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Heyy guys, sorry for this late chapter, I was very sick and then i got lazy. BUT now im done, so i hope this is good enough, because i dont particulary like some of it.

Dedication to the boyxboy library for adding my story to their list :D

Sienna and Zac on the side :)

Paradise :)

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Chapter 3

Befriending instead of Falling

After leaving my sisters room, I walked the little way towards my room and slumped against the door. Burying my head in my hands and curling up my legs, quickly falling asleep. It had been a long night.

Waking up late in the afternoon, I was still in that position on the floor. Well thanks caring friends for putting me into bed I thought to myself.

Slipping into my room I got ready for the first day of the year, dressed in my new clothes, I strode down the stairs towards the main room. Surprisingly everyone was already gone and the place was spotless. Pleased I wouldn't have to help clean, I jumped over the couch intending to relax.

But landed on someone that would be no longer sleeping, he groaned turning over so he was under me. Seems like there was still one person here. I repositioned myself so I could find out who he was.

Alex.

Relieved it wasn't in fact Xavier, I leaned down and rested against his body. Sighing I snuggled into him, he felt really comfortable.

I felt him tense up but ignored it, he put his hands around my upper arms, trying to push me away. He was such an idiot, I wouldn't make a move on him. He was my best friend, I couldn't really see him as boyfriend material.

I'm quite sure he knows about my sexuality now, but I'm not ready to confirm his suspicions yet. At least I haven't noticed anything different about him, which is a great relief.

I looked him in the eyes, seeing nervousness. Smirking to myself, I quickly decided to tease him a bit.

No words have since been spoken but I was the one to break that.

"Alex" I called in a sing song voice.

His eyes widened, he knew trouble always followed that. He struggled to move out of my tight grasp.

"Feeling left out? Want a kiss from the ever so sexy me?" I bit my lip, pretending to be flirty.

Locking eyes, I leaned closer until our lips were close to touching, feeling him move back I put my hands in his hair, tugging him closer.

"Don't Aiden! W-What are you doing!?" he panicked, trying to get out from under me.

"Just saying good afternoon" Smirking once again, I got off him easily and walked away out of the room.

Chuckling to myself I looked around for someone to talk to. Catching Sienna's eye, I walked up to her with a smile on my face, getting closer to her, stretching my arms out. She smiled at me, happy that I was actually showing signs of affection for once, not that, it isn't suspicious at all. She must think I'm being nice to her just because it is new years and her birthday.

Instead of hugging her, I shouted in her right ear, "18 and 1 day!"

Running away I kept shouting the same thing repeatedly, intending to annoy her. I could hear her cries of frustration as I ran across the house. She is such a drama queen; it is so easy to annoy her.

I grinned as I raced out of the house, running away from my sister. I stumbled over the steps and fell.

I closed my eyes to try and lessen the impact of my fall, bracing myself for it, but it never came.

Opening my eyes, I suddenly felt arms around my waist, my breathing came out in quiet gasps. I was saved by, turning around I came face to face, with...

Xavier.

Just this morning I has promised myself I wouldn't fall for him, after a long discussion that was going nowhere, with myself. I came to a conclusion of trying to befriend him. It was better than trying to become his boyfriend, which would be impossible.

Righting myself I turned to face him, as self-confidence seeped into me. Swallowing my nervousness, I gave him a real smile, a dazzling one in fact. This smile meant a lot more, it had forgiveness and understanding as well as a little bit of love.

Trying to act as normal as possible, around the irresistible guy, I walked over to my car, and beckoned him in. Giving me a small smile, he hesitantly climbed in with me as I drove.

I smiled secretly to myself, glad he actually decided to come with me.

Turning uncertainly towards him I asked "We can be friends, can't we?"

Inside I was silently pleading he would say yes, but it was a 50/50 thing. I kept driving for a little while, he hadn't answered me and did he even hear me?

I looked across at him; he looked at me "Yeah we can" I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding, he looked at me. "Um that was nothing" I looked away with a slight blush on my cheeks.

Arriving at our destination, I parked and climbed out. He followed behind "Ice cream?"

"Yeah, do you like it?" I felt like I needed his satisfaction, I'm going to always want to please him. Whether it was a good or bad thing I don't know yet.

"It's cool" seems like his comment had a double meaning since the shop was cold.

I stood next to him at the counter "About yesterday..."he began.

"You don't have to say anything, I get it"

"Well, I just wanted to say the k-kiss we had didn't mean anything, it was just because of the new year"

"It's fine, I thought so" slumping against the counter, I felt like an idiot, how could I think a guy like him would kiss me and like it. 

We got our icecreams and walked towards the beach, I laid on the sand looking at the setting sun, it looked beautiful.

"Um, I'm sorry about being a jerk"

"There's nothing to be sorry about, just forget it" really I just want him to kiss me again, but as if that is going to happen, after I just asked him to be friends. It's for the best anyway.

"Ok" I looked at him from the corner of my eye, he had a smile, a real smile. I smiled at him, I guess this will just be one of those secret crushes, where you crush on your best friend. There is going to be a lot of drama, I can feel it.

