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Hii~Sorry guys, i was busy with the start of a new school semester >< im going crazy this month, thinking about the future D: and my grades. ~Stress 

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Chapter 18

Flashback to then

Aiden’s POV

I bit my lip as happiness swept through my whole body. I floated through the rest of my classes, daydreaming and grinning stupidly though the whole day.  By the time I got home, it was like I was floating and over the clouds. The week flew by relatively quickly, unable to control my imagination if someone asked me, I most likely wouldn’t able to recall anything from the past week.

My mind was set on Xavier and him only. I teased him a little, or more like a lot. Refusing to let him kiss me or touch me in anyway. A quick brush of my lips against his and a slight touch of his hand was the most I let him have. I could tell he was frustrated and was like a lost puppy desperate for some attention. I wasn’t planning on letting it go on much longer but I just wanted our first real kiss to be special. I wanted everything to have some meaning and for it to be a memorable moment. To me, firsts were really important in a relationship.

I was too shy to actually tell him I wanted our first kiss to be special, so I acted, pretending not to notice his longing looks he shot at me all day. I smiled to myself, looking across at him in the hallway. He turned and connected our eyes, I stuck my tongue out at him and put my head down laughing at his surprised look. I peeked out from behind my hands giving him a cheeky grin. He blew me a kiss and I winked back at him.

“You guys are so cute!” Amelia told me giggling into her hand. I gently bumped her into Alex, unmoving him from his staring. I noticed he was distracted looking over at Sienna, Zac and Xavier. Specifically Zac I believe, he looked over a few times at us, totally ignoring the conversation he was having.

“Amelia can you give me a minute, I want to talk to Alex alone” I told her, giving her a look telling it was important.

“Sure, I’ll be right back” he replied, walking away towards where Sienna stood.

“Why did you do that?” Alex asked, I didn’t reply and just took him by the hand dragging him towards the trees at the side of the school.

“I’ve let this go on too long, what’s going on between you and Zac, because I know there is something” 

“You’re just imagining it, I’m just not that close with him as I am with the others”

“Are you sure that’s all, well then we should hang out together more with them”

“I guess…but I think I can’t be friends with him at all anymore”

What was he getting at, there is something more that he wasn’t telling me. He was being so edgy which was unlike himself. What was so bad that he had to lie to me, we’re best friends. He shouldn’t be keeping secrets from him.

“Why Alex, what are you leaving out?”

“It’s nothing Aiden, believe me, it’s over; I’m going to go find Amelia, I’ll see you later” he rushed out quickly and went out of my sight to find her.

I should talk to Zac, maybe he would tell me what happened because I’m getting worried about him.

Alex’s POV

That was close I thought, letting out a sigh of relief. I walked out from behind the building. I strode quickly inside, opening the front door and bumping right into Zac. I stopped completely frozen, he was holding onto my arms to try and keep me from falling, but I lost my balance falling right on top of him. I was staring right into his eyes and I was mesmerised by their beauty. I wasn’t thinking straight, I don’t even get why these things even come to mind. A few seconds later, I pushed myself off him. Without a word I stepped past him and started going towards my locker.

I was pulled back by any guess Zac and he dragged me into the nearby empty classroom. I haven’t talked to him in a while, since that day we kissed.

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It was the next day of school and I was freaking out. I didn’t deserve Amelia but I loved her so much, I couldn’t let her go. I was thinking about her and Zac the whole way to school. The thoughts were swimming around my head at a rapid pace. I had to deal with this situation soon or I was going to lose my mind.

I pulled up at the school car park and stepped out, locking my car. Immediately I saw Amelia near the entrance, taking my time I made my way towards her. I was scared of my own girlfriend, someone that had been my friend since forever. I was in the wrong, I cheated and as a honest guy it meant that I had to confess. Even though the consequences of my confession could ruin the whole friendship it was something that had to be done, no questions asked.

I’d tell her when we were alone. I slipped my hands into hers like usual and she turned to me and pecked me on the lips. But I couldn’t help but compare her to him. As the memory entered my mind, quick as it came I pushed it out of the way. I walked with her hand in hand towards Aiden and…Zac.

