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Hey guys, i just finished school earlier today, so I thought I should update, since i love you guys so much XD haha so expect a few more updates, I have two weeks break :) Hope you guys like the chapter or not like it, because of what happens cough...

myparadise15 <3

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Chapter 8

One surprise too many

For once, I was happy to go to school, it would mean that I would be able to see Xavier. I practically jumped out of bed. It seemed empty without Xavier there, he left yesterday morning. He looked out of it, like he was thinking way too much about something. He didn't say much to me before he left, except that he was going to see someone. I just nodded to him and told him I'd see him at school. I spun around the room, in the happiest mood I had been in months.

I quickly got ready for school, I was dressed in some tight fitting jeans, a ripped blue shirt and a sexy leather jacket. I checked myself out in the mirror, looking good I said to myself. My confidence has seriously gone up since the weekend events. Could Xavier really like me? I grinned happily, racing downstairs I grabbed my sister. I dragged her toward her car, as I started literally jumping on the spot.

"What's up with you and STOP you're ruining my top!" she gave me a slight glare and moved out of my grasp. She hopped in the car and I slipped in next to her.

"Um...I think Xavier might like me" I admitted to her, slightly embarrassed. An emotion passed through her eyes, but I couldn't tell what it was. I nervously started fidgeting with the end of my shirt. "What do you think, sis?"

"I'm not sure, maybe ask Zac" she replied then turned back to the road, driving us to school. We walked into school together and I noticed that she appeared a little distant, since I told her about Xavier. What did she know that I didn't?

I stuffed my bag in my locker and walked towards my friends, they were all there except Xavier. Usually it's just us three, Alex, Amelia and me, but this summer a lot has happened.  As I approached them, I could see Zac animatedly telling them something, causing them all to burst out laughing.

I smiled as I stepped in between them, they all greeted me with a smile, but I could tell something was going on that I didn't know about. I could see the looks in their eyes and the looks they kept shooting at each other, I gave Alex a confused look and he just shook his head. I would ask him about it later, when I could get him alone. Dismissing it for now, I dragged the two lovers to our first class.

"Math" I slumped against the seat, tired from waking up early. I could hear whispers behind me. I decided to be sneaky and listen in on their conversation.

"Yeah, she was away for the holidays but now she's back"

"So they are back together right?"

"Yup, I haven't seen her yet, but she is probably with him"

"Yeah, he's really hot, Sophie is so lucky"

"What's her boyfriend's name again?"

"Ok class, let's begin!" the teacher shouted, the noise slowly died down. I wonder who Sophie is and who her boyfriend is? Whatever, it's not my business anyway. I scribbled down the notes as the class zoomed past. I scooped up my books, said goodbye to my friends and walked to my next class.

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Pretty soon it was lunch, the day was half over. It was only the first day so it had been pretty relaxed. I rushed towards my locker, shoved all my stuff in and grabbed my lunch. I calmed down a little, smiled and walked outside to find my friends. Every year we hung out at a different place in the school. I looked around and I noticed something off to the side. I had a bad feeling. My eyes fell on a couple kissing pretty deeply, I put it off as just some random couple. I felt like shouting out to keep it PG, I smiled, but that was not long lived.

I started walking past them to my friends that I just spotted under the trees, when one of them pulled away and their face was revealed. It was someone I knew, it was Xavier. My friends were watching me with this look on their faces. Everything froze then, I couldn't tear my eyes away from them, I couldn't believe what i was seeing. Xavier caught my stare and I turned away quickly. I could feel all the emotions I had been holding onto, building up almost at breaking point. I clenched my fists and walked away then ran as far away as possible.

I stopped under my favourite spot in the school, it was pretty quiet but that soon changed. As I felt a sob break through my barrier, I hugged myself. I could feel the tears rolling down my face, as I tried to stop it happening. I felt like a complete idiot, why would he like me? How could I even think that there was even a slight possibility!

I cursed myself for being falling in love with him so easily. I guess those girls was talking about Xavier and... Sophie. How! How could he kiss me, flirt with me and make me love him so much. Then break my heart in a matter of seconds, this is just the worst. I was thinking way too much, but I couldn't stop. Does this mean all that time, he had a girlfriend. Did Sienna know the whole time and kept it a secret, I should have listened to her.

I couldn't stop crying, I felt so weak, how could one action turn into this, I wish I could just rewind. Did everyone know about ...Sophie and the real me. My head was going crazy and my heart felt like stopping. One little crush has completely changed me, one thing's for sure, I'm never falling in love again, if it hurts this bad.

I stood up and quickly ran to my locker, I grabbed my bag and made a run for it. I couldn't stay here, as long as Xavier was here and I definitely don't want to see any of my friends. I ran across the empty hallway, with my steps faltering, as I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that he was taken. That whole entire time, it was just a joke to him, he was just teasing me, it meant absolutely nothing to him, when it meant the world to me.  

