fall for, no matter who it is, anyone would be good. When you're in love, you don't feel like this, it's like you are floating on air, laying on the clouds. What I would give to feel like that at the moment, right now I just want to feel happy again. Even if it's only temporary, it just might help me move on, even though it hasn't worked before.

One guy that I will find, may be able to finally change that. I hope I can find him soon, or I will still be in the darkness for the foreseeable future.

As my thoughts consumed me I slowly fell asleep, dreaming of what my future may hold. My fingers crossed in luck, as I silently wished for what is yet to come. 

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Hopefully that chapter was ok, took me forever to write, was stuck for weeks, weeks i tell you! 

Well guys i was thinking about a sequel for this book, but who will star in it? Gah i made it too obvious, I MEAN you dont know pshhhh im the writer here, i can change it lol jks, i already have it kinda planned.

sooooo VOTE COMMENT FAN or VVCCCFFFF :P idk what that was, moment of craziness, so tell me how it is, exams soon fml 

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