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    Levi and I ran through the city, me leading the way, as the cold and icy water droplets came rushing down on me all at once. It wasn't too bad. More like refreshing. Levi, however, didn't seem to like it at all. He reminded me of a cat. Shy, cold, and hates the rain. Hahaha. Yep. That's his spirit animal. We ran through the path leading to the forest, the trees sheltering us a little for they were arched over us. I looked at the trees as I was running because I had never seen this place in the rain. It still looked beautiful.  Each water drop would land on one of those emerald green leaves, sliding down to the edge before falling to the ground. The trees' leaves would shine, due to the rain.

There was no wildlife around apart from the colonies ants, roaming the ground with their leaf umbrellas. Suddenly there was a huge gush of wind, causing the tress to shiver, their rain drops falling and lading on us. "Tch. Hurry up. I'm getting soaked." I heard Levi say. I didn't want to hurry up. I was still running but I was slowing down a little. Yes it was selfish but I loved the sight although I didn't want Levi to kill me so I ran a bit faster. Finally we arrived at the bridge. I didn't realise how tired I was until I stopped running. My heart was beating in my throat and my legs were exhausted. I used the bridge as support to catch my breath. Levi ran across the bridge to the other side. He stopped at the end and looked at me. My heart was starting to beat faster and it wasn't because I was tired. He still looked so beautiful. Even soaking wet. In fact in my eyes he was more beautiful then usual, like everything else here was in the rain. His hair had water droplets. His lips were redder and looked softer. His eyes with the reflection of the forest looked amazing. Everything about him. I didn't want him to leave. I could call him when I got home but he'd think it would be weird since we just saw each other. How long am I going to be able to hold in my feelings? Not long, I can tell myself that now.

"Oi brat."

"Not a brat"

"Today was nice. We should do it again sometime." He said then turned to run off.

"WAIT!" I shouted to him. What am I doing? Why did I say that. No no. I can't take it back now.

"What?"

"I-I have to tell you something." No. No. Stop. Stop. Make something up. Um... I had fun too. Yeah. Say that. But I ignored my thoughts and kept going.

"What?"

"I-I um..." I put my head down to hide my blush. ok. If you're going to do this, pull yourself together. You can do this Eren. Yes you will probably get rejected but then you'll never know what would've happened if you keep them inside. There will be a time when you can never say them and be hurt over it. He has to know. He has to. No matter what.

"Levi? I-I..."

"Oh my god. Just spit it out already." He snapped. I lifted my head up, fists clenched, eyes closed, water flying off my hair.

"I love you Levi!" I kept my eyes shut. I can't believe I just said that. But then I heard a voice say

"Tch. I don't have time for this." Then footsteps drowning away from the rain. I opened my eyes to see that Levi had left. Tears started to brim up in my corners of my eyes. My heart felt like a million spears had attack it all at once. "I-I love you." I whispered, feeling my tears falling in sync with the rain. "I can't. I-I can't..." my hands were trembling and my vision was getting blurred by my tears. I looked at my hands and I fell to my knees, staring are here Levi was. The words kept ringing in my head, over and over like it was some broken record. "I don't have time for this." My tears kept coming and coming and before I knew it, I started to sob, my face buried deep in my hands. "Why?" I whispered. "Why?!" I shouted out to the sky. "What was I to expect? For him to say 'I love you too Eren.' Then we all live happily ever after? No Eren. That's not how life works. That's not how FUCKING LIFE WORKS!" I cried out, unable to control myself. I lay down by the bridge, crying and crying, my stomach feeling like somebody had grabbed all my insides and was swirling them around. My heart felt like it was being torn apart. My body felt tired. I couldn't move. I didn't know what to do. I let the mud swallow me into the ground, not caring if I I'd never come back again.

"God. Why is this effecting me so much? He's just some guy who I felt a strange connection with then ended up falling in love with. Nothing special at all." I cried harder. "It's not like he's made a big impact on my life or anything. All he did was confuse me. It's probably for the best. But...not even a proper answer." I took out my phone to check the time. It was only 2:00. I still had the whole day. I couldn't just sleep because I wasn't tired. I just stayed there until the rain stopped. "Hm." I looked at the sky and saw the sun peaking through. "I'll go home." I got up and slowly walked home. I didn't care anymore. If he doesn't want to see me then that's his problem not mine. I shouldn't waste my time with him.

I arrived at home and took out my key from my shirt. I unlocked the door and took my shoes off, going upstairs to take a shower. I was filthy. I got into the shower, letting myself drown in thought. I got out and put a change of clothes, putting my dirty ones in the wash. I felt a lot better. I looked at my phone and saw a text message.

Levi.

Meet me at the bridge. Now.

What? I texted him back.

Why?

Because.

Because...

I'll tell you when you get there.

Fine.

What could he want? I got up, took my keys and phone, put another pair of shoes on since the ones I was wearing before were soaked. I left the house and started heading to the forest, dreading what was coming.

(AN: I hoped you enjoyed this chapter. It broke my heart to write it. It will get better. I promise. Is it going to fast or too slow? Please comment on what you think. I'd love to hear my readers opinions. Thank you for reading. 😊)

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