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Finally, its the day when Jungkook and Suga get to discharge from the hospital. The other five members had also woke up early in the morning, pretty rare though, to fetch the members back home.

Entering the private ward, Taehyung immediately rush beside Kookie. While ruffling the maknae's hair, Taehyung asked, "So, is your leg still hurting?"

Jungkook, who looked much better than yesterday, shook his head and replied, "Aniyo hyung, I can even dance to fire now."

"Andwae yo Kookie! Hurt one more part of your body and I'll chop you into pieces for tonight's dinner," Jin warned.

"It would be a golden feast then," J-hope (had to) add in one of his lame jokes.

Talking of J-hope, he was at the other side of the room, attending to Suga. Suga was resting comfortably on his bed, looking at his dongsaengs arguing and occasionally shaking his head like a grandpa.

"Where's Namjoon?" Suga asked.

"Namjoon hyung went to settle your papers for the both of you to discharge from the hospital."

And that drew everyone's attention to him - Jimin. Jimin was dressed in all black, standing at the corner of the room. He did not approach the two patients, although he's closest to the both of them.

Overlapping his hands in front, he immediately bend his head down after replying.

"Oh I see..." Suga replied awkwardly before turning away.

Finally, the lamb skewer buddies changed back into their own clothes and were bought to the entrance of the hospital, with supports from the other members. There, stood two black vans. It was surprising that fans were not gathered there, who is kinda of relieved for the boys.

With the help of J-hope, Suga got into the first van. He even claimed that thanks to the minor accident, he lost the ability to hold his bag and requested Namjoon to hold it for him.

As for patient number 2, Jungkook hung his arms around Taehyung as they made their way into the second van while discussing about the new Pokemons they caught. Jin followed closely behind, murmuring to himself how Pokemon Go is such a disastrous game which caused Namjoon to walk around the house and no longer want to spend the night with him.

And this left us with Jimin...who stood rooted in front of the two cars...

Jimin's POV

Both of the cars now have three members inside, and what should I do now? Weirdly for today, the two cars just suddenly have this nametags on it - Yoongi or Jungkook. Getting onto which car is like choosing who to be with...and that's not an easy choice to make...

I stood in between the two cars and looked at the members inside. They were chatting happily, and my absence just didn't bothered them. I didn't really mind at that moment, because right now, what I really want is silence.

At this moment, Jin hyung popped out his head and shouted, "Jimin ah, aren't you coming up?"

His shout caught the others' attention, and all six of them stared at me together. My eyes landed on Yoongi hyung first, and slowly drifting onto Kookie.

I slowly took a step backwards, for no reason, as I shouted back, "Aniyo hyung, I...I'm not gonna go back with you."

Jin hyung immediately frowned, "Wae yo?"

"I...I have some stuffs to settle...I'll be home very soon." With that, I gave them an assured smile before running away from the other exit.

Luckily I had my cap and mask with me, I put them on and was able to board the train smoothly without anyone noticing me. I looked suspicious obviously, but my outfit today is probably too dull for normal Park Jimin to be in. And yes, this whole black outfit is probably a representative of my mood right now.

Unknowingly, I found myself at our old dorm, the place where the seven of us had to squeeze in a tiny room. Initially, for us, debuting was the toughest thing on Earth; but now, for me, it's probably making a decision on what to do next.

Yoongi hyung had broke up with me, yes, but so what? I'm single now, yes, but so what? I still do not have a definite answer on who I love more. Yes, the break up affected me a lot but...I realised that finding the answer to who I truly love is the key to solving this complex triangle relationship.

I needed time to think...but things just keeps piling up. First, it was Kookie falling sick, next it was the break-up and now, the car accident...and all of these, probably happened because of me...

I'm the one who caused them to meet up, I'm the one who indirectly caused the accident, I brought nothing to them except for pain and suffering.

They shouldn't like me...they shouldn't love me...I don't deserve such love from them...it's all my fault...

Meanwhile, back at the dorm...

The car ride back home with so quiet, nobody had the mood to talk, mainly because of the abnormal Jimin today.

However, nobody dared to even say the word 'Jimin', and it's probably because either Jungkook or Suga is in the car and that word is highly censored.

Everybody were still gloomy when they reached home. Both Suga and Jungkook went back to their respective rooms to rest, leaving the others in the living room. With a single eye contact, the four of them knew what to talk about after hearing the door shut.

Positioning themselves around the sofa, the eldest hyung began, "So...what now?"

V: Jimin is not himself today.

Jin: And anybody know why?

RM: Isn't it obvious hyung? His two lovers got into an accident, and none of them directly talked to Jimin ever since.

V: Jimin looked pretty guilty too. I understand that he is keeping a distance with Kookie, but even Yoongi hyung...

JH: They broke up.

Others: MWO?!?

Jin: Shhh! Don't let them hear.

V: B-but what?!? T-they broke up?

JH: Ne, few days ago.

Jin: B-but why? Weren't they going on just fine?

JH: Apparently not.

V: Who initiated it?

JH: Yoongi hyung.

Jin: NE?!? Why would he? He loves Jimin pretty much more than Kumamon!

JH: What's the point of keeping someone that doesn't love you by your side?

V: A-are you saying that Jimin doesn't love Yoongi hyung anymore?

JH: Hmmm...that's what I guess.

Jin: So...he chose Kookie in the end?

JH: Hmmm...I'm not too sure for that. He hadn't been talking to Kookie too.

RM: Then it seems like he haven't make a decision on who to love.

JH: You know Jimin...he doesn't want anyone to be hurt...and someone's bound to get hurt if he makes a decision

Jin: But the longer he drags, the two of them inside will continue to suffer.

