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I don’t like you.” I snarled at Damian. He sighed and turned towards me.

“ You will thank me one day.” He replied.

“ For restricting me from having sex?” I said.

“ Yeah somewhat..” he said as he drove to our usual spot. The coffee shop.

“ I don’t like you.” I said again.

“ You made it clear for last fifteen minutes.” He said with a smirk. I turned towards him and glared at him.

“ Why are you doing this?” I cried out.

“ Ethan you are thinking with your dick not your head.” He said trying to focus on driving.

“ Hey! I am offering myself to you. its not something on my everyday list. It took a lot of guts, okay? And now I am embarrassed as hell cause my so called boyfriend denied me.” I snarled at him.

He sighed.

“ Are you cheating on me?” I asked narrowing my eyes.

“ What! No! Jesus! Ethan, stop it right now. Its not that. last night was not the right time, okay?! Thats it!” he cried out shocked.

“ Tell me...” I said..

“ What?”

“ Why wasn’t it the right time?” I asked he sighed again and I saw his grip on the steering wheel changing.

“ Its nothing.”

I settled on my seat and stared angrily at the front. I chewed on my lower lip trying to settle down the whirlwind inside me. It was making me frustrated and curious. Am I not good enough or something? Or those he think I am not experienced?

He didn’t want me.

“ Stop the car.” I ordered. He looked at me.

“ Ethan, seriously?” he said raising his eyebrow. I turned towards him and snarled.

“ Do I look like I am having the time of my life here?”

“ Ethan..”

“ Look into my eyes and see, Damian. Do you see I am enjoying the shitty drama you’re putting up?”  I snarled. He glared at me.

“ No? Then open the door.” I said.

“ Then jump. Because I ain’t opening the door.” He snarled back.

“ Open-..”

“ Listen here carefully, Ethan. I have my fucking reasons to what I did. So stop bitching like a whore and shut your mouth!!” he snarled clutching my wrist.

My breath hitched and I stared at him like he had just grown two heads. He stared at the front concentrating on driving while I clutched my bag thinking what had just happened.

I was feeling......... scared.

After a awkward silence, he looked at me.

“ Ethan, I-..”

“ Take me back to school.”

“ Ethan...”

“ Damn it! I said take me to school!!” I shouted followed by silence.

After the long and awkward drive, I opened the door and went towards the school without closing it.

I was having the urge to kill him right now. But for now I would go inside the school learn some lessons and steam the anger out off me.

How dare he?!

How fucking dare he?!

I clenched my fist as I walked inside the empty hall searching for my class.

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“ So he denied you from sex?” Jenna asked chewing on her twizzler.

“ And he called me whore!” I exclaimed.

“ Last time I checked you were a guy.” She mumbled.

We were sitting on the bleachers as usual. She was reading some novel and I was trying to finish my assignment. We were busy... somewhat.

“ He loves you.” she said looking away from the book. I sighed and brushed out my hair from my eyes as the day had gotten quite windy.

“ No, he does not.” I grumbled playing with my pen.

“ Ethan, that’s just your insecurity and the bitchy side talking for you. The person I know as Ethan is a hardcore one.” She said turning the pages absent mindedly. I looked at her.

“ You know he must have a reason for doing that.”

“ He called me whore.” I grumbled slowly feeling down.

“ And are you?” she asked raising her one eye brow.

“ No....” I said somehow the sense that had gone dawning on me.

“ If you are not what are you angry about?” she  asked.

“ I don’t know. I have never reacted this way ever.”I grumbled.

“ You know,” she said staring at the field. “ Sometimes its always the ones who are close to us that hurts us the most and yet they are the ones that make the pain go away and that’s the best medicine for it.”

“ You mean...”

“ You don’t know what I mean. Your reasons are different from mine. You need to figure out your shit, bro.” She said still chewing the twizzler.

“ Like?”

“ Have a concrete decisions for some things, Ethan.” She said pointing the chewed twizzler at me. “ And right now yours named Damien Steel.”

“ Jenna, I think I am not ready for this.” I said.

“ No one is ready for anything if its their first time, Ethan.” She said turning the pages again.

“ Oh god!! This is hard!!” I grumbled.

“ what?”

“ Excepting what’s inside me!! My feelings!!” I said looking at her.

“ So...?”

“ He called me whore.” I said again making her sigh.

“ Ethan, you are not!! You haven’t slept with anyone so you are out of the list.” She said.

“ I..-“

“ So you wanna break up with him?” she asked

“ NO!” I exclaimed blushing like crazy.

“ So go forgive each other.” She said, “ Sometimes things come out of your mouth that you don’t mean at all.”

I gritted my teeth and clutched my hair.

“ Uggghh!!! I am so fucked up!!” I cried out.

“ Nope! You are just gay!” she said offering me a twizzler.

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Lets talk.

Please.

-DamianXX

I am sorry, Ethan.

Call me as soon as you get this.

-DamianXX

You know I didn’t mean that.

-DamianXX

Ethan please I am sorry.

Please forgive me.

