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"Oi brat. You're getting my shirt all wet." Levi said as I was crying on him.

"S-sorry. I-I j-j-it's can't stop c-crying." I sobbed, lifting my head off him. I need to calm down. God though. That was horrible. I hate how all my dreams feel so real. I wiped my eyes. "Sorry." I apologised again, taking a deep breath and getting up, feeling a bit dizzy but I tried to ignore it.

"It's fine." Levi said, taking off his shirt. He's so hot. I had to turn away because I was blushing like hell. "W-why are you stripping?" Mental face palm. Seriously Eren? Way to be forward.

"I'm just changing my shirt. No need to shit yourself over it." He replied, putting on a clean, black shirt. Aww. I was a little disappointed but then I shook my head and took out my phone to look at the time. 1:47pm. What? I slept in? I felt like I had over stayed my "visit". I got up.

"Thank you Levi. So much for everything. I know I've been a bit of a burden but I'm really grateful. I don't know when I'll see you again so goodbye for now." I said. In all honesty, I wanted to get home safe and sound so Mikasa wouldn't kill me more than she already will. Also, like I said, I didn't want to bother him(as much as I would love to stay) I have to leave.

"Oi brat. Don't go just yet." I heard him say as I started heading towards the door. I stopped and turned my head so I could see him.

"Yeah? What is it?" He stared at me for a few seconds before saying "believe it or not, brat, I don't do what I did to you to a lot of people. I don't know why I took you here after you passed out but I did. You seem different is all I'm trying to say."

"Thank you?" I had no idea how to respond. I was about to leave but he started talking again. "Wait. I'm not done yet."

"Ok." I stood opposite Levi. He took out some paper and scribbled something down. "My number. If you ever need help, give me a call." I took the paper thanking him and saying goodbye. That was not like him. He's usually not like that, open and everything. I wonder what that was about. Could it be that he... please please please let it be that. Please. I opened the door to leave when I saw the village. It made me feel sick, looking at the walls. The village looked so old but I could see that further down, towards wall Rose, it would get more modern. So this part hasn't been updated yet. It makes me feel sick. Too real. It's too real. I ran out of the Wall Maria, feeling dizzy. Flashes of the dream started to come back and it made me feel more nauseous. Images of limbs, lying on the grounds I was running on came into my mind. Blood smeared all over the walls. My mother being broken in half then... I got to the river and threw up. I hated it. Why was I getting these images? All the thoughts I was pushing away were coming back. The thoughts about my "made up world" being real. I wiped my mouth and walked slowly and carefully to my house. I fumbled for my keys when I realised I left them inside. Idiot. How could you forget your keys? There should be a spare one around. I looked under the mat. No. Then I found a golden key, attached to a string, hanging on a hook behind a flower pot. Jackpot. I opened the door and put the key around my neck. This way I can't forget it. (See what I did there? 😉) I walked to the sofa and just lay there, trying not to be sick again. I took out my phone and texted Mikasa.

I'm home.

New message by Mikasa

I'm coming soon. I get off early today. You have a lot of explaining to do.

Ok

I turned off my phone when I remembered. Levi's number. I put his number into my phone. Should I text him? No. He's probably had enough of me. I'll probably see him tomorrow anyway. I closed my eyes but stopped myself from falling asleep. I was too afraid to. But every time I shut my eyes, I would see those gory images. I had to get rid of them. Then I had an idea. I'll draw them. That way they will stop floating around in my head. I took out my sketchbook and started drawing. It was an image of a Titan eating my mum. This was a terrible idea. I'm going to be sick. I ran to the bathroom and threw up again when I heard the door slam. "Eren. Eren I'm home." I heard Mikasa say as I rinsed my mouth and walked out feeling unwell. I picked up my sketchbook and threw it at the other side of the room, curling up into a ball muttering "I'll kill them. I'll kill them all." I didn't know where the words came from. They just fell out of my mouth.

"What? Eren. What are you going to kill? Ugh. And don't throw things around th-" she stopped when she looked at my sketch. "Th-this is..."

