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Few days later...

Jungkook's POV

After a long day of consecutive three fan signs, all of us were exhausted. But luckily, this is the end of our Japan schedule and we are headed back to Korea tomorrow. After a scrumptious dinner, we checked into a hotel with our luggage in hand. 

Waiting in the hotel lobby for our rooms, I texted Jiminie hyung secretly. 

JK: Wanna go out later?

Standing right across me, I saw how he opened the message right away and looked at me with a curious expression. "Wae?" he mouthed. 

JK: Can we go out later plsss~~?"

JM: Erm...but I'm feeling pretty tired today..."

JK:   :((

JM: Ahhh okay okay, I'll call you later ;)

I smiled at my phone and looked up, and what made me chuckled with Jimin hyung's pouting face. Ahhhh so cute!! I stick out my tongue and giggled. 

"Here is your room allocation," manager hyung nim said as everybody immediately crowd around to get our room keys.

Manager hyung said, "Room 1 we have Jin and Taehyung; Room 2 with Hoseok, Jimin and Namjoon; lastly Jungkook and Yoongi will occupy Room 3."

"Remember, please don't change your rooms," he stressed his words with a firm look. Everybody immediately exchanged glances upon hearing that unusual order. 

Not kidding, but the moment when I heard that I was sharing room with Yoongi hyung, my heart stopped a beat. We are close, seriously, but there's definitely some guilt in me after what happened with Jimin hyung. 

I was overwhelmed by mixed feelings, unable to utter a word. I took a peek at Jiminie hyung. Our eyes met, but quickly repel. Ettokae?  What about tonight?

Manager hyung went for a meeting with the other staffs while the seven of us went to take the lift.

In the lift, it was silence.

V: The rooming today...its a little bit weird isn't it?

J-hope: The two couples here (Namjin and Yoonmin) did not get to share a room like they always do.

Jin: And we're not allowed to change our rooms? Manager hyung is treating us like high school kids.

RM: I guess I know what's happening.

Instantly, everybody turned to look at the smart one of the group.

RM: I think...manager hyung knows about our relationships.

Suga: Are you serious?

RM: Just an assumption of mine but that's a possible reason right?

Jin: So what is he planning right now, after separating us?

RM: Wanting us to break up on our own probably.

"Haish..." was the only sound that filled the lift. Soon, we reached our level and everybody went to their respective rooms.

To be honest, me and Suga hyung are seriously not awkward together but after so many things happened, the atmosphere between us became a little awkward, to say the least.

Like always, Suga hyung hopped onto his bed and the next second, he was already using his computer. Definitely was he not surfing the internet, but making wonderful songs for Bangtan. While I, silently unpacked my luggage.

15 minutes later, the door bell rang. Seeing the occupied hyung sitting at a corner typing on his computer seriously, I volunteered to open the door.

It was Jimin hyung.

I froze, so did he. Nothing went through my mind. I simply stood there, probably waiting for him to make his move first.

"Who's that?" Suga hyung shouted from behind.

"Oh erm its Jimin hyung," I replied before guiding Jimin hyung into the room.

And so, the three of us awkwardly stood in the middle of the room. I felt extra, being the third party there but yet, things between them weren't that usual. Jimin hyung did not went up to hug his boyfriend; neither did Suga hyung asked Jimin hyung to give him a kiss.

While I was analysing on my own, Suga hyung broke my thought, "So what brought you here?"

Jimin: Ahhh yes, your things hyung, its all in my luggage.

Suga: Oh yeah, I totally forgot about it.

Jungkook: Mind sharing what's going on here?

Jimin: Yoongi hyung and I are sharing a same luggage since he was too lazy to bring one on his own. And so I'm here to pass him his things.

Jungkook: Sharing lugagge? Oh well...that's quite a normal thing to do for you couple.

Not wanting to bother them anymore, I went to the bathroom and locked myself in there. I hate myself for being such a sour potato. Despite feeling so damn hurt inside, I need to act like "omo you two are such a sweet couple" kinda feel. It's fake yea I know, but what can I do? This is my promise to Jimin, keeping our relationship a secret no matter what, and that's the price to pay if I'm gonna be his 'secret lover'.

I went into the shower and splashed cold water on my body. In spite turning the water on full blast, I could still hear there conversation outside.

"Hyung, you only brought two shirts, is it enough?"

"Ne, I can wear it again too."

"Okay...but your shirts are all so thin, and the weather outside is cold, be careful not to catch a cold."

"Arraso, at most...you will come and hug me, Mr body warmer."

I could imagine everything that's happening outside. Every word they said, it breaks my heart. Why can't Jimin hyung be as caring to me? Why can't I be the one who's having this mushy conversation with him? Seems like Suga hyung is much much more important to him after all.

I could no longer differentiate whether the streams on my face are tears or the shower water. And after that cold bath, I once again convinced myself that I'm just a third party in their relationship.

I walked out of the room, ensuring that Jimin hyung isn't there before heaving a sigh of relief.

"Oh Kookie, you're out," Suga hyung took a peek at me before returning his attention back to the computer.

"Ne hyung."

"Come here then. I just finished a song, wanna hear?"

"Yup sure."

"So...how's it Kookie?"

"The melody is nice but the lyrics..."

"Its about a boy knowing that his partner doesn't love him anymore and thus decided to initiate a break up."

"Seems like you're feeling inspirational hyung!"

"Ne, rare opportunity isn't it?"

"Hahaha," I laughed. The atmosphere in the room was finally lightened up and I felt much more comfortable now.

It was soon bed time and the both of us are on the bed, lights all off.

Suga: Are you asleep Kookie?

Jungkook: Aniyo, you too hyung.

Suga: Because there's something in my heart.

Jungkook: What is it hyung?

Suga: It's our three months aniversary today.

Jungkook: Oh...I see.

Suga: Can't believe we have been together for so long.

Jungkook: That means that your love for each other is strong enough to last so long.

Suga: But there's no such thing as forever you know...

Jungkook: As long as you love him and he loves you, you guys will definitely last forever.

Suga: What if he doesn't loves me anymore?

Jungkook: Aniyo it's impossible. Didn't you see how worried he was should you catch a cold?

Suga: That's just caring. Even Jin hyung does that to me everytime.

Jungkook: Jimin hyung really loves you, I swear.

Suga: I can't possibly tie him to me forever you know. It's useless forcing someone who doesn't love you to be by your side. It's torturing for both parties.

Jungkook: How is that torturing when both of you loves each other?

Suga: You don't get it Kookie. Jimin...doesn't love me as much as before already. And the both of us know the reason behind it.

Jungkook: Then make him love you back like how you did when you confessed to him.

Suga: I can't force him to love me. And it's useless when I'm the only one who wants to keep this relationship going.

Jungkook: I get your hint hyung. I think I know what to do already.

Suga: No you don't Kookie. You're interpreting it wrongly.

Jungkook: No, I know it clearly. Trust me hyung.

Suga: No you're getting it all wrong. What I mean was-

Jungkook: I'm tired hyung. Let's just end of conversation here.

Suga's POV

I turned to face the maknae, who immediately placed his blanket over his head.

"Kookie, no matter if you're asleep or not, I'm still gonna say this. Only Jimin can decide who he wants to be with and all he needs to do is to follow his heart. And there's only one person who can fits into his heart. As much as I hate to say this, as much as I want to be that special person, I don't know if I'm still his true love."

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