Amelia had told me last night through a quick message that they were going to pretend date. She didn’t go into many details, which was the reason why I had so many questions. She had to go to sleep so she couldn’t talk for long, but I guess I’ll find out eventually. It wasn’t like it was anything to do with me anyway. I assumed it was to make Xavier jealous, although I could be wrong.

As I got closer I couldn’t help but stare at their linked arms, it stirred a feeling deep inside of me. I quickly lifted my eyes up from their hands to their eyes. They were both giving my looks; Aiden looked a little confused whilst Zac was just outright staring me. It was making me uncomfortable considering what had happened.

“Hi, what’s up man” Aiden greeted, unlocking his arms from him. Aiden stepped forward and patted my back in greeting making me flinch at the sudden movement. He backed up as quickly as he approached, confusion written all over his face.

“Nothing much, just another day with my girlfriend” I said, emphasising the word girlfriend and looking right at them. I was acting super jealous, when I know I shouldn’t be since I had no real reason to. I was making our conversation pretty awkward.

 “Do you know yet, the thing between Zac and I?” Aiden whispered in his ear, moving closer to me.

“Yeah, Amelia told me and I think you should go for it” I said in a monotone voice with a slight irritation.

“Ok…thanks for the support I guess, by the way do you know who Zac likes?” Aiden asked.

I froze at the question, why was he randomly asking that out of the blue. Unless, it had something to do with their…relationship, but what…wait…does that mean me.

“I think that is enough, let’s go Aiden” I heard faintly as the…couple left the scene. I had completely ignored Amelia and when she gently shook me I almost fell.

“Come on Amelia, let’s go somewhere private” I told her, taking her with me. I could feel myself begin to shake, I don’t know how I’m going to be able to tell her this…big mistake. I stood in front of her and slowly lifted my eyes to meet hers. She was worried, I could tell. I didn’t think this was the best time to tell her, but I had to do it before I psyched myself out of telling her the truth.

“What’s wrong Alex?” she asked, touching my arm lightly.

I took a deep breath in, “I kissed someone else yesterday” I admitted, immediately sinking to my knees after such a confession. I looked up at her and she looked fine for some weird reason. “I’m so sorry Amelia, I didn’t mean to I swear, it was only a one-time thing and I regret it so much” I told her pleading her to forgive me.

She looked down at me with a weak smile, “I forgive you, as long as you don’t do it again, I won’t hold it against you” she stroked my hair lovingly and I breathed a sigh of relief.

I stood up hugging her tightly to me, nuzzling into her and relaxing. I repeatedly whispered sorry to her and slid my hand into hers. I needed to make it up to her, she didn't deserve this. 

The bell rang and we walked together into the school building, before separating to our different classes. I didn’t kiss her goodbye, it was a little too early, so it was fine I guess. I think that it would be a little awkward since I don’t think I’ll be able to help but compare her to Zac.

I was going to have to talk to him at lunch, since I didn’t share any classes with him. I was a nervous wreck, more so than I was to talk to Amelia. I went to my locker before walking to his to wait for him. A few minutes later he arrived, but he wasn’t alone Xavier was with him.

I made myself known and he looked surprised to see me, he whispered something to Xavier before following me. I walked slowly, dreading the time when I would have to start speaking. I pulled him to a secluded section of the courtyard. I stood in front of him like I had with Amelia and prepared myself. I could do this, it was for the best I chanted to myself.

“You know, I don’t regret our kiss yesterday, I really enjoyed it to be honest” he told me, smirking a little at my instant blushing.

I bit my lip and brushed my hand through my hair awkwardly, “I-I told Amelia that I kissed someone and she forgave me” I started. “Our kiss was a mistake and it was in the moment”. I watched as his face fell and he started blushing at the embarrassment. “I’ve loved Amelia for so long and it was the greatest moment of my life so far when we got together” I told him. “I’m sorry Zac, but what we have between us has to stop” I finished, looking down at my feet.