-DamianXX

Call me when you want to.

My phone will be on all the time.

-DamianXX

Still angry?

-DamianXX

You can’t be angry with your asshole right?

At least not this long!

-DamianXX

I am sorry. I really am. I shouldn’t have said that and I never meant that.

You are my special someone.

You mean a lot to me.

Forgive me? :)

-DamianXX

What the hell?!!! I close my phone for two hours and messages spurts out like fucking rainbows. My hand was shaking as I stared at my phone.

Was he serious?

I was in my room, on my bed looking at the messages in my phone. Bessie was beside me staring at me quite vacantly which was scary. Kind of.

“ Damian...” I murmured checking out all the texts he send. Umm... fifty three to be exact. His words didn’t effect me. Those hateful words he said in the car. It didn’t matter suddenly. The one who was scaring me was ,myself. My doubts and insecurities. My ‘Ifs’ and ‘Whys’. It wasn’t Damian’s fault.

I smiled as I rubbed Bessie’s ear who huffed loudly. Suddenly I heard a clink on the window making me look at my window scared.

I gulped as I shooed Bessie away and grabbed my bat near my bed.

The window opened and Damian jumped in covering my mouth before I could scream bloody murder.

“ Shhhhh!!!!” He shushed me smiling like he always did.

“ Damian-..”

“ Look! Let me speak. I know what I said hurt you a lot but I didn’t mean it I swear. It just slipped out of my mouth. I am sorry. I was just stressed and I took it out in you which I shouldn’t have. Ethan, I swear I will never do that again ever. Please, forgive me!!” He said to which I only said.

“ Only if you forgive me.”

He smiled as he kissed me slowly and sensually.

“ Just remember, small steps.” He whispered against my lips. I closed my eyes basking in his love which I had come to know in these few months.

“ Small steps...” I whispered back.

The bark in the background broke us apart and Damian laughed quietly.

“ Hello Bessie.” He said cooing her.

I sighed as I got up from the floor and stared at him.

“ We could have this talk tomorrow you know.” I said settling down on bed.

“ I could have but there was exactly seven hours within which I could have let you slip away from me.” He said coming towards me.

“ Ethan, Why is Bessie barking out loud??!!” dad asked from downstairs.

“ Nothing, he just saw a bat from the window.” I said to which he replied okay.

Damian smirked as he said, “ A bat?”

“ Yup a big ugly bat.”

“ Come here you.” with that he pounced on me making me chuckle.

“ A big baby bat!!” I said as I got pinned on my bed by him. He loved me. I could see it in his eyes.

“ Your bat?”

“ My bat...” I said as we kissed slowly opening our mouths. Our tongues caressing each others. I was pulling him towards me by his hair. He was biting my lower lips gently making me squirm. His hands slowly reached my butt squeezing it roughly as he could making me whimper. I knew my face was flushed as I could feel the heat between us.

“ Mine.” He whispered to me before kissing me again.

I pulled him again and I explored his chest and his abs slowly making him gasp and grunt like a horn dog.

So this is how it felt to love your lover. Oh god!

Suddenly, Bessie came in between breaking us apart again and Damian laughed rubbing her head.

“ Alright, I will let you be the cockblock tonight.” He said looking at Bessie and then at me.

“ I guess we could talk now...”  he said.

I nodded.

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“ I don’t want to know, Damian” I said settling on my bed. He sighed.

“ But-..”

“ No! Whatever you have. The reasons. Keep it with you.” I said stopping him from saying anything.

“ Ethan..”

“ Damian, I am serious. I don’t want to hear. You want me. Thats all I want to know.”

“ Are you serious?” he asked leaning on my wall.

“ Yeah. Its just my doubts and stupid bitch mode I have thats talking.” I said quoting Jenna.

“ So everything is cool between us.” He asked.

“ Ya, Damian. Everything is cool.” I said.

“ Still I am sorry.”

“Okay, Damian. You don’t have to apologize to me. I am a guy for godsake and guys trash talk each other. Think it that way.” I said with a shrug.

“ Damn. What did I do to deserve you?” he asked embracing me.

“ What all good fuckers do, I guess.” I said smiling.

“ Ethan...”

“ Hmmm...”

“ You are right till now about everything you said and I know it.” He whispered.

“ And?”

He chuckled.

“ You are just wrong about one thing.” He said.

“ Okay, what is it?”

“ I don’t want you.” he said.

My blood went cold from the head to bottom.

“ Now now just hold on..” he said seeing my expression.

“ I don’t want you Ethan. I need you.” He said with a weird smile in his face making my face twist.

“ You mean...” I tried to analyze the impossible. He could not be... not telling me that- he is- . I am assuming things. I stared at him blankly waiting for the next words. Bessie looking at both of us wagging her tail. Silent night.

Holy night.

He smiled and said, “ you guessed it right! Ethan Salt, I am deeply in love with you from the moment I saw you. You make me so happy. I love you.”

There he said it.

I love you too.

Of course , I didn’t say that out loud.

I was one hell of a coward.

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