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Jimin's POV

*ring* *ring* My alarm clock rang. I immediately checked my phone and it was exactly 2 am. Smiling dumbly like a small kid, I jumped off the bed and changed out of my pyjamas. 

The room was pure dark, but it's okay, I'm used to such situation. The time when everybody's asleep is when me and Yoongi hyung will come out and have our secret date. 

However, while I was looking in the mirror to comb my hair, I heard a slurping sound coming from behind. It's true that Taehyung and Hope hyung have abnormal sleeping habits but surely they wouldn't eat while they sleep right? (they're not Jin hyung)

Slowly turning my head behind, I made eye contact with that dark pair of eyes who was sitting on the bed. I swear that my heart stopped beating for a few seconds - not because I'm afraid of ghost or anything, yea sure totally not - but you know, I just scared maybe some fangirls would sneak into our house in the middle of the night? 

I blinked my eyes twice, and so did he, before revealing a rectangular smile. 

"Kim Taehyung!" I shouted softly, "you gave me a scare!"

"Hehe mian."

"Why- why are you here?"

"Erm...you know, feeling hungry in the middle of the night, cooked some ramyeon, together with some drama, enjoying my life UNTIL...I saw you sneaking out of your bed like some robber."

"YAH! You're gonna get fat like that!"

"What's wrong living the fat life? Abs and I never get along anyway..."

"I'm dragging you to the gym tomorrow Taetae."

"Fine fine. Anyway, why did you wake up then? You're hungry too?"

"Aniyo..."

"Then...?"

"Erm...I...err...with...with Yoongi hyung..." I stuttered.

"Ahhhhh I see. Having a date in the middle of the night huh?"

"...ne..."

"I see, goodbye then, I won't tell anyone, I promise!" Taetae gave me a thumbs up while winking, "Can you trust me~ Can you trust me~" 

Surely Taehyung isn't the most normal and serious guy in the world, but when it comes to safe-keeping secrets, he is pretty high up on the list. 

Bidding him goodbye, I quickly tiptoed out of the house, only to see Yoongi hyung standing in the cold with a gloomy expression. "You're 10 minutes late chim chim."

"Mianhe hyunggg," I pouted, "something held me back, long story..."

"And I'm probably too lazy to listen."

"Hehe, ne hyung! Kaja!"

Holding an ice-cream cone each on our hands, we proceeded to a nearby park and sat on the bench. Both of us did not utter a sound, and I'm totally alright with it. Suga hyung isn't the type of guy who like to show his affections readily, while I'm totally opposite of him. In our relationship, I will also be the one initiating kisses, hugs and secret dates. But today...it was the first time he asked me out...

"Jimin ah," he broke the silence, "you have been working hard these days."

"Huh? Why so sudden?" 

"Aniyo, I'm just...hope that everything will stay the same. Like how you will still like me..."

"Mwo yah hyung? I love you, and it will never change! I will always love you~~"

"Okay okay. Anyway...how's Kookie's neck? Everything's okay?"

"Huh?" That question took me by surprise. Kookie's neck...what happened to Kookie's neck...

"Hmmmmm," I licked my ice-cream, hopefully it would earn me some time to recall. Oh right! That night...when Kookie's 'hurt his neck'. I looked at hyung with the corner of my eyes. He was still savoring his ice-cream and probably still waiting for my answer. 

"So...?" he asked again, now staring seriously at me. 

"Errr...he...he's fine now! Yea, it was just a minor thing."

"Oh thank god, or else, you would need to help him massage every night."

"Urh ne??" I literally choked on my saliva upon hearing that, "yea...it would look too suspicious if we do it."

"Suspicious?" Yoongi hyung raised his eyebrows. Oh shit, wrong word. "Why would you think it would be suspicious?" he forced out a smile. 

"I- err- I mean...I thought you would get jealous..."

"Ohhh aniyo, I won't. But I noticed that you two like to go to the toilet together pretty often nowadays...like a music broadcast stations..."

