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Heyy

Well my birthday is over now and this is the second part, didn't take that long i suppose, but I couldn't decide what to write for this part, hope you like it :D Sorry it took longer than expected.

Paradise <3

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Chapter Two

New Years Day

I put everything into that one kiss, it was magical and it fulfilled my emptiness within me

The kiss lasted just seconds, before he pushed me away lightly and stepped away from my grasp.

My mouth hung open from the unexpectedness; H-He kissed me! Me! I felt lightheaded and on top of the world. 

I could feel a frown forming on my face, he's walking away from me.

"Xavier! XAVIER!" I called as he walked away quickly into the crowd.

He was gone just like that. Why did he kiss me? Too many possibilities ran through my head but new years kisses usually don't mean anything.

I unconsciously stepped backwards into a kissing couple. I regained my footing and turned around. Revealing my two best friends kissing. 

I chuckled quietly to myself and smiled at the sight of them, looks like he got a boost of confidence and decided to take a chance.

Alex opened his eyes slightly and I winked at him, causing him to redden a little. I smirked in his general direction before moving through the crowd towards my bedroom. Unlocking the door; I collapsed on the bed, feeling tired already. I felt totally out of it. Could one kiss really do that to a person?

What kind of party animal am i? A love-struck one I believe. What a party pooper.

I have no idea why I'm getting so worked up about him, Xavier...I can't be falling for him already, it's impossible!

Could this be love at first sight? No! I don't even know him.

Stupid internal mind battle. I'm talking to myself!

I didn't give him the ideal first impression, but he still kissed me...what could this mean, did the kiss mean anything to him, was he just teasing me, playing along, did he even like boys?

Even though, I couldn't stop thinking about him. My mind has been flooded with glimpses of him.

But, staying here in bed wasn't going to solve anything. So I left my room locking it behind me, had to make sure no one else came in my room.

I walked down the stairs slowly and I noticed that the noise levels have died down a bit. Most people were either, drunk, asleep or making out.

Feeling lonely, I stepped around bodies, peering at their faces, trying to find my friends and the birthday girl. I checked in every room, except one.

Climbing back up the stairs, I paused in front of my sister's bedroom door, I put my ear on the door hearing voices inside. Familiar voices rang out loud and clear.

I raised my hand to open the door handle but my hand brushed someone else's. I bit my lip, as my body shuddered noticeably from the little touch. Could it be?

I closed my eyes for a second, trying to compose myself, I took a few deep breaths and turned around. Turning to face none other than.

Xavier.

My eyes widened, it was him and he wasn't wearing a shirt. My eyes narrowed thinking about the possible perpetrators.

"Xavier, what are you doing?" trying to keep an even voice and stop myself from drifting off into my imagination. His name was so perfect for him, Xavier...

He looked pretty normal, considering we just kissed not long before Would  avoid me and or ignore it ever happened.  I had so many unaskable questions for him.

I need to slow down, a lot. I'm getting ahead of myself, I can't fall for him. He may be straight, I didn't know for sure. 

I could hear his mellifluous voice, my mind was melting from it, he was calling my name, he said it particularly loud one time and I suddenly snapped out of it.

"Whaaa?" I said blinking a few times, to clear my eyesight.

"What just happened to you?" he asked perplexed.

"Um I-I-I..." My mind went blank, what can I say!

I quickly opened the door and hurried in, leaving him at the door. I turned to take a quick look at him and tripped backwards over someone on the floor.

I fell on my ass, my eyes slightly watering. I turned red from embarrassment; my eyes were only on Xavier. He was trying to hold in his laughter, I turned my head downwards, trying to stop myself from crying. I hardly ever cry and I didn't want to cry in front of my crush.

I realised there were others in the room, my best friends, my sister and Zac, the one I tripped over.

"Um... what are you guys doing?" I ask, evening out my breathing, brushing a few escaping tears away and trying to look normal.

They had concerned looks on their faces, but they dismissed it when I gave them a small smile. It was just a moment of weakness.

"Well, we're playing a game, want to join us?" Sienna asked.

Xavier came in and sat down next to me, with Zac on my other side.

Amelia had an almost creepy grin on her face, very suspicious.

She locked eyes with mine, "Who did you kiss at midnight?".

The memory of the kiss, had my face reddening, "Um... I-I-I...".

"Spit it out!, who was it?" she said teasingly.

"It was...it was..." I quickly glanced at Xavier who had an emotionless expression. I wasn't sure if he wanted others to know. I mumbled it out quickly, with no one hearing.

"Tell us who it was, we'll keep it between us" she pleaded, pouting for effect. 

"It was...Xavier" saying the last bit quietly, I looked down at my lap. Hearing gasps of surprise and disbelief.

I bit my lip and looked at Xavier, he had an annoyed expression. I gulped not wanting to hear what he was going to say.

"That is an complete lie!" he practically shouted. His words were like a stab into my heart. I bit my lip harder, concentrating my eyes on the floor. I could feel tears forming. I quickly looked up to the ceiling trying to hold my tears back.

How could he say that! He was the one that kissed me and yet he is outright denying it. He didn't push me away angrily, shout at me or glare when our kiss ended. So why was he acting like this now?

With my tears disappearing I looked up at my friends. They looked torn between who to believe in this circumstance. I sighed and turned towards Alex.

Trying to appear normal after my internal breakdown I smirked at him, "Who did you kiss?".

He blushed immediately and turned to Amelia, she had a slight blush on her face.

