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One week later...

Jimin's POV

"Erm...today your voice condition is not bad," RM hyung smiled and pressed the stop button.

We were recording for our newest album and my part was the last before its completed.

"Gumawol hyung, this is the few rare times that you praised me. You're quite serious and scary during recording you know..."

"Yah, don't make me seem so mean. Your voice is really good."

"Waaaahh, I can record songs for the whole day with this positive energy here."

"Hmmm..." Namjoon hyung touched his chin and looked at me with a troubled expression, "well..."

"There seem to be something on your mind hyung," I pointed out before sitting on the sofa.

And I was right, he nodded his head and stared at me one more time. "Ne," he said before taking a seat beside me. The atmosphere instantly became tense as Namjoon hyung avoided my eye contact and merely intertwined his fingers.

RM: So...how's you and Yoongi hyung...and Jungkookie?

JM: W-what do you mean hyung?

RM: Do you plan to treat as if nothing happened and think that we are so blind that we don't even notice the drastic change with you three?

JM: Something...something just happened among us few days back.

RM: Let me guess...one week ago, when Jungkookie was sick, when you went to Yoongi hyung's studio, when Yoongi hyung came home afterwards with swollen eyes, right?

JM: Ne.

RM: He...broke up with you?

JM: Ne.

RM: You don't know what to do now?

JM: Ne. Wait...why are you even asking me when you can predict all these?

RM: Because I'm a genius. Anyways, so what do you plan to do now?

JM: To be honest, I don't know, hyung. Yoongi hyung haven't been talking to me since the break up, and to me, the split just felt so unrealistic. And when the fact that he's no longer my boyfriend hit me hard, I questioned myself why that day I actually did not stop hyung from doing that? I don't know hyung...I like the both of them, yet, there's nothing I can do to make the both of them happy.

RM: You need to make a choice between them two, and apparently, Yoongi hyung has already helped you make the decision.

JM: But this is not the ending I want. Yoongi hyung is obviously very affected by the break-up, he hardly even eat much or sleep much, just locking himself in the studio for the entire day. As for Jungkookie, I really don't know how I should face him anymore.

RM: But didn't Yoongi hyung said things like you should be with Jungkook?

JM: Ne, he did. He said 'hyung would be fine, hyung will be alright, just be with Kookie' - and he's obviously lying with the 'alright' part. 

RM: Can you imagine how much pain he must have felt to say those things?

JM: True, Yoongi hyung really suffered a lot when he's with me. But then, I just don't understand why are people making decision for me? They're not me, I don't know how I feel. Firstly is Kookie, who promised Yoongi hyung to back off; next is Yoongi hyung, who said that I should be with Kookie. Why? Why am I pushed around and am not even asked for my opinion?

RM: They probably think that you're too incapable of getting your feelings right, and they did what they thought was best for you.

JM: I just don't like the fact that they keep pushing me around. I need time to sort out my feelings hyung, and passing me around like a medicine ball just isn't helping.

RM: I guess, you finally got what you need!

JM: W-what is this?

RM: Time, you need time to know yourself, to know who you truly love, to know how to end this perfectly.

JM: Jinjaro hyung? Is it that simple?

RM: Hmm...if your IQ is like mine, then yup! But with half of my IQ, hmm...I can only say, just be decisive Jimin, don't drag it any further.

With that, Namjoon hyung patted my back and gave me an assured smile. "Let's go and have our dinner, it's a wrap for today."

"Kumawol hyung," I returned the smile, "I feel much better talking to you."

"Feel free to consult me anytime, I charge $10 per hour only," he winked as we walked to the meeting room, where the others were, to find them.

However, the moment I stepped in the room, I have this ominous feeling. This was further worsen by the members' faces. There were only 3 people in the room, V J-hope and Jin hyung, all with a frown on their faces.

Upon seeing our arrival, J-hope hyung immediately went up me, with the same troubled expression Namjoon hyung had just now – the feeling of wanting to tell me something yet is hesitant.

"Wae hyung? What happened?"

"I...they...erm..." his hands were shivering, while his voice was on the verge of breaking.

Jin: Yoongi and Kookie skipped practice today.

Jimin: Wae?

Jin: They didn't say anything. They weren't at home ever since morning.

Jimin: That's weird.

J-hope: That's not the main point.

RM: Then? Go straight to your point.

J-hope: Just now we received a news from manager hyung. He said...he said that Suga hyung and Kookie were involved in an accident and both were sent to the hospital.

Jimin: MWO?!?

V: We also don't know the details yet.

Jimin: Where are they now?

