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Suga's POV

I looked at the clock, and it was only 3pm. Haiz, there's still two more hours before the concert...but I can't wait!! I can't wait to just step on the stage and perform to my heart's content.

Trying to relax myself and get comfortable, I leaned my head against a wall while pulling another chair to rest my legs.

At this moment, Hoseok, who was drinking his coke, approached me. Quietly taking a seat beside me, he stared at me and I can immediately tell he has something his in mind.

"Wae yo?" I asked monotonously.

"Erm...hyung..." he hestitated, "I heard something..."

"...what?"

"Just...the v app, Jimin is recording live now."

"So? Anything wrong?"

"Err...Kookie is there too, with him."

I paused for a while upon hearing that. "Oh" was the only thing I could produce. My heart stopped for a while as I looked at him blankly. Jimin is now with Jungkook... My mind couldn't help but imagine what they're doing in there right now.

"Manager hyung is the one who ask them to record it together," Hoseok quickly explained, but that didn't really help.

Nobody can change the fact that Jiminie and Kookie has a past - I hope it's really all in the past - and nobody's gonna deny the fact that because of Kookie, our relationship strained quite a bit.

I hope it's normal to feel a little bit of rivalry towards Kookie, because after all, he is the one who came between us. I hate myself for thinking Kookie is a bad guy who would snatch Jiminie away from me once again. But still...I cannot help but worry when the both of them are alone together.

Hoseok shoved his phone in front of me, and on the screen, it was their live video. Jimnie and Jungkook were squeezing on a sofa, their bodies were touching, but then, they obviously look very uncomfortable, and that actually made me heave a sigh of relief.

Jungkook forced out a smile and stared intently at the camera, or maybe to the ARMYs, as he describe how nervous and excited he is right now. Jimin, on the other hand, was holding the camera. I focused on his eyes, and saw how he tried to take quick peeks at the maknae but quickly shift it away.

To think it nicely, I'll call that respect; but to be it negatively...aniyo, I must be thinking too much. I hope Jimin...really...doesn't have feelings for him anymore.

"They look so awkward now," Hoseok commented, "See how stiff their shoulders are."

I nodded, "Ne. Is this even a good sign?"

"Hmmm...for you hyung, yes. I can see... the both of them are trying to keep a distance between each other."

"I noticed it too."

"But do you think, hyung, that they really can forget about each other?"

"Well, to be honest, I don't know," I confessed, "But I decide to put some faith in them. Kookie told me that he would back off quietly, and...he really has been trying hard these days...to avoid us..."

"Jungkookie...has really grown up..."

"Ne, I agree. I can't imagine how hard it is to forget someone you love so dearly and you need to act like idgaf to anything between him and his boyfriend. I'm very worried for him..."

"Aniyo hyung, what he's doing now...is the both for all of you three. I'm sure he will become your dongsaeng again, and not a love rival."

"I hope so too," I mumbled as I passed Hoseok back his phone, "I don't plan to watch it. I...should trust them."

With that, I smiled and exited the room. Putting my earpiece into my ears, I walked along the corridor aimlessly. "I'm sure he will become your dongsaeng again, and not a love rival..." Hoseok's words resounded in my mind. 

"I'll be waiting for that day...with Jiminie being my boyfriend and Kookie being my dongsaeng...for me, that's my happy ending. But...is this really going to come true?" I uttered.

For some reason, I arrived at the room at the corner, as known as, the Vapp room. There was a small opening on the door, looking so tempting but no, didn't I say I was gonna trust them few seconds ago?

I took one step forward, with my hand unknowingly holding onto the door knob. "Min Yoongi, are you sure what you're doing now is right? What if...what if you see something you shouldn't have? No, I should believe them, but what you're doing right now isn't trusting them at all!!"

Having this huge conflict with myself, I paced back and forth outside the room. Curiosity encouraged me to just take a quick peek at the situation inside, but conscious tells me that "Some things are better unseen".

At this moment, the door opened. The muscles in my body instantly became tense as I stood there nervously, waiting for something to happen. Indeed, Jungkook walked out, followed by Jimin. Our eyes met, and my heart just stopped a beat.

Holding my phone tightly, I forced out a smile and let out an awkward "hi?"

"Hyung, why are you here?" Jimin replied as he came to my side.

SG: Aniyo, I was just...walking past.

JM: Ahhh, I thought you were waiting for me.

SG: Aniyo! I'm not here to spot check you after knowing that you just recorded a Vapp live with Jungkook.

"Huh?!?" the two dongsaengs shouted in unison.

"Huh?" Oh shit, what the hell did I say? "I...I mean, I did not come here on purpose. Just...passing by you know."

The two exchanged glances and forced out a laugh. The atmosphere was hell damn awkward, and it's all because of me. Urghh I shouldn't have come here in the first place.

"Hyung, I'll get going first," the maknae said as he walked away hurriedly.

And Jimin, simply wrapped his hands around my arm as he leaned his head on my shoulders. As looking at how the maknae walked away briskly, we exchanged glances with me asking "How was it?" I smiled, "the live broadcast."

"It was...it was good."

"You two look hella awkward together."

"You- you saw the broadcast hyung?"

"Err..." I stuttered, shit, did I say the wrong thing again? "H-hoseok was watching and I just took a peek."

"Ahhh I see," he nodded, with a blank expression on his face. 

"Hopie has explained to me, he said that it was manager hyung who wanted you two to do the broadcast together."

"Ne hyung, there's really....nothing...between us anymore," Jimin's voice trailed off, as his eyes wandered off to the floor.

"I-I know, I believe, I should believe you."

Jimin simply gave me a nod, an insincere one I felt, as I saw how his brows knit together. He...doesn't look quite happy, and this is probably not the right time to question any further, So, in silence, we made our way back to the waiting room. 

Standing outside the dressing room, I asked, "Are you hungry, wanna grab some food?" 

"A-aniyo hyung, I'm not hungry."

"Then..."

"I think I need to reapply my make-up." With that, Jimin assured me with a smile before heading straight to one of the stylists. 

Jimin's POV

Closing my eyes while the hairstylist noona comb my hair, I recalled what happened just now...

Flashback

After pressing the stop button on the phone and ending the V app broadcast, I handed the phone back to the crew members. 

There, stood Jungkook, who was playing with his fingers at a corner. During the broadcast, we tried to look as normal as possible, and when I say normal, it means being our past selves - the hyung who's obsess with the maknae and the maknae who do anything and everything to avoid his ultimate fanboy. 

Taking a step closer to him, I tried to start a conversation with him, by saying, "Kookie...you...you seem to be very nervous."

"Ne?" he clearly looked shocked when he heard my voice. The confused expression he showed one second after did not make me feel any better. "I...I'm not," he stuttered.

"Wae yo?" I hit his chest lightly, "is it because of the concert?"

"Huh?"

"...or is it because of me...?"

"Aniyo hyung!" he quickly denied, "I have long forgotten about you..." his voice became softer with every word, and even avoided my eye contact. 

"Aniya, I was just kidding! Let's do well for the concert alright?"

"Ne hyung."

"Ja! Let's go back now."

End of flashback

I sighed, after remembering every single detail of Jungkook's troubled expression. No matter how hard I try to salvage our relationship, there's still a wall between us. Why can't he be my close dongsaeng again? The smile he used to show me whenever we meet, has disappeared. He never truly smile or laugh in front of me ever since that time, why can't things be the same way as it used to be...?

When he was still my favourite dongsaeng...or when he's still my secret lover? 

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