I picked up the pace, I had to get out of here before the teachers saw me. I could see the exit then I slammed hard into someone. I groaned, lifting my head off the floor and I stared up into familiar eyes. He was with... Sophie, I zeroed in on their hands, with were clutched together. My eyes watered as looks of concern appeared on both their faces. He opened his mouth, but was interrupted my his...girlfriend, she was really pretty. 

"Are you alright, do you need help?" Sophie asked, offering her hand. I ignored her, picking myself up off the ground, I shot a shaky smile at Xavier, brushed my arm over my eyes, wiping off the tears that were leaking out. I ran the remaining length towards the exit, opening the door tentatively checking for supervising teachers. Noting that the coast was clear I took a step, then another.

Then I was grabbed, my mouth dropped open in shock, I struggled out of the persons grip and turned around. It was Alex, I rubbed my wrist where he had grabbed me. The rest of my friends were a few steps behind him. I looked away from them, not in the mood to discuss. I crossed my arms over my chest and tried to stop myself from breaking down in front of them.

"Aiden..." Sienna started.

"Don't! I don't want to talk about it" I turned away from them and ran away, hearing their shouts. I stopped outside my house, out of breath, I unlocked the door and stepped inside. I ran up to my room and collapsed on the bed. I laid on my back and ran my fingers through my hair, what am I going to do I whispered to myself. 

I felt vulnerable like I would break apart. I wrapped the cover over me and tried to fall asleep, things had changed. I wasn't the guy that was there this morning, he was long gone, but the thing is after today, I don't regret falling for him. He had showed me what love is really like.

So this is what it feels like to be heartbroken.

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I sensed a sudden rush of cold air, I opened my eyes and I saw my friends standing across the room. "Go away" I said groaning as they came closer and sat on the bed. Why were they even here, there was nothing to discuss.

"Aiden, I'm really sorry" my sister began, "I really wanted to tell you but you looked so happy this morning and I just... couldn't" she looked so regretful, I couldn't blame her, it wasn't her fault.

"It's ok, really, I'm fine" I told her. Sienna must have told my friends the story about me liking Xavier, not that i really mind. It's good that they knew I was gay and they didn't care. They didn't seem surprised either.

"Did you know... even if I didn't tell you?" I asked looking at Alex then Amelia.

"Yeah...it was hard not to notice" Alex said chuckling softly.

"Yeah" I replied, I lowered my eyes and ran my hands down my face. "Zac, why did he do this to me, I-I thought he liked me" I asked him, my voice cracking in between. Still freezing, I grabbed my cover from his hands and wrapped it across my shoulders.

He gave me a sad look, "I didn't know he was doing this to you, he just has a naturally flirty personality, its not a surprise you thought it was real, I'm truly sorry Aiden, but he was just teasing" I nodded and bit back tears. Its harder to hear the truth from someone else, I shakily left out a laugh.

"I was an idiot to even think that, its not his fault, he was out of my league anyway, I knew he was straight but I just couldn't..." I trailed off, staring out the window, it was soon becoming dark.

"You're not an idiot Aiden, don't even think that, you are far from it, I just found out about all this today, I should have known" I nodded in response, I should have told them earlier, maybe they could have stopped me from getting into this mess.

"It's ok guys, go home, I'll be alright, it's not the end of the world" I told them and leaned against the bed, in a relaxed position. I gave them a weary smile and they left, saying they would talk to me later. Sienna showed them out and I was alone again.

I got ready for bed, I was going to have an early sleep and I without a doubt needed it after a day like today. Climbing back into bed, I took out my phone subconsciously to check the time. My eyes landed on a picture of us from a few days ago, my frown deepened. My jealously and love for him had ruined our friendship, this is what could have been.

My finger hovered over the delete button of the photo, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I sighed, flicking through to my messages, I had a few from my friends from earlier and a few my both my parents. I ignored them, i would get back to them later. One in particular stood out, it was Xavier's.

I hesitantly opened the message, "Hey Aiden, why were you crying today? Do you want me to come over, I could try and help." I tapped reply and with just a sentence reply, I pretended, "I just got a bad mark, nothing to worry about Xavier"

When I clicked send, I instantaneously got a reply, "Ok Aiden, I'll give you a hug when I see you tomorrow" my breath hitched, this is why I fell for him, I replied with one word, "Don't".

I quickly shut off my phone and tried to fall asleep. What is he going to say to me after seeing that, it was just in the heat of the moment.  I have to avoid him, or it will just lead to further embarassment. As I slowly drifted off to sleep, my mind flashed to new years when we kissed.

If only he were mine.

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I love you guys, lots of reads :) but i would love some comments and votes please :p

Next chapter will be from Xavier's POV i think, ahha, maybeeeeeee 

Paradise :)

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