V: Korea hospital.

I shook my head in disbelief as I slowly stepped out of the room. I was probably even too shock to cry or scream. I was lost for words. My legs felt weak as I leaned against the window.

It was raining heavily. I glanced through the layer of glass, observing how the raindrops fall from the sky. And everytime it reaches the ground, my heart too got a pound heavier.

Scenarios became to flash through my mind. Why did this happen to them? Why was there an accident? What if they...did not survive? What is gonna happen then? I will definitely not be able to survive without them. Is it because of me? Is it my fault?

No, Park Jimin, this isn't the time to sit here and cry.

After heaving a deep breath, I stood up and sprinted out of the company as fast as possible. Staffs warned me of the heavy rain and the security guards even tried to pass me an umbrella but I ignored them all. I ran, with a heavy heart, along the road side to hail a taxi.

Raindrops fell onto my skin, soaking my clothes wet. My vision went blurred due to my tears but I quickly wipe it away.

Finally in a taxi, I looked out of the window with my fingers crossed. Everything just happened so quickly, so sudden I didn't have time to take a breath.

I closed my eyes to pray but all I could see was his face. The smiling face that he used to smile at me; the happy moments we had experience together; the kisses we shared - every little or should I say important moments we had begun to replay in my mind. I broke his heart so badly, I didn't have a chance to love him properly and now...is he gonna leave me forever? Why can't I be the one who's in the accident? Why can't I be the one who's getting hurt? I rather suffer physical pain than this emotional heartache...because...its killing me...

Tears were still falling even when I reached the hospital. I could feel stares on me, probably because I'm a public figure, but that wasn't the main point.

As directed by the nurse, I rushed to the VIP room. Standing outside the room was manager hyung, who was speaking on the phone. He waved to me before pointing to the room. Peeking through the small window, I saw two beds in the relatively huge room. I didn't take a good look, probably still afraid to face the truth.

Manager hyung's face was expressionless, neither was there a doctor nor a nurse to ask about their condition. All possible reply came to my mind, listing from the worst to the best. I did my prayers once again as I slowly opened the room door...

Suga hyung was the first one I saw, followed by Kookie. They were both sleeping. Their faces looked fine, and there's no complicated machine beside nor a heartbeat reader. This is a good sign, convincing me that their conditions weren't that serious.

At this moment, Suga hyung turned around with his eyes slightly opened.

"Oh you're here," he mumbled. I nodded my head, my eyes were fixated on the ground, I dare not look into his eyes. "Don't worry, I'm still alive, you're not in heaven," he joked.

Lifting my head up in disbelief, my eyes noticed how Yoongi hyung slowly forced out a smile, assuring me that he's alright. "You can even crack jokes, that's good," I returned the smile.

The one in front of me is Suga hyung, I reminded myself, not the hyung who was once my boyfriend, but Suga hyung, the hyung who would always say he's fine in front of his dongsaengs, the hyung who hates aeygo but always use his aeygo voice when calling me 'chim chim'.

I totally forgot about the fact that we hadn't been talking for a week. We just began our conversation so normally. As Yoongi hyung attempted to get up, he quickly stopped by me. "Hyung, don't move around."

"Ayyy I'm fine, don't treat me as an old man. Come, help me up."

As told, I placed his pillow up straight, allowing him to lean on it, before controlling the bed angle upright.

Jimin: Hyung, are you alright?

Suga: Duh, if not I wouldn't be here.

Jimin: You're right. Are you hurt anywhere? You look fine to me though.

Suga: I'm fine, just a few cuts here and there. Kookie is the one who's more badly injured.

Jimin: Jinja? What happened to him?

Suga: According to the nurse, I think he sprained his leg when saving me. Not serious but needs to stay back for observation.

Jimin: Ahhh. What happened exactly?

Suga: We were on a taxi, going back to the company. Probably due to the heavy rain, the taxi driver did not see a pedestrian crossing the road. Thus when he tried to swerve away at the last moment, the car hit a tree. I think he was more badly hurt compared to us.

I bent forward to look at the maknae who was still sleeping soundly. Indeed, his leg was in a cast and there were some cuts on his face. 

"Why...why did the both of you skip practice hyung?" I asked. 

The slight smile on Yoongi hyung's face immediately disappeared, replaced by a straight face. "Well...we...had a small talk..."

Publishing the next chapter in a few hours, please give me some time >< 

BTW IT'S KOOKIE'S BIRTHDAY!!!!! YAY LOVING THE DERP VIDEOS THEY POSTED HAHAHA!!

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