I couldn’t look him in his eyes, “If that’s how you feel, then fine” he said with a pained voice. “I’ll leave you alone” he whispered bitterly walking away from me. I saw him walk away and I felt horrible for hurting him. I wanted to chase after him and take it all back. But something stopped me and it was Amelia. I was doing this for her; I didn’t want to get distracted by him.

That’s how my day ended; I was relieved that I actually carried out both of those tasks. Even though it was done, I felt like it wasn’t. Like this was just the start and it was just beginning of much more. 

Whenever we were together with our friends, it was just completely awkward. He didn’t make any conversation with me and he didn’t make proper eye contact with me. That day my friends came over to my house, I was actually reluctant to invite Zac. But it would have been suspicious if I didn’t so after a while of procrastinating I told him to come over. That was the day we got Xavier and Aiden together and also the day Aiden and Zac…broke up.

Aiden was getting suspicious of us, so was everyone. We acted like nothing ever happened but it was like we were almost strangers. Aiden kept asking questions but I just brushed them off and he just gave me a hurt looks. I know he wanted me to tell him what was going on, but the thing is, nothing is going on anymore. I dealt with it and no one has to ever know what happened. He is my best friend but I don’t think he needs to know about this. It wasn’t something I was proud of and nevertheless it involved just me and Zac. It was our secret and it will remain one, forever.

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So when we finally crossed paths I felt like I was losing the little control I had left. I had no words to say to him and I didn’t want to talk to him anymore. Inside the classroom, he sat on top of the desk whilst I just stood awkwardly in front of him. He had this look in his eyes and I felt responsible for it. I shouldn’t have initiated that stupid kiss; it has caused us both problems that we didn’t need to have.

He stayed silent and not impatient I asked, “Why am I here?” I watched him as he closed his eyes for a second then looked across at me. He took a step closer making me take one back.

“I-I’ve missed you” he confessed looking at me right in the eye. My voice was stuck in my throat, I didn’t know how to respond. I was feeling more nervous by the second, we couldn’t be friends again and he knew that.

“We can’t…please just…” I couldn’t do this, panicking I turned away from him wanting to leave. He stopped me before I could take a step. I stumbled a bit and he turned me around catching me in his arms. I couldn’t move, his eyes had caught me in place. Before I could get out of his grip he had swiftly met his lips with mine.

I responded for just one second before harshly pushing him away from me. “Stop…just stop” I told him, my voice breaking. How could he do this when he knew how much I had to lose.  He just remained quiet, his eyes watering and his face red. I walked out of the door, leaving him and all my problems behind. Closing the door behind me, I moved in with the crowd and towards Amelia.

Aiden’s POV

During lunch it was empty, Amelia and Sienna were off doing something with some other girls and Zac and Alex were who knows where. So it was just me and Xavier which was nice but a little weird to be honest. Lunchtimes were usually with all my friends together, but I guess there would be a lot of third wheeling going on.

“Xavier, do you want to come over tonight?” I asked hopeful.

“I would love to” he said smiling cheerfully at me.

I heard a ring from a phone, it wasn’t mine though. I watched as Xavier held it to ear and listened to whoever it was on the other side. I could see Xavier’s facial expressions change and a few seconds later he had ended the call. He didn’t say much so I didn’t know what was going on, but it felt relatively important.

“Something happened to Zac and he’s really upset, I have to go talk to him” he told me, resting his hand on top of mine. I smiled a bit at his touch. 

“I’ll come with you” I said, standing up and pulling him up next to me.

“Are you sure?” he asked, stepping a little closer to me.

“Of course, we’re friends too” I said smiling, if a friend was in need I was there.

“Ok, let’s go find him” he said, reaching his hand out to hold mine. I hesitated a little before accepting it. 

I hope he Zac is ok. He’s a good guy and just the thought of him being that upset, makes me feel the same. I wonder what happened to him.

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So if you got confused, the part in Italics is a flashback to the day after Alex and Zac kissed, which happened a few chapters ago. 

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