"Err...ne, I guess so. Maybe because I have a bad stomach and Kookie always visit the toilet when he is nervous so yea, there is where we relax ourselves."

"I see. How about what happened outside the restaurant just now? You two were very engaged in a conversation."

"Hyunggg~" I pouted, "what's wrong with you today? Why are you asking so much weird questions?" 

"Nothing, I just wanna make sure there's nothing going on between you guys, right?" he stressed on the last word and it didn't sound nice at all. 

"Err...ne! Nothing's wrong with us. I'm still hyung's boyfriend and he is still...wait what? Urgh nevermind hyung, I think the ice-cream is giving me a brain freeze."

He chuckled, "oh well, it's time to head home now."

I nodded my head. My heart was still beating rapidly. Park Jimin, what's wrong with you today? What nonsense were you saying just now?? I cursed myself mentally while walking to the nearby dustbin to dump my rubbish. 

While walking back, I stared at Yoongi hyung, who was relaxing on the bench, using his phone with a emotionless expression - that's what made me fell in love with him. That's the man of my dream. Ne, he is my Mr Right. 

I took my time walking back, quietly admiring my charming boyfriend. But then, a piece of memory flew into my mind. That bench he is sitting on right now...that very spot...Kookie was sitting there few days ago, with me. 

I closed my eyes to erase that memory but sadly it didn't disappear. Instead, every bits and pieces of that episode became clearer. Instead of ice-cream, we were sharing a bar of chocolate. Dark chocolate I remember, and it was Jungkook's favourite brand. And the worst thing is...Yoongi hyung was the one who introduced me to that brand. 

Guilt overwhelmed me all of a sudden. 'Asshole' should be my middle name given the fact that I'm actually betraying Yoongi hyung. Who am I to play with two awesome guy's feelings? I questioned myself every single moment and yet, I refuse to let go of my 'two-lovers' identity. 

"Telling him the truth will hurt him more. Why not just remain like that?" was the excuse I gave myself. I swear I will love Yoongi hyung hundred or even thousand times more than how much he loves me. I swear. I tried my very best not to hurt him, yet, all because of my own desire, I'm actually letting him down. 

"Jimin! Jimin!" I came back to my sense to realise hyung had been calling me for the entire time. 

"Huh? Ne hyung?"

"You were spacing out just now...is everything alright?"

"Ne, I'm fine."

"Okay then, let's go back now."

Stopping outside our dorm, our interlocked fingers refused to let go. I held onto his hand tightly, shaking my head slightly.

"Jiminie ah, we can't go in like that."

"But hyung..." I pouted, "I don't want this to end."

"It's not gonna end pabo. You're still gonna see me tomorrow, to be exact, five hours later."

"But then I wouldn't be able to hold your hand."

"We can still meet each other in somewhere secret."

"Arraso..." I sobbed, okay I'm usually not a cry baby, but today for some odd reasons, a huge part of me just don't wanna part with hyung. 

Maybe deep inside my heart I know that maybe...probably...touch wood...this time might be our last midnight date. Yes I love the thrilling feeling when I'm with Kookie; but then the rational side of me knew that Yoongi hyung will find out about us sooner or later. And that smarter part of me tells me that he already knows something...

Suga hyung slowly force our hands apart. But right after that, I immediately wrapped my hands around him and gave him a tight hug. 

"Wae you? Why are you so clingy today?"

I buried my face in his neck and shook my head lightly, "I don't know."

"Yah, it's not the end of the world or what..."

"If it's the end of the world, at least I know that I'll be dying with you. But once we enter the house, once we go out in public, the feeling is worse than dying. Not being able to be with you...it's like hell."

"Yah pabo, seriously what happened to you today? Your love for me seems to be overflowing...so much I feel like suffocating."

"Hehe hyung, just...just promise to still love me tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow...just forever."

"Arrasoooo...be good, we reallyyy need to go in now."

"Ne." Unwillingly, I let go of him and opened the main door. 

Seeing Yoongi hyung walking back to his room, I whispered, "I really don't wanna hurt you hyung. And...I promise to love you forever."

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