"Anyway, it's not like the kiss meant anything to you either right?" my eyes widened.

"Um of course...not" I was so relieved I was even able to answer that.

"And it's not like you have a crush on me right?" I choked on my icecream, but he didn't notice, he was watching the waves crashing onto the shore.

"Um no"

"Good, want to come in for a swim?" I guess that was eye opening... ,so liking him would be a bad idea. Ok at least I've got that through my head now and know that it would be stupid to even try. Well I.... I'm thinking too much into it.

"I don't have my boardies"

"Just take off your shirt"

I blushed turning bright red "Um ok", mustering up the only courage I had left, I pulled my shirt off. I quickly glanced at Xavier's reaction, but he looked emotionless. So I quickly ran up to the shoreline, wary to go in. I took a step in and it was freezing but then I felt Xavier jump onto my back. I fell face first into the sand, choking on the salty water.

I recovered, standing up and pushing Xavier off me, though I did like him there. I was completely soaked and it felt horrible, I turned around and glared at Xavier. It didn't last very long with that sad pout he was pulling, he was just too cute.

"I was just teasing, come on, swim with me!"

"Ok!" I swam towards him and pulled him under. Revenge.

We swam around, teasing each other, just like best friends would. We threw sandballs and covered each other in sand. We spent the whole afternoon there together. I think we clicked, just like that.

The beach was really fun, a special place that has marked the beginning of our friendship.

I guess we don't have to be together to have fun.

After getting back from the beach, Xavier left to Sienna's room. While I was on my lonesome. 

I called Alex over. I heard him enter the house, and then he was at the door.

"Hey" I beckoned him in lazily.

He looked hesitant to enter "Hi"

After hours, of button mashing game playing, I turned it off. Turning towards him "Um I've been meaning to ask you, what you thought of Xavier kissing Amelia..?"

"It's alright, I guess, it's not like she kissed him"

"Yeah I know" So I guess I can't be mad at Xavier, even though he did subtly trick me...or not. I don't 100% know.

"Why are you asking?" Alex asked staring right at me.

"Um...no reason" I was freaking out internally and trying not to show it at the same time. Was that a hint, that he knows about me? I don't think I can risk him finding out.

I fell back on the bed and closed my eyes in comfort.

"What happened last night?" the inevitable question was asked.

I sighed "It's complicated"

"You can't give me an answer like that"

"I'm not sure Alex, I'll tell you everything when I do, don't worry about me, bestie" I said seriously then ending with a playful tone. I was trying to ease the mood, that was building, the atmosphere was getting heated.

"Ok, you better not be lying so promise" he held out his pinky, he could be so childish. But trust is a big thing for him, breaking his trust, is like death.

Rolling my eyes playfully, I gripped his pinky "Promise"

I was glad that was over, I think I would have ended up spilling everything to him if he asked enough times. It was one of my weaknesses, I just get so annoyed.

I heard someone at the door, confused I climbed up from the bed and opened it slightly.

Sienna.

"Why are you standing like that?" She was sprawled on the ground, seemingly she has fallen.

"I was totally not listening to your conversation"

"Congratulations on your fantastic lying skills" I clapped sarcastically, looking pointedly at her.

"So what if I listened, will you tell me too though"

"I'll think about it ok?"

"Yes! I'll go now, bye" she is obviously in need of some gossip, she is so weird sometimes. I turned on my feet back into my room. Alex was still where he was "I'll be back in a minute"

Moving out of the room to the hallway, I creeped up to my sisters door, crouching against it and putting my ear on it.

"...you kissed him...not the other way around?!" I heard my sister whisper loudly

"Yeah, I don't know, I wasn't thinking straight" You got that right...

They were talking about me...

"Why did you deny it before, he is probably hurt from it"

"I'm not sure, it was my first reaction"

She huffed "He's my brother, don't hurt him or you will regret it"

"Don't worry we are friends now"

"Oh good, because you two aren't gay right?"

"No, I'm pretty sure I'm not"

"If you say so"

"I know so, I gotta go now, it's already late, bye"

"Bye, see you later"

Shit I have to move! I actually found out a lot, I quickly scurried back into my room. Leaning against my door I came face to face with Alex.

"Um where did you go?"

"Just to the toilet" I answered casually, not looking him in the eye.

There was a knock on the door, I got off it and opened it.

"Hey I was just about to leave, so I wanted to say bye to you"

"Oh right, bye Xavier" I gave him a smile as he waved walking downstairs.

Alex left not long after, leaving me to my own thoughts, it's great my sister cares about me, even though she is really weird and is Xavier really 100% straight?

But today was a really fun, I love the beach and I... like Xavier... as a friend.

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So, i hope this was a good chapter, it was a pretty good length and i used a pun i think haha

Also the 18 and 1 day, i used it myself, my family got really annoyed, but i turned 16 haha

Paradise <3

Hopefully i can get another two chapters out before i start school, or at least one, this week :)

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