"Mikasa." I said, barely a whisper. She held me tightly in her arms. "Tell me everything." So I did. From the moment I drew Levi to where I was now. I told her about my crush, our encounters, how the world I thought I made up was real, the dreams and images I had. Everything. After I finished, we stayed silent for a while. "I'm sorry Eren. I had no idea."

"It's not your fault." I tried to get up but fell back down again.

"Don't strain yourself. Here." She lifted me up and put me on the sofa, covering me up with a blanket. "Get some rest."

"Mikasa, I'm... I can't. I just-"

"Shh. Try. Please."

"Ok." I lied.

"I need to go back to work. They've just contacted me. I'll be gone for a while. Will you be ok?"

"Yeah." I lied again. I waited until she left the house when I took out my phone and texted Levi.

Hey.

I closed my phone and stared at the ceiling, afraid to get to sleep. Afraid to dream. I tried to fight the drowsiness. I wanted Levi to text me back so I had a reason to stay awake. When I thought I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer I heard a buzz.

Brat. Is that you?

I read it with relief and smiled.

Yeah it's me. Eren.

Hey

Levi can I ask you something? I typed these words, wondering if I should send them. I didn't want to trouble him but he did say to contact him if I ever needed help so I hit send.

Sure. What's up Jaeger?

Have you ever had a dream/nightmare that felt so real it was almost like a memory?

Are you alright?

I'm fine. Just answer my question. Please. He didn't reply for a few minutes. He must've thought I was crazy.

No. I haven't. Why?

Never mind. Forget it.

I won't. I answered your question so answer mine. God you really are a brat.

Fine. And I'm not a brat.

Yes you are. Hurry up and answer my question. Why'd you ask?

I've been having those lately and now I'm afraid to get to sleep. Help. I don't know what I expected. For him to come over? He wouldn't know the place that well. He called my side "the outside" or was that also a dream?

Where'd you live?

You wouldn't be able to find it if I told you.

Brat please. I'm not stupid like you. I think I'd be able to. Believe or not I've been to what you call "your side" before.

Ok. So I gave him my address, doubting he'd actually come. I closed my phone and gave up. I couldn't fight the sleep. I was so tired even though it was only 3pm. It had been twenty minutes since I texted Levi when I heard a knock on the door. I groaned as got up to open it.

"I'm coming." I opened the door and saw Levi standing there. I was speechless. I didn't know what to say.

"Aren't you going to let me in?"

"Right. Sorry." I let him in and heard him mutter "this place is filthy. Dust everywhere." I sat on the sofa and wrapped the blanket around me. Levi sat beside me. He's here. He's really here. "You actually came." I whispered.

"Tch. Of course I did. I'm not someone to say I'll do something then not do it."

"I know. It's just...I don't know. It's hard to believe."

"Whatever brat. What'd you want me to do?"

"What do you mean?"

"You asked me for help. What do you want?" He said, lying back on the sofa, staring ahead. I want you to kiss me. Woah Eren. Calm down.

"I don't know." Then I muttered "You being here is enough."

"Why me? Don't you have other friends?"

"Well yeah."

"So why ask me to come? Your friends are probably a lot more tolerant."

"I don't know." I had no idea what to say. I felt my self slip away. Oh no.

"I'm going to fall asleep."

"Then fall asleep."

"But..."

"What is it now?" He snapped.

"I I'm kind of...afraid." I mumbled the last words.

"Afraid?" He said.

"You don't know what it's like. The gore. It's sickening."

"Is that why you were crying earlier today?"

"Yeah..." I was kind of telling the truth. I mean it wasn't the gore, it was the fact Levi wanted to kill me but I didn't want him to know I had a dream about him. He sighed then pulled my head to his chest. What is happening? I blushed, slightly confused.

"Levi...what are you-?"

"Shut up and sleep." He's trying to comfort me? He acts cold but I know he cares. Deep down. He might not think of me like I think of him but he cares. I can tell. Otherwise he wouldn't be here. And for the first time in a while, I fell into a peaceful, dreamless sleep, Levi holding me in his arms.

(AN: There. Done. Sorry I took longer than usual to update. I was being lazy😁. Sorry 😊. Thank you all so much for reading. I know it's not as good as other fan fics but I'm trying. Hope you enjoyed it.)

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