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I sat down quietly on my chair in the kitchen next morning. I didn't sleep all night, more like stared at the phone debating whether to call him or not. I voted the later at last. I was feeling so bad for what I did to him. Because I could not keep my fucking mouth shut. I was feeling so..... I don't know..

This feeling wasn't familiar. I was wanting to go out and scream for him. To come back and take me with him wherever he wanted. I just wished this never happened, this stupid fight.

He had brought me an Ipad. It had a small sticky note where he wrote this was to just skype properly whenever he went abroad for whatever reasons. I wont lie. I had tears in my eyes after reading that.

" Ethan, what happened with you and Damien?" dad asked as he passed me some pancakes.

I shook my head.

Weakly.

" I heard you two arguing last night. He didn't look too well yesterday when he left. Did you hit him?" he asked making me frown at him.

" For once Dad, could you not think of me as a street gang fighter or a thug?! There are things when I am not responsible for okay?!! I am not always the one who cause problems in everybody's life!!" I snapped making dad shocked and Cecily crying.

" Ethan..."

" I am going to school. Don't bother the lunch money." I grumbled grabbing my back pack. I slammed the door and ran towards school.

I never felt so neglected and hurt in my life. Not even when my mom died. That bastard. That devil! It was all his fault. He was the one who started all this and I don't even know why I was the one suffering.

This feeling wasn't good. Wasn't good.

I reached school in some minutes as I was running very fast to throw out my emotions. Jenna arrived shortly after I did and we went class together.

What went inside after that changed my whole life. Matthew Sanders.

Fucking Matthew Sanders.

" Here comes the Fairy!!" he shouted and everybody in the whole class laughed. I could feel Jenna tense beside me. She could see what was coming. Fuck! I could see what was coming. But how the fuck...?!!

I glared at him as he strotted towards me. I gritted my teeth as he came face to face with me and smirked.

" So now I know why the fuck did this little shit came up to fight with me the whole time?" he shouted to the whole class to which his friends snickered.

He chuckled and pushed me back that was out of the class. The students walking in the corrider paused to see what was happening. I could see guys and girls staring at me. I looked at Jenna who was coming towards me.

" What are you? his dyke friend!!" Matthew snarled at her to whichshe glared at him.

" Leave her the fuck alone." I growled at him. He turned towards me and smirked.

" Oh! And here I thought his mouth was stuffed with cocks. Bet his mouth was watering whenever we went hand in hand." He snarled. I pushed him back towards the wall. The whole crowd gasped as they gathered around.

" Listen you dipshit! If you think you are gonna get high and mighty by doing this, you are just fucking wrong, you hear me!!" I shouted at him.

He laughed as he got me off him.

" Ethan stop!!" Jenna cried pulling me towards her. I was pissed. Way pissed. No one could stop me! No one.

" The faggot ain't got the balls to face us. He thinks sleeping with the teacher is gonna bring some for him. Well, guess what!!" Matthew said as he approached me again.

" A faggot will always remain a Faggot." He snarled.

Fuck. This. Shit.

I shoved Jenna out of the way and punched Matthew right on the nose. There were screams and shouts of 'Oh,shit' everywhere. I dived on top of him and punched him again and again and again till he kicked me off him making me dash on the locker nearby. I could feel the blood flowing down my nose but I had other things in mind. Matthew shoved me back in the locker again and again. I kicked him in the shin and back kicked him on the stomach. He growled and kicked me down on the floor making me groan in pain.

I screamed as I got up and shoved him down to punch him again on the face.

" Fuckers, beat the shit out of him." Matthew snarled at his minions who pulled me away from him and gripped my hands and face so Matthew could have a punch. A nice punch. He was looking bloody and got a swollen eye. His head was bleeding and was groaning in pain. His minions started punching and kicking me. I tried my best to get out of the grip but in vain. I could hear my bones cracking somewhere.

Crowds were screaming for them to stop. Some were calling for teacher.

" Enough!!" I could hear someone scream to which everybody scurried away. I could feel the minions' grip go loose to which I took the advantage and kicked one of them under the chin which was a bad idea because I might have broken a bone in that leg. I punched the other one nonetheless and headbutted the other in the back. I staggered away to beat the hell out of Matthew but somebody caught my fist and pulled me back.

" Let go of me!!" I screamed as I turned back to beat the shit out of that person but I stopped in the middle. I looked at the pair of familiar eyes and facial features. I gulped.

" You stop the hell now, boy before I expel you from this school." Snarled Coach Steel.

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" You lost a tooth." Jenna said as she brought some more cottons and bandages for me.

" Which one?" Asked trying to feel my teeth with my tongue. She gave me my tooth and I found out it was a molar.

Damn.

My two ribs broken, femur fractured and two fingers broken. A swollen eyes and cuts and bruises everywhere. I could feel my jaws swelling and it was difficult to speak.

" You are lucky this school have a zero tolerance on ragging/bullying especially on sexual orientation." She said sitting beside my bed.

I sighed as I laid on the bed slowly. My body was aching like hell.

" You are called later to the office, they wanted me to inform you." she said bandaging my elbow.

" Ow! Thats why you were late?!" I said to her. She shook her head.

" I was breaking up with Mike." She said to which I choked in air.

" W-what?!" I stammered. She shrugged finishing the dressing.

" He was acting weird. Telling me you were wrong choice of friend and whatever." She said.

" Really?" I muttered keeping a note to have a talk with that shit when I thought he was a great guy.

" I told him you were not and he started arguing telling me it was him or you." she said.

" Wow, he gave you the ultimatum." I said looking at her. She smiled and shrugged.

" You were there when no one was. You cared for me when no one asked me. You like dicks and yet you cared for me, so yeah you won the vote." She said.

I smirked at her even though it was painful and said, " So you voted me because I was there for you without any intention to hump you."

" And you are going college with me!" she pointed out.

" And I am going college with you." I stated again nodding. She laughed and caught my hand.

" You are my friend, Ethan.." she said, " in fact, more like a brother."

" Well, I am awesome." I said making her laugh again.

" No you are not." She said laughing.

I smiled and squeezed her hand.

" So how did you feel meeting your father in law?" Jenna asked excited.

I cringed and bit my lips. I looked anywhere but her. She narrowed her eyes and stood up.

" Ethan, what happened?" she asked.

My face went gloomy as she asked again.

" We broke up." I said making her gasp.

" What!" she shrieked.

Before I could say anything, the office secretary appeared on the door and glared at me.

" Principal Knight once you in the office. You can take your time." She said and went out.

" She hates me." I stated.

" She hates everybody." Jenna said and helped me stand up.

" This conversation is not over." Jenna said in a harsh whisper as she helped me up to the office which was not far away.

I took a deep breath as I opened the door to the office. There stood the principal, Matthew Sanders and his minions, Coach Steel and................ my dad.

Shit.

" Come in, Ethan. Take a seat." Principal Knight said.

This was the moment of truth.

My dad was shocked to see my state. His face said it all. He just stared at me and then at the bullies who were just staring the floor. Coach Steel stood at the corner glaring at me folding his arms at his bulky chest.

" So lets summarise the matter." Principal said. " From the witnesses there, it seems Ethan started the fight and Matthew and his friends were provoked."

" Bullshit." I muttered from my seat.

" Ethan." Dad scolded from his place to which I only glared at my plaster arm.

" Ethan, we will hear your side of story but first I want to ask you." she said looking at me. " Did you started it?"

" They provoked me." I snarled. No one said a thing.

" From Mr. Andrew Steel, you were punching the three guys around you." she said looking at those guys.

" You said you would here my side." I snarled.

" Ethan!" Dad scolded again.

" Very well, lets hear it then." She said putting her pen down. I told them everything. Everything that happened in the morning.

" This all happened because of your sexual orientation." She stated. I nodded.

" Faggot." Matthew murmured to which he got a shove by the neck from Coach Steel.

" Matthew it seems you were bullying him for being gay. You know rules and policy right? I have to expel you." Principal Knight said to which Matthew stood up and shouted 'No!'

" Matthew, calm down."

" Its not my fault. I swear, I didn't even know that he was. This girl came to me and showed me this video where he was kissing Damien Steel and told me to harass him because he was just playing with boys like this and turning them gay. She told me that and I got scared, I swear. I swear I didn't intend to. I-.."

"Damian..." Coach Steel murmured and glared at me. I gulped.

Shit!

Shit!

Shit!

" Were you having a relationship with Damien Steel, Ethan?" Principal asked me looking shocked.

"Who showed you the video?" Coach Steel asked Matthew.

" Some Diana chick. While I was in practice, she came and told me those stuff. I swear, I didn't mean too." Matthew whimpered.

" Diana..." Coach Steel murmured covering his mouth. He looked at me like I had grown a third eye and opened his mouth like a fish.

Coach Steel went out quickly slamming the door.

My dad had his head down covered by both his hands. He looked.... tired.

I stood up and took a deep breath.

" Yes, I had a relationship with Damien Steel. It went out for Six months. I loved him and so did he. We had some problems and we broke it up just last night. Yes, I am gay. That doesn't mean I shove a whole lot of cocks into my mouth.." I said glaring at Matthew who was looking at me. I pointed at him and said, " I don't like you. I can still beat the shit out of you so don't call me Fairy."

" Language, Mr. Salt." Principal scolded me to which I apologized.

" Dad." I called out to him. He slowly looked at me. I sighed.

" I am sorry. I turned out like this, causing trouble, getting into fights, rebellious but dad, I am and will be your son. Deep inside, I want to try hard for life because I know how hard its going for you and...."

He was staring at me as if I had spoken some another language.

" I love you dad." I said, " So don't worry."

He sniffed and looked at the ground but when he looked up he was smiling.

" Lets go home, son." He said.

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Turned out I was suspended for the whole semester and was only to appear on the examination day and on graduation day. Dad was okay with me being gay but he didn't like the fact I beat the shit out of four guys at the same time. He was blaming my mother on this.

He was disappointed I didn't come out early and I was having a relationship with a older guy.

Somewhere I heard him mutter ' I wish you were still dating him. At least we would be related to celebrity." And the worst part, was the sex talk. Which would have been unnecessary cause we didn't pass that stage. He put me in two tuitions and yeah, I was grounded for like whole time.

He appointed me for Bessie's poop, Cecily's trip to day care and dinner. So yeah, he practically abused me with that whole you-got-in-the-fight-and-you-didn't-tell-me-you-were-gay card but I was happy even if I had to mow the lawn or study my ass out, my dad was happy for the first time. I was doing something good.

Jenna visited me all the time and we had group study. We would play my Xbox and just chat about the stuffs she had to say to me.

Apparently, she found a new boyfriend who was going to an art college in New York and they both had same taste in stuffs. His name was Kurt or something. I was happy for her.

As for Damien.

I hadn't seen him for two months and I missed him so much. I didn't have the guts to call him. I would sometimes space out imagining him coming back and talking to me. I wasn't over him. I still loved him and he was somewhere I didn't know.

I was writing an essay on civil war that Dad called me down urgently.

" This better be important dad. If you show me that cat playing piano again-..." I muttered going down that he ran for his car keys and cried out, " Andrew Steel just called and wants to meet us. He said to bring the whole family. He gave me his address and told me he wanted to talk to you."

Why the hell did Damien's father want to meet me? In the middle of the night.

And here I was thinking to move on.

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Just four more chapters and I am done!

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