"Ohhh did you two kiss" teasing them, trying to block out what I was really feeling to them. In reality, on the inside I was feeling the worst, the absolute lowest low.

From the atmosphere I was feeling, it seemed like the kiss didn't mean as much to Amelia than it did to Alex. The room was becoming pretty tense by the sounds of it. Awkwardness was seeping in.

"Ok, my turn to ask!" Sienna announced.

"But its my turn!" Alex cried.

"It's my birthday, so shut up Mr Kissy Liplocker"

Everyone burst out laughing, except Alex who just pooled in utter embarrassment. He glared at her and turned away trying to stop blushing.

"Xavier you have to kiss someone in this room"

My heart dropped at her request, who will he kiss?

He locked eyes with mine, eyes understanding I closed my eyes leaning into him. But I ended with my head on the floor. My face heated up in embarrassment, I looked up hoping that no one saw.

But everyones eyes were on me, Xavier had in fact been going in to kiss Amelia. I could see that everyone was trying to stifle their laughter for my sake.

I felt tears at the corner of my eyes and my embarrassment was rising higher. Turning my back on them, I frowned and the tears escaped, leaking out.

I could feel Zac shaking as his laughter couldn't be held in any longer and he burst out laughing. In turn the rest of them started laughing as I felt like a total idiot.

I stood up in a hurry, pushing Zac and Xavier out of the way as I ran out of the room, hearing them calling out my name but not stopping.

I opened my bedroom door and locked it behind me. Leaning against the door for a moment trying to stop the tears flowing but it was no use.

I slumped on the bed, letting my tears run loose.

That was the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to me. I'm such as idiot to have thought Xavier would have kissed me over everyone else in the room. Did he do that on purpose, fake like he was going to kiss me but to kiss Amelia. What did Alex think about this?

Didn't they have any sympathy for me? I sniffled and buried myself in my covers, hugging the pillow towards myself.

I could not face him after this, our relationship has not even started yet and its already ruined.

I know that it's not that big of a deal, but it's just that every time I see him I make a big fool out of myself. Can't I act cool and composed at least once around him?

My life is over. I feel like such a drama queen and over a guy too , it's just a guy I said trying to believe that.

I closed my eyes and slowly drifted off to sleep.

My eyes opened slightly, I had woken up but for what reason?

I slid slowly out of bed and there was a knock on the door.

The house was quiet, it was the middle of the night and the music has been turned down to a light hum.

Suspiciously I opened the door to a smirking Xavier...

This was just a dream I repeated excessively to myself.

I closed my eyes trying to wake myself up, after a few moments with no avail.

I glanced up to a now smiling Xavier; I had to dig my nails into my skin to stop myself from giving in to him. He has so much power over me.

I felt his touch on my cheek; he softly ran his fingers across my jawline and tingles starting developing all over me. He slowly brushed his fingers over my lips and my breath hitched. My eyes fluttered closed and my mind drifted.

Nothing happened for a moment and I opened my eyes slightly and he had moved closer.

He leaned closer, until I could feel his warm breath on my lips.

I parted them, prepared for his lips, I felt his lips briefly touch mine.

My heartbeat picked up to twice its normal speed and the tiny touch made my heart go crazy.

I couldn't think straight, a moment after that I opened my eyes, because I couldn't feel his lips on mine.

He had gone, I looked out the doorway and no one was in sight.

He had teased me then left me hanging just like in reality.

I blinked my eyes and I was in bed, I stared up at the ceiling. Sighing I stood up and stretched, staggering towards the slightly ajar door. I thought I locked it though.

Noticing the music has died down a lot I stepped out into the hallway. Carefully walking around sleep entailed bodies.

Reaching her room I leant against the door, attempting to gain enough confidence to open the door. Would he still be in there?

Turning around slowly I put my hand on the handle, relieved he wasn't behind me this time.

Stepping inside, all eyes turned to me. I slightly blushed in embarrassment.

I noticed Xavier there first, he had a blank look on his face, I pursed my lips, does he not show any emotion?

Zac and Alex had sympathetic smiles and Sienna and Amelia had a slight pout on their faces.

I sat down unfortunately next to Xavier with Sienna on my other side.

It was my sister's birthday; I couldn't wallow in my miseries any longer. It was a special day and as her brother I had to do what was right.

Turning towards my sister I gave her a hug, "Happy 18th Birthday" I wished her in the happiest voice I could muster.

"Are you alright?" Amelia asked me with concern written all over her face. I narrowed my eyes at her, jealous Xavier would kiss her, my best friend!

Sighing I gave a fake smile, "I'm 100% fine, don't worry about me". She has a look of regret on her face and I felt bad instantly, she didn't kiss him...he kissed her. So it was alright wasn't it?

I fiddled with my hands, looking away from her knowing glance, did she figure it out already?

She got up and gave me a hug, hugging her back a little awkwardly. I smiled, she will always be my best friend, no matter what. I could always count on her and she will always be there for me. I knew that much.

Sliding my hands down my face, I produced a smile, trying to lift the room's atmosphere.

But one look at Xavier, turned it upside down.

This night didn't turn out the way I wanted at all.

Not one bit.

I swear I will not fall in love with him, it will only end in more heartbreak and total embarrassment.

That is a promise.

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Hope you liked this chapter, took a lot of effort and fixing up, well im glad I'm done now. So please comment, vote and fan if u liked it :D

Next Chapter will definitely be out when i finish some more holiday homework.

See ya xoxo

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