At this moment, the main character of this conversation entered the house. Unlike the usual Jimin who would announce his arrival, he simply took off his shoes and went to the kitchen silently.

This abnormal behaviour of his caught the members attention, followed by a 'what's going on' eye contact among them.

Eventually, after a silent scissors-paper-stone game, Namjoon stood and let out a deep sigh. Walking to the kitchen, he patted Jimin's back before saying softly, "So...everything's okay?"

"Ne hyung." Jimin's voice sounded weak and he was obviously not okay.

Namjoon then directed his head to the two bedroom doors, "They're resting inside now."

"Ne."

"It's probably a time for you to make a decision now - which room should you enter."

"I...I...I'm not ready yet hyung."

"....why?"

"I...I don't even know what's the right thing to do."

"Just make a decision and let nature take its course Jimin."

"You don't understand..." Jimin shook his head before pushing his hyung away softly.

Meanwhile, J-hope, Jin and Taehyung witnessed the not-so-smoothly-going conversation at the kitchen, followed by Jimin dragging himself back to his own room.

The trio immediately stared at Namjoon, who rolled his eyes and shrugged his shoulders. "He hasn't made a decision yet."

"Andwae yo," Jin voiced out, "I can't leave this unsettled."

V: Then...what do you plan to do hyung?

JH: Shouldn't you just let them settle their things themselves?

Jin: Aniyo...I need to do something...I can't watch those three suffer like this.

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Knocking the door three times, Jin did not bother to wait for a 'come in' before entering the room. Hunching on his bed was Jimin, looking as gloomy as ever. Sitting there hugging his pillow like a koala bear, Jimin looked up and uttered a soft "hyung".

Jin shook his head as he made his way to the bed. Resting on hand on his dongsaeng's lap, Jin began the conversation with a sigh.

JM: Hyung...

Jin: I know...you're not feeling good inside too...

JM: You- you guys...

Jin: Ne, we kinda know everything about you three already.

JM: W-when?

Jin: Long time ago~ But that's not the main point. What I was to say is, you got to do something Jimin, you can't stay here and do nothing.

JM: But...but hyung...what can I do?

Jin: Choose one to love, between Jungkook and Yoongi.

JM: Andwae yo, I can't.

Jin: Wae?

Jimin stared at his hyung in silence as a tear slowly roll down his cheeks. He doesn't like to break down in front of people, but in front of Jin, probably yes. Jin's like the mother of Bangtan, and Jimin knows whenever he has a problem, he will go talk to his mother and Jin would always help him. But this time round...Jin can't...

"I don't deserve their love hyung, I'm such a jerk..." Jimin uttered before burying his face in his hands. "I don't wanna hurt them anymore, hyung," he sniffed.

"I didn't know you were suffering too," Jin mumbled before pulling Jimin in for a hug.

"Hyung...I hate myself hyung, why do I need to fall in love with them? Why?"

"But...you can't control your feelings, Jimin. And the thing is...both of them love you equally much, and are willing to give you happiness even if they can't be with you."

"But...I don't want to hurt anyone of them. They love me so much to the extent that it pressurizes me. The accident...it's all because of me..."

"It's not your fault."

"Ani, it is. They became so awkward because of me. They met up because of me. They got injured because of me!"

"But they're not blaming you, neither are we."

"I'm the cause of all these chaos in Bangtan, hyung, everything happened because of me. Arguments between Taehyung and Hoseok hyung on who deserve my love, Jungkook excusing himself during practices because of my insensitive actions with Yoongi hyung, and Yoongi hyung writing a song about our relationship. It freaking breaks my heart when I hurt that song hyung. Let me know...ne, I can finally relate to the title, I really need someone to let me know what to do next."

"Just...just follow your heart Jimin, choose the one you truly love."

"I love them equally much hyung, that's why I want none of them to be in pain anymore. I will suffer in their place. They don't deserve all these shit, I do! I'm a indecisive, coward and pathetic jerk. I hate myself so much now, hyung."

Jin shook his head and patted his dongsaeng's back. He did not want to continue to argue back anymore. Jimin was in pain, he's overwhelmed by guilt, there's so much things for him to handle that he finally broke down.

Meanwhile, the other three were leaning against the door, eavesdropping every single word of their conversation. They heard Jimin's cries, it came a little unexpected yet...understandable.

The three boys exchanged glances, before making their way back to the living hall. J-hope let out a loud sigh, followed by Taehyung, and Rap Monster scratching his head in despair.

JH: So...what now?

V: Everything...seems like a mess now.

JH: Ne.

V: I always thought Jimin was the bad guy...but then...

RM: He didn't expect things to turn out this way too.

JH: Ne. But like what Jin hyung said, we can't drag this any further. We got a comeback scheduled, we need to go out and meet uri ARMYs. And if the relationship among the three of them remains so awkward, our fans will know...somehow...which none of us want that to happen, right?

V: Not just for our fans, I, too, don't want them to live in such a weird atmosphere for the rest of their lives. Yoonmin and Jikook used to be the most shipped couple in Bangtan...and now...

RM: Wasn't it Namjin?

JH: Yah yah yah, no need to show off how lovely you and Jin hyung are, Namjoon. Okay, back to topic, do you think...we should...help Jimin to decide?

RM: Hell no! We don't even know who he loves more.

JH: I mean...at this stage, he indeed don't know who he loves me. But we can help him. As in-

V: Flip a coin? Or ask Yoongi hyung and Kookie to play scissor-paper-stone?

JH: I'm just gonna ignore that...Namjoon, you're the smartest among us, any idea how?

"Hmmm..." Rap Monster scratched his chin and let out a smirk, "I do have one...and it's worth a try."